Dr ICE Scream Maker: Slasher of Fash 🔪
@pwr2dppl.bsky.social
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The liberated (and disabled) mathematician. Solidarity and accessible vibes only. Black + AuDHD + Not Open to Being Mistreated. she/they ∉ women. 🏳️‍🌈
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If you are transphobic or gender critical or whatever you call yourself if you have anything nice to say about JKR or whatever other TERFs make headlines etc

I skeet not for thee! You don't get to laugh at my jokes! You can hang out with the nazis and die mad.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
There's no head 😅. I have contact info for one board member, but like a school that has uniforms I think they will just not think anything is relevant. This school is fully democratic with students voting on retaining staff, for instance.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
Me yelling at my thermostat for implicitly accusing me of hormones
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
Oh god I've let go of so many ideas I want to hold on to 18 for a bit longer😭😭😭
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pwr2dppl.bsky.social
*banging on pots and pans*

CAPITALISM IS BAD FOR YOUR HEALTH
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
We're fine! I'm fine! Everything's fine! Lol. I just

oh right

I was raised to be opposed to reassurance. So I need it but can't get it. But it is vaguely reassuring when nobody has more useful advice. I used to assume answers were out there but that was years ago.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
Yeah I mean mostly when I'm looking for help here it's like I'm just checking there isn't help 😅😅
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
The world wasn't made for us. I've made my world for him. But I won't have him for much longer.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
And sure I'm doing a great job blah blah blah lmao. But like. If everything comes crashing down on us, I will be the only one who saw it coming.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
So I'm just sitting here aware. Aware!! Of how the school could be better but isn't. Of the good and the bad happening at other schools. Of how much attention I needed and didn't get and how much attention I'm sure my kid needs but doesn't know how to ask for and high-key doesn't want.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
But like he's in school now. I kept him out until last year. Finally found a school that agreed with our values. EXCEPT??? they completely do not understand neurodivergence. So he's not being exposed to normal stuff, on purpose, but I think his school is not holding up their end of the bargain.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
Well so what I do is *nothing* and then I *confess to the internet in case there's something I could do* and then when there isn't i go back to doing nothing
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pwr2dppl.bsky.social
I'm scared for how we both lose time all the time. But not bc he currently has any deadlines. I'm just i guess having a bit of panic.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
I guess I seek a magic that allows us to discuss if he has goals and how we can assess progress but without him feeling judged or criticized. Maybe this isn't an ADHD thing at all. But I guess if he didn't have ADHD I would be less worried about his time.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
He is completely free and I'm fine with that except that there's no oversight.

I guess it's like most of the world is judgmental and cruel and time obsessed and I have shielded him from that but... shouldn't I also be preparing him? But I can't liberatorily prepare someone for oppression.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
If I ask if we can talk about something he wants to know exactly what. Which is not something I know until I'm talking.
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
We're both AuDHD. We're both always right in the middle of something. I hate being interrupted, he hates scheduling personal things.
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Honestly I don't even know. I think I just feel like I only know One Way of learning and it involves a lot of Bad Things.

But on a basic basic level we can't even like

agree to talk lololol
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
It's more like I can think "if nothing changes in three years he might regret that" without believing there's anything wrong with how things are right now. I can't communicate this. And I know things will change over the next three years but might they change better if I know what I'm doing?
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
Failure in the abstract nothing has been defined to even fail yet!
pwr2dppl.bsky.social
I mean I'm demand avoidant too but we're not even talking about me trying to get anything to happen. I'm just like trying to figure out.... I guess what support he secretly needs that he can't tell me lol. I have the ability to pessimistically predict failure without judgment but I think he can't