ivy astarael, an ocean of tears
@ivyeternal.bsky.social
aphrodite has but one precept
you must love yourself
let everything else flow from that
new england / dark woods / ocean salt
38, audhd
you must love yourself
let everything else flow from that
new england / dark woods / ocean salt
38, audhd
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Astarael
Queer Noise
1312: Witchery
Astarael is a multi-instrumentalist, multi-disciple artist from northern New England who has been making electronic music for 20 years.
Capitalism is a cage
astarael-drone.bandcamp.com
since apparently i can pin posts now
i write queer noise music
~ astarael ~
:: queer noise ::
it it's electronic and weird, i probably have my fingers in it
everything i've put up is pay-what-you-want
if you want to collaborate musically, dm me
astarael-drone.bandcamp.com
i write queer noise music
~ astarael ~
:: queer noise ::
it it's electronic and weird, i probably have my fingers in it
everything i've put up is pay-what-you-want
if you want to collaborate musically, dm me
astarael-drone.bandcamp.com
my gf's grad school studies have opened my eyes to just how horrifically the american medical system hates sex
like, i knew it was bad
but now i know ~in great detail~
like, i knew it was bad
but now i know ~in great detail~
December 12, 2025 at 12:42 AM
my gf's grad school studies have opened my eyes to just how horrifically the american medical system hates sex
like, i knew it was bad
but now i know ~in great detail~
like, i knew it was bad
but now i know ~in great detail~
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behold! the forbidden alcohol that makes girls kiss girls
December 12, 2025 at 12:05 AM
behold! the forbidden alcohol that makes girls kiss girls
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I think some people think The Game Awards are more important than they are because they called it “The Game Awards”
it’s just called that
it’s a sponsored award show started by a journalist/presenter in 2014, it’s not the industries highest honour
it’s just called that
it’s a sponsored award show started by a journalist/presenter in 2014, it’s not the industries highest honour
December 11, 2025 at 11:42 PM
I think some people think The Game Awards are more important than they are because they called it “The Game Awards”
it’s just called that
it’s a sponsored award show started by a journalist/presenter in 2014, it’s not the industries highest honour
it’s just called that
it’s a sponsored award show started by a journalist/presenter in 2014, it’s not the industries highest honour
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my favourite things from the sound of music is absolutely NOT a christmas song and i will die on this hill
December 11, 2025 at 6:16 PM
my favourite things from the sound of music is absolutely NOT a christmas song and i will die on this hill
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Uwu, werewolves of London. Uwu.
December 11, 2025 at 6:36 PM
Uwu, werewolves of London. Uwu.
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Back before my transition when my conservative Christian parents were still trying to groom me into being a "man", a huge point of conflict between us was that I wasn't controlling my partner enough. That I was failing to fulfill my role by not controlling my partner's behavior.
I sort of wish y'all took this more seriously, because this attitude is a reinforcement of heterosexuality as a hierarchy. It's an acknowledgement and understanding that it's not enough to "be with" a woman, or even to father children.
They define manhood as exploitation, abuse, and dominance.
They define manhood as exploitation, abuse, and dominance.
"Everything straight is actually gay" is my favourite kind of ragebait posts by these morons.
December 10, 2025 at 4:28 PM
Back before my transition when my conservative Christian parents were still trying to groom me into being a "man", a huge point of conflict between us was that I wasn't controlling my partner enough. That I was failing to fulfill my role by not controlling my partner's behavior.
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With all due respect, we’ve been doing terrible and evil things around the world for a very long time. No doubt American foreign policy is getting more brutal, more violent, more domineering, more depraved. But let’s not lie to ourselves about what we’ve been doing for centuries
I hope people understand that if Trump gets his way America will soon be part of the global axis of evil if we aren't already. You see it in the Caribbean, you see it in Ukraine, and you see it with Trump trying to buddy up to Xi. We are a malevolent force.
December 11, 2025 at 2:48 PM
With all due respect, we’ve been doing terrible and evil things around the world for a very long time. No doubt American foreign policy is getting more brutal, more violent, more domineering, more depraved. But let’s not lie to ourselves about what we’ve been doing for centuries
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whenever someone expects me to give them free social and domestic labor i think awwww you think i'm a woman
December 11, 2025 at 8:24 PM
whenever someone expects me to give them free social and domestic labor i think awwww you think i'm a woman
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girlfaith girlbelief girlsoul
December 11, 2025 at 9:15 PM
girlfaith girlbelief girlsoul
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every year around christmas time the ballet dancers who play the rats in the nutcracker come out with a series of unexplained banger tiktok videos and anyway this is my favorite part of the holiday season
December 14, 2024 at 5:06 PM
every year around christmas time the ballet dancers who play the rats in the nutcracker come out with a series of unexplained banger tiktok videos and anyway this is my favorite part of the holiday season
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man, the collective grief from older trans people at the violent death of the world we briefly hoped was coming, a world in which trans children would be recognised, loved, and helped...
yeah.
yeah.
December 11, 2025 at 9:42 AM
man, the collective grief from older trans people at the violent death of the world we briefly hoped was coming, a world in which trans children would be recognised, loved, and helped...
yeah.
yeah.
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why hasn't an office hired me to be their professional pourover girl and furnished me with a pushcart, 3 gooseneck kettles, 5 hario v60s, cups, coffee fixings, and a cute little outfit
December 11, 2025 at 12:59 PM
why hasn't an office hired me to be their professional pourover girl and furnished me with a pushcart, 3 gooseneck kettles, 5 hario v60s, cups, coffee fixings, and a cute little outfit
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sorry sorry it’s one of my favourite poems it’s beautiful and sickly and afraid and horrified and has the bones of a ballade and then it breaks those bones
December 11, 2025 at 6:16 AM
sorry sorry it’s one of my favourite poems it’s beautiful and sickly and afraid and horrified and has the bones of a ballade and then it breaks those bones
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none of the ai slop commercials these companies churn out will have even one-tenth of the cultural impact as the folgers incest commercial and i think that's beautiful
December 10, 2025 at 5:05 AM
none of the ai slop commercials these companies churn out will have even one-tenth of the cultural impact as the folgers incest commercial and i think that's beautiful
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SKULL OF THOMAS AQUINAS: TAKE A LEFT NOW
PRIEST: No, the GPS says we have to keep going—
SKULL: I KNOW A SHORTCUT
PRIEST: Do you remember the last ti—
SKULL: FOR THOSE WITH FAITH, NO EVIDENCE IS NECESSARY; FOR THOSE WITHOUT IT, NO EVIDENCE WILL SUFFICE
PRIEST: No, the GPS says we have to keep going—
SKULL: I KNOW A SHORTCUT
PRIEST: Do you remember the last ti—
SKULL: FOR THOSE WITH FAITH, NO EVIDENCE IS NECESSARY; FOR THOSE WITHOUT IT, NO EVIDENCE WILL SUFFICE
'Skull of St. Thomas Aquinas being transported to Fossanova Abbey.'
Photograph by Daniel Ibanez
Photograph by Daniel Ibanez
December 10, 2025 at 5:10 PM
SKULL OF THOMAS AQUINAS: TAKE A LEFT NOW
PRIEST: No, the GPS says we have to keep going—
SKULL: I KNOW A SHORTCUT
PRIEST: Do you remember the last ti—
SKULL: FOR THOSE WITH FAITH, NO EVIDENCE IS NECESSARY; FOR THOSE WITHOUT IT, NO EVIDENCE WILL SUFFICE
PRIEST: No, the GPS says we have to keep going—
SKULL: I KNOW A SHORTCUT
PRIEST: Do you remember the last ti—
SKULL: FOR THOSE WITH FAITH, NO EVIDENCE IS NECESSARY; FOR THOSE WITHOUT IT, NO EVIDENCE WILL SUFFICE
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Flirting by angrily accusing me of doing witchcraft in my small forest cabin
December 10, 2025 at 6:11 PM
Flirting by angrily accusing me of doing witchcraft in my small forest cabin
new @health.band album? i'm there, immediately
of course, i've already got "ordinary loss" memorized at this point 😅
yes, yes, i know spotify is evil, but it doesn't unlock on bandcamp until friday
of course, i've already got "ordinary loss" memorized at this point 😅
yes, yes, i know spotify is evil, but it doesn't unlock on bandcamp until friday
CONFLICT DLC
open.spotify.com
December 11, 2025 at 5:16 AM
new @health.band album? i'm there, immediately
of course, i've already got "ordinary loss" memorized at this point 😅
yes, yes, i know spotify is evil, but it doesn't unlock on bandcamp until friday
of course, i've already got "ordinary loss" memorized at this point 😅
yes, yes, i know spotify is evil, but it doesn't unlock on bandcamp until friday
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i was socialized post-bop
i am non-functional harmony, i'm modal and quartal surfing the aether
i am non-functional harmony, i'm modal and quartal surfing the aether
December 10, 2025 at 10:01 PM
i was socialized post-bop
i am non-functional harmony, i'm modal and quartal surfing the aether
i am non-functional harmony, i'm modal and quartal surfing the aether
i'm a few weeks late on this one but purity ring continues to paint colours i can taste
big shout to @angelic.style for continually repping their new album
big shout to @angelic.style for continually repping their new album
Purity Ring, by Purity Ring
13 track album
purityring.bandcamp.com
December 9, 2025 at 5:07 PM
i'm a few weeks late on this one but purity ring continues to paint colours i can taste
big shout to @angelic.style for continually repping their new album
big shout to @angelic.style for continually repping their new album
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This isn't just about alters and DID (though it often is). Even singlets with complex trauma end up with parts stuck in the past, acting out survival responses that have long since stopped helping you survive. You have to compassionately show that part that the threat isn't there anymore 💙
December 9, 2025 at 12:42 PM
This isn't just about alters and DID (though it often is). Even singlets with complex trauma end up with parts stuck in the past, acting out survival responses that have long since stopped helping you survive. You have to compassionately show that part that the threat isn't there anymore 💙
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And like all trauma responses, it's maladaptive once you take the leap and actually start living as a woman. Still trying to warn you about a threat that's long past. But the part of you hyper-scrutinising every imperfection of your appearance doesn't understand that you already did the scary thing
December 9, 2025 at 12:42 PM
And like all trauma responses, it's maladaptive once you take the leap and actually start living as a woman. Still trying to warn you about a threat that's long past. But the part of you hyper-scrutinising every imperfection of your appearance doesn't understand that you already did the scary thing
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I know dysphoria is trauma, because it wants you to see the worst in yourself so that you never have to confront the difficult, scary things. If you can't be beautiful, then you don't have to transition, right? It's motivated reasoning all the way down
December 9, 2025 at 12:42 PM
I know dysphoria is trauma, because it wants you to see the worst in yourself so that you never have to confront the difficult, scary things. If you can't be beautiful, then you don't have to transition, right? It's motivated reasoning all the way down
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I don't understand the ins and outs of the trans issue, so won't even pretend to.
But one thing that shed a LOT of light on it for me was how high-profile so-called 'feminists' like JK Rowling were silent as a tomb when it came to the genocide of around 50,000 innocent women and girls in Gaza.
But one thing that shed a LOT of light on it for me was how high-profile so-called 'feminists' like JK Rowling were silent as a tomb when it came to the genocide of around 50,000 innocent women and girls in Gaza.
Unless you're reading this from your private jet, the same system is oppressing us all.
linktr.ee/boldpolitics
linktr.ee/boldpolitics
December 9, 2025 at 12:49 PM
I don't understand the ins and outs of the trans issue, so won't even pretend to.
But one thing that shed a LOT of light on it for me was how high-profile so-called 'feminists' like JK Rowling were silent as a tomb when it came to the genocide of around 50,000 innocent women and girls in Gaza.
But one thing that shed a LOT of light on it for me was how high-profile so-called 'feminists' like JK Rowling were silent as a tomb when it came to the genocide of around 50,000 innocent women and girls in Gaza.
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