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Nameless and Shameless

@babyfirstandlast.bsky.social

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🔞🖤💄⛓️⛓️‍💥💋🖤🔞 No last name to claim. Call me what you like but call me a consenting adult. Creative writing sketches as I process a lot of new firsts and half a lifetime of lasts: what I’m becoming and what I’ll never be again. The alpha and the o-megabrat.

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Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 9d

I go to therapy, I journal, I do shadow work. I exercise, I meditate, I meal prep. I hydrate, I organize, I moisturize.
I'm patient. Mostly. I give myself grace. Sometimes.

I'm working on it.

None of it matters.

Living gluten-free is not a personality and tonight I'm feeling it.

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Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 5h

The Things I Have Given Up:
Growing old together
The 20th anniversary holiday somewhere sunny and serene
The dream home
The chef's kitchen
The master suite
The massive closet
The deep soaking tub
The king-sized bed
Pretending
Performing
Recoiling
Dread

The Things I Have Gained:
My freedom
Myself.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 6h

No seriously this is quite the most perfect couple's costume and I can't stop thinking about it help

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 12h

“What do you want to be for Halloween?”

. . . a trick and a treat

Sabrina Carpenter’s Man’s Best Friend album cover

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 1d

It’s a hamster wheel on the hardest days. When freedom feels farthest.
I’m going to run.
If fear is a lack of trust, I’m not afraid.
I’m going to wait.
My heart will hammer and my voice from the future will rise in my chest.
It’s going to end. You’re going to be okay.
I’m going to listen.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 1d

Meditation, manifestation, setting intentions -

I just want to fuck in private and make each other laugh in public. And vice versa.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 1d

Chappell is foolproof to get the blood pumping 💅

music.youtube.com/watch?v=_4fJ...

Naked In Manhattan

YouTube video by Chappell Roan - Topic

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Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 1d

We remember ancient civilizations for their stories, not their tax returns. And while my personal jury is still out re: happiness leads to creativity, I fully buy in on the scientific fact that creativity leads to happiness.

youtube.com/shorts/1tJ29...

it makes you 28% happier (whatever that means)

YouTube video by struthless

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Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 1d

This. @girlonthenet.bsky.social hits the nail on the head and JM points out the excruciating exhilarating fact that telling a tale is creative architecture. The final line is load-bearing.

I’m not smirking at this analogy, ✨you✨ are.

JM Seaborn @jmseaborn.bsky.social · 1d

This is true. If I can come up with a decent final line, I'll forgive all the shit I've written up to then.

But of course, the final line is often a result of everything before.

www.girlonthenet.com/blog/first-l...

The first line vs the final line : which is most important in a blog?

Which part of a blog post is most important - the first line or the final line? I am going to explain in sexy detail why it's DEFINITELY the final one.

www.girlonthenet.com

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 2d

Sometimes I don’t write unless I’m told to.

A woman’s POV of her body lying on a bed. She’s wearing an unbuttoned denim shirt, white underwear, and brown suede knee-high stiletto boots. There’s faded handwriting on her thigh.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 3d

The scene is a watercolor. Impressionistic blur for the location, the weather, the time of day. It might be in public, there could be rough approximations of people surrounding us. And yet, at the center, the detail is vividly clear:
“We should discuss a safe word, don’t you think?”

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 4d

I hope you see this at an incredibly random moment and that when you do, your world stops for a few seconds as you think about the noise I make when you shove yourself inside me.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 6d

Neurodivergent panic when no one’s at the pharmacy counter and there’s a sign that says “please press button for assistance” um no that’s rude I’ll just wait for the rest of my life if need be thanks sorry

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 7d

Eyes follow me on my way back to our table. You don’t notice. You used to watch and take pride in the lust your creation ignites. But your creation’s haunting you now. A withdrawn ghost. Your teachings were subtle, but eventually I learned that silence floats best over thin ice.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 7d

20 years and the loyalty was so strong that even when I hated what you’d become I didn’t know it.
You took your time with the reveal, didn’t you?

My fingers are purple and throbbing from raking frost out of this cell’s freezer.
Better than crying on my knees.
But oh how I’ve done that too.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 7d

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 8d

You carry so much weight on your shoulders. Lighten the load, sling my thighs there instead.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 8d

Let her cooooook 🍽️

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 8d

Salt Fat Acid Cum. Classic. 🤌

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Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 8d

Your joys, your frowns, your grimaces, your scowls -

I want to comfort, I want to soothe, and -

I want to provoke.
I want to remind you of what’s so carefully leashed within. What I see in the small hours doesn’t disappear in daylight.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 8d

At 2:30 in the morning I was extremely amused by “the coming is rapture.”
At 3 pm the next day - damnit I’m still amused.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 8d

The coming is rapture.

A tiny death.
Momento mori, Daddy.
But as I live and breathe -

Sanctuary is the ground beneath your feet.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 8d

The coming is rapture.

A tiny death.
Momento mori, Daddy.
But as I live and breathe -

Sanctuary is the ground beneath your feet.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 9d

So please.
Deliver unto me your judgment.

Pillage my agency. Strip me of every illusion. Remind me of why I truly exist.
Because some day, I won't.

Asses to ashes, sluts to dust.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 9d

And when you finally part me and I take His name in vain, I can glimpse revelation:

My best life is useless if I can't also be my worst self, given the chance to perform this tearful penance.
Only you know exactly how to redeem me.
I renounce the world outside of you inside me.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 9d

Slide your thumb into my mouth.

Test my faith and tell me to spread my legs.

Break any notion of control that still plagues my pretty little mind. Break my pretty little mind entirely. Taunt the suffering corpus that screams to encompass you.

Mortification of my flesh.

Nameless and Shameless @babyfirstandlast.bsky.social · 9d

It only takes one hand.
Tell me to kneel. Brush the back of your palm against my compliant cheek.

Benediction. My skin blooms. One touch dissolves thought.

Service has begun.

My daily planner, my supplements, my fumbling attempts to make sense of a world that refutes the very concept of sense -