Something that really helped me with this: when you have the impulse to apologize, see if you can rework it into an expression of gratitude. E.g.: "Sorry I'm late" >>> "Thank you for your patience".

How many hours it end up taking you to 100% it? Was ~60 for me.

It's not great, haha. Good thing we both walk to work.

I mean... ulp... sounds like a pretty fair trade to me, tbh >.>

Thanks-- I'll ask my doctor about it at our next appointment.

youtu.be/hViAbRitbmw?... 1 minute 17 seconds if the link doesn't start there.
He's speaking about when he was younger, and that he no longer feels that way.
I had the same feelings when I was younger (among others) so I think this is really no great sin.

Right, that's what I thought! I think this is a very reasonable position!

I have not! Haven't heard of it! Have you found it helpful?

Not physically unsafe, though a bit physically uncomfortable. Mentally detached and intense-- both of which are normal states for me, but more so. I think I figured out what triggered it-- a bad interaction with a supplement-- and it should be out of my system tomorrow. No cause for concern.

I am not sure why I felt the need to express that here, but I suppose that is, itself, a manifestation of the abnormality of my current state. But like whatever brain's gonna brain, I guess.

That's... not what he said? It's almost the opposite.

Have you seen La Jetée? It's nowhere near as good as 12 Monkeys, but I found it really interesting to see the source.

One can only hope

Because things can get better, and whatever is making you think you want to is not permanent. Death, though, is permanent.

Let's see if we can find a barley field this summer!