X (Xen/Cole McCade)🏳️⚧️He/Him🏳️🌈
@thisblackmagic.bsky.social
The dead make better companions.
Queer romance author + artist.
IndigiBlAsian POC.
Call me X.
Level 44 Xennial himbo.
Audiophile.
Bone witch of the woods.
FFXIV Mateus.
AuDHD🏳️⚧️demigray disaster bi.
🔞Minors DNI.
https://ko-fi.com/thisblackmagic
Queer romance author + artist.
IndigiBlAsian POC.
Call me X.
Level 44 Xennial himbo.
Audiophile.
Bone witch of the woods.
FFXIV Mateus.
AuDHD🏳️⚧️demigray disaster bi.
🔞Minors DNI.
https://ko-fi.com/thisblackmagic
Okay. Okay. Okay. I should try to explain what happened, why I'm in the hospital, and why I'm so mad without getting myself any angrier. Anger is why I had one stroke. I don't need another.
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Yeah, I fucking got Fettermaned. Brain bleed blowout. Back of my skull removed. 1/?
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Yeah, I fucking got Fettermaned. Brain bleed blowout. Back of my skull removed. 1/?
September 13, 2025 at 6:17 PM
Okay. Okay. Okay. I should try to explain what happened, why I'm in the hospital, and why I'm so mad without getting myself any angrier. Anger is why I had one stroke. I don't need another.
....
Yeah, I fucking got Fettermaned. Brain bleed blowout. Back of my skull removed. 1/?
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Yeah, I fucking got Fettermaned. Brain bleed blowout. Back of my skull removed. 1/?
I am so fucking tired of nearly dying every other day and no I will *not* be some smiling positive inspo martyr about it, I am angry and I can't walk and I WANT OUT OF THIS HOSPITAL BED
September 13, 2025 at 2:16 PM
I am so fucking tired of nearly dying every other day and no I will *not* be some smiling positive inspo martyr about it, I am angry and I can't walk and I WANT OUT OF THIS HOSPITAL BED
(hi, not dead, not okay but I will be, problem with access to my anti-inflammatories that keep me functional but is getting sorted + dead laptop, do not have the spoons for anything else and sorry if anyone thought I was ignoring them, my tank is on zero--back when I can be)
May 9, 2024 at 1:26 PM
(hi, not dead, not okay but I will be, problem with access to my anti-inflammatories that keep me functional but is getting sorted + dead laptop, do not have the spoons for anything else and sorry if anyone thought I was ignoring them, my tank is on zero--back when I can be)
it has not even been a MONTH since "Freydis Moon is actually Brooklyn Ray brownfishing FOR THE SECOND TIME," can we not get a MINUTE of daylight between that and "James Somerton faked his own suicide then posted balls and hole on his alt the same day"
May 9, 2024 at 1:24 PM
it has not even been a MONTH since "Freydis Moon is actually Brooklyn Ray brownfishing FOR THE SECOND TIME," can we not get a MINUTE of daylight between that and "James Somerton faked his own suicide then posted balls and hole on his alt the same day"
I was going to say every time I try to move my body gets all "fuck you, I'm a dragon" but honestly that would be worth the pain if I were currently transmuting into a dragon vs. what I actually am: a sack of angry bones that don't want to work properly anymore
April 26, 2024 at 1:43 AM
I was going to say every time I try to move my body gets all "fuck you, I'm a dragon" but honestly that would be worth the pain if I were currently transmuting into a dragon vs. what I actually am: a sack of angry bones that don't want to work properly anymore
god, why do heating pads feel so amazingly good
April 25, 2024 at 12:33 PM
god, why do heating pads feel so amazingly good
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I saw a post on FB that said "Queer kids need stories about happy queer adults." Yes, absolutely. But they also need stories of angry queer adults whose rage and disdain for the world as it is fuel them to tear apart systems of oppression, even if they never get to become one of the happy ones.
April 25, 2024 at 12:43 AM
I saw a post on FB that said "Queer kids need stories about happy queer adults." Yes, absolutely. But they also need stories of angry queer adults whose rage and disdain for the world as it is fuel them to tear apart systems of oppression, even if they never get to become one of the happy ones.
oh my god I am losing my everloving shite
mab got her squeaky stuffed little bitty skunk toy stuck to her paw by one claw and she's trying to shake it off squeak squeak SQUEAK and I need to grab my phone and video but I'm laughing so hard and I don't want y'all to hear me wheezing until *I* squeak
mab got her squeaky stuffed little bitty skunk toy stuck to her paw by one claw and she's trying to shake it off squeak squeak SQUEAK and I need to grab my phone and video but I'm laughing so hard and I don't want y'all to hear me wheezing until *I* squeak
April 25, 2024 at 9:13 AM
oh my god I am losing my everloving shite
mab got her squeaky stuffed little bitty skunk toy stuck to her paw by one claw and she's trying to shake it off squeak squeak SQUEAK and I need to grab my phone and video but I'm laughing so hard and I don't want y'all to hear me wheezing until *I* squeak
mab got her squeaky stuffed little bitty skunk toy stuck to her paw by one claw and she's trying to shake it off squeak squeak SQUEAK and I need to grab my phone and video but I'm laughing so hard and I don't want y'all to hear me wheezing until *I* squeak
why do I keep giving M. Night Shyamalan any trust
any trust at all
any trust at all
April 25, 2024 at 3:12 AM
why do I keep giving M. Night Shyamalan any trust
any trust at all
any trust at all
Do he got a booty? Yes, he doooooo.
April 25, 2024 at 2:04 AM
Do he got a booty? Yes, he doooooo.
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I am agog at waking up to being at $625/$735! Only $110 left to go to keep me housed! *8* days left!
Please help keep me from becoming homeless. Thank you, you beautiful people. 💙💙💙
#MutualAid #Helpsky
paypal.me/rookkilljoy
CA/VM: foxrook
gofund.me/a6b0a356
Please help keep me from becoming homeless. Thank you, you beautiful people. 💙💙💙
#MutualAid #Helpsky
paypal.me/rookkilljoy
CA/VM: foxrook
gofund.me/a6b0a356
April 24, 2024 at 10:57 PM
I am agog at waking up to being at $625/$735! Only $110 left to go to keep me housed! *8* days left!
Please help keep me from becoming homeless. Thank you, you beautiful people. 💙💙💙
#MutualAid #Helpsky
paypal.me/rookkilljoy
CA/VM: foxrook
gofund.me/a6b0a356
Please help keep me from becoming homeless. Thank you, you beautiful people. 💙💙💙
#MutualAid #Helpsky
paypal.me/rookkilljoy
CA/VM: foxrook
gofund.me/a6b0a356
Reposted by X (Xen/Cole McCade)🏳️⚧️He/Him🏳️🌈
SALE! SALE! SALE!
For the rest of #IndieApril, grab the ebook copy of my latest story collection for only
$.99!!!
Generous selection of fairy tale, folklore, and ghost-inspired fantasy and horror stories all with an original illustration by me! #art #book #horror #sff
books2read.com/ABrokenThing
For the rest of #IndieApril, grab the ebook copy of my latest story collection for only
$.99!!!
Generous selection of fairy tale, folklore, and ghost-inspired fantasy and horror stories all with an original illustration by me! #art #book #horror #sff
books2read.com/ABrokenThing
April 24, 2024 at 12:53 PM
SALE! SALE! SALE!
For the rest of #IndieApril, grab the ebook copy of my latest story collection for only
$.99!!!
Generous selection of fairy tale, folklore, and ghost-inspired fantasy and horror stories all with an original illustration by me! #art #book #horror #sff
books2read.com/ABrokenThing
For the rest of #IndieApril, grab the ebook copy of my latest story collection for only
$.99!!!
Generous selection of fairy tale, folklore, and ghost-inspired fantasy and horror stories all with an original illustration by me! #art #book #horror #sff
books2read.com/ABrokenThing
Me: I need to get up, but it hurts too much to move.
Friend: Pretend the zombies are coming and if you don't get up, they'll eat you.
Me: I'm up.
Friend: Wow, that worked?
Me: No, but it made me smile through the suckage.
Friend: Pretend the zombies are coming and if you don't get up, they'll eat you.
Me: I'm up.
Friend: Wow, that worked?
Me: No, but it made me smile through the suckage.
April 24, 2024 at 11:59 PM
Me: I need to get up, but it hurts too much to move.
Friend: Pretend the zombies are coming and if you don't get up, they'll eat you.
Me: I'm up.
Friend: Wow, that worked?
Me: No, but it made me smile through the suckage.
Friend: Pretend the zombies are coming and if you don't get up, they'll eat you.
Me: I'm up.
Friend: Wow, that worked?
Me: No, but it made me smile through the suckage.
Me: *thinking about a nap before work because fatigue*
My Brain: or
My Brain: what if
My Brain: we concocted a dissertation on how Black Box could have been an amazing, emotional slow build Black-led horror-drama but it fucked itself with amateur-level cinematography and editing + bad tech knowledge
My Brain: or
My Brain: what if
My Brain: we concocted a dissertation on how Black Box could have been an amazing, emotional slow build Black-led horror-drama but it fucked itself with amateur-level cinematography and editing + bad tech knowledge
April 24, 2024 at 8:26 AM
Me: *thinking about a nap before work because fatigue*
My Brain: or
My Brain: what if
My Brain: we concocted a dissertation on how Black Box could have been an amazing, emotional slow build Black-led horror-drama but it fucked itself with amateur-level cinematography and editing + bad tech knowledge
My Brain: or
My Brain: what if
My Brain: we concocted a dissertation on how Black Box could have been an amazing, emotional slow build Black-led horror-drama but it fucked itself with amateur-level cinematography and editing + bad tech knowledge
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I think about this a lot.
If I was "good at people" I wouldn't have been locked in a room for 100,000 words with only a dog for a year. Trying to be a people person online without knowing much of anything about socializing was such a bad fit. I have many regrets. Heh.
If I was "good at people" I wouldn't have been locked in a room for 100,000 words with only a dog for a year. Trying to be a people person online without knowing much of anything about socializing was such a bad fit. I have many regrets. Heh.
No one told me social media was a skill. And I just sucked at it. I've evolved, become a less reactionary person. I try to learn, but. I was and am not a natural. 😆
April 24, 2024 at 2:57 AM
I think about this a lot.
If I was "good at people" I wouldn't have been locked in a room for 100,000 words with only a dog for a year. Trying to be a people person online without knowing much of anything about socializing was such a bad fit. I have many regrets. Heh.
If I was "good at people" I wouldn't have been locked in a room for 100,000 words with only a dog for a year. Trying to be a people person online without knowing much of anything about socializing was such a bad fit. I have many regrets. Heh.
Reposted by X (Xen/Cole McCade)🏳️⚧️He/Him🏳️🌈
Fuck a buncha Impostor Syndrome. It exists solely as a tool of oppression, of marginalization. It’s designed to make us doubt our worth & gifts, to Other us, to distract us so we don’t rightfully question: what are these spaces? how do they harm? why am I supposed to want them?
who keeps the gates?
who keeps the gates?
April 24, 2024 at 4:04 AM
Fuck a buncha Impostor Syndrome. It exists solely as a tool of oppression, of marginalization. It’s designed to make us doubt our worth & gifts, to Other us, to distract us so we don’t rightfully question: what are these spaces? how do they harm? why am I supposed to want them?
who keeps the gates?
who keeps the gates?
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when militarized police are arresting peaceful protesters that's one of The Signs
Police are moving to arrest those within the encampment on the university of Minnesota campus now.
April 24, 2024 at 4:43 AM
when militarized police are arresting peaceful protesters that's one of The Signs
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You are fantastic. You are an unexpected pizza. You are a series finale that doesn't disappoint. You are a fierce goddess in a jagged wood. You are a seed germinating in wildfire. You are a parade of a thousand Pikachus.
April 24, 2024 at 5:35 AM
You are fantastic. You are an unexpected pizza. You are a series finale that doesn't disappoint. You are a fierce goddess in a jagged wood. You are a seed germinating in wildfire. You are a parade of a thousand Pikachus.
Mad Scientist building a Protocol Droid to transfer my consciousness into for eternal life
my 5-character theory of all possible stories:
Thembo Rogue
BearDog Biped
Protocol Droid
Mad Scientist
Main Character Syndrome
Thembo Rogue
BearDog Biped
Protocol Droid
Mad Scientist
Main Character Syndrome
April 24, 2024 at 8:14 AM
Mad Scientist building a Protocol Droid to transfer my consciousness into for eternal life