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good mourning 37 | leaf | genderfluid | 🔞 cheerful and more than a little morbid ✿ re:pfp - yukimasa's face is funny here but I live for michel ✿
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last night: depressed as all get out

2pm today: brain stuck on Sabrina carpenter lyrics

Go figure
feeling depressed just makes me feel like a lost child

I'm standing in this 24 hour grocery store holding a bag of bread and just hoping someone who loves me will come around the corner

but they won't
Update: I am feeling somewhat better about this but still overwhelmed about the idea of making healthy choices
Just because I feel bad doesn't mean I did bad.

Because nowadays I always feel bad
so what am I, in the end?

a sad little person sitting on a particularly large pile of regrets
"I hope you enjoyed your time off"

Twist the knife a third time, I don't think I felt the first two

If there's anything I would love for the average human to understand, it's that celebratory things are happily shared. Let's stop acting like a thing I haven't mentioned at all is a good thing
Needless to say, it's THAT good
I was in a Books A Million once with friends and a weeb on a mission reached in front of me, grabbed SEVERAL volumes of Claymore with one hand, and disappeared. Like ran out of the aisle with them. Our friend circle has since called "grabbing something silently and without warning" as "Claymoring"
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PDA vs RSD, no holds barred, cage match, one night only, to the death
This post courtesy of generously self-diagnosed PMDD: I am living because everyone will be sad if I don't. My end stage people pleasing: surviving
Thanks, another reminder that I'm a stupid raccoon who keeps washing her cotton candy

Short of giving up and saying, "life is soup, I am fork" I have no idea what to do

My dad was healthy, active, and did everything right and still got a progressive neuro disease

What's the fucking point
"Did you ever look into ADHD meds?"
"I went to my therapist who rec'd I get it through my GP"
"Oh good!!"
"So I went to my GP for a checkup/labs, that was last Nov and I never followed through"
>>cue PALPABLE disappointment and reminder that "everything stays the same if you do nothing to change it"
Dear lab coat wearers with short dresses: you don't look chic, you look pantsless. Seeing you walk down the hallways is troubling. Stop it.
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"You're selfish if you don't initiate communication ALL the time!" According to what rubric, Debra

Go on

Show me
Neurodivergent people's relationship scaling is NOT normal. If you pull this nonsense, we either will think you don't want to talk to us if you suddenly don't participate as you had before, or we WILL not notice until serious damage is done. See how trite and narrow your little test is now? Exactly.
pffff not someone on TT either deleting their vid or blocking me

If you think testing your friendships is a good idea, you SHOULD block me.
Suggesting: "stop talking to your friends, your true friends will still talk to you"? And then claim I'M the guilty party bc I'm "triggered"? Try again.
bullied? by your orange????
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like they won't help w/ mortgage. only rent/lot rent.)
But I have so much going on healthwise that even w/ comms I can work on. even using deposit money for it, I can't see happening by Nov. even if I did birthday stream week early.)

But if anyone can work miracles, www.gofundme.com/f/help-ky-se...
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happy none pizza left beef day!! it's been 18 years and is now old enough to vote
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the US government has arrived on bluesky
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How was it Ninety five freedom degrees today
It's OCTOBER