who’s responsible for this i just want to talk

but what do you mean that allowing total strangers to perceive and know me in the same ways i know myself allows for more genuine connections and joy to pervade every aspect of my life???

Jesus fuck, there is no amount of being polite that will avoid being painted as a violent mob so maybe don't tell other people how to feel what the absolute shit is this

maybe it’ll make me mad that means it’s good right 💁‍♂️

listen, i was way meaner when i was going through my gender shit too (everyone who knew me when i started comedy is like “you’re so much nicer now” and it’s like yeah huh i wonder why that is, guess we’ll never know lol) so maybe this makes me toxic but now i am looking forward to it more 😌

ahhhh now i’m excited, totally reading this when i get home tonight ✨

saving this to read when i remember my patreon login (soon!)

YES it had so many problems but it also altered my brain chemistry permanently so they’re my problems now lol. and i was also into hedwig! both of these (and especially the music) were fundamentals in my young gender experiences

actual footage of me rn

i’ve been repeatedly telling myself “the tower isn’t inherently BAD” but now i’m not so sure lol

it’s like i can feel them biding their time, inching closer to ruin my life

those two tower tarot pulls that have followed me the past two weeks are lurking over my shoulder right now aren’t they

I nearly transitioned at 19, I was SO close to an egg crack, in the point of crisis I nearly flunked out of university, then I managed to repress and walk it back. I'm always going to be mad at that version of myself who couldn't take the thought that extra step.

if the state is putting people in concentration camps, teargassing protestors, blinding & breaking the bones of reporters, etc. then it is demonstrating a commitment to violence that exceeds its desire to maintain the fiction of its own legitimacy

an enemy that loves brutality more than survival

If millions of protesters are being paid then it should be easy for you to sign up and take a picture of the check stub.

SO glad they’re good though (and that they got rid of those things!)

yeah it’s actually really funny (derogatory) to watch cis het men in particular short circuit as they try to comprehend that someone might not like having the tits he likes to see on them like “wdym you don’t visualize yourself through the lens of my desire for your type of body???” lmao

but then when i was like “what do you mean placebo is in a movie for two seconds” and tracked down velvet goldmine everything soon became clear

brian (and the other dudes honestly) had me wondering if i was a lesbian at first because it was the simplest conclusion to arrive to at in a time when i lacked the language to articulate anything at all about the situation 🫠

brian molko cracking eggs both ways since 1996

but it is still my deepest and sincerest hope that in six months i’ll hear i cracked an(other) egg at the comedy club 🙂

lmao i literally have a joke about wanting bodies to be more like potato head dolls where you can just mix and match body parts and share with friends as a bonding experience because i have great tits and they should live with someone who appreciates them 😭

brian molko cracking eggs both ways since 1996