Called it. Even if their rules make no sense and the game now adheres to them perfectly, Valve will not budge on this.

Apparently these rules are 100% set in stone and immutable. Which is why Vile, a game with photos and no nudity *is* blocked, while Immortality - full FMV sex scenes - is alllowed

There is also the desire to go "I'm okay" when obviously I'm not. Things have been hard, and I finally hit a wall

I will be okay, just need time to get there

I think this is me attempting to hold myself accountable. If others know, I can't hide it, so have to act in a way that holds me accountable so I don't worry others

Doing this when I'm passing out means I have less inhibition to stop myself. Cause "level headed" me historically just bottles it up