Samantha Unseemly
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Samantha Unseemly
@fictionaluser.bsky.social
Merging online with reality, slowly 🏳️‍🌈🇨🇦🧡🇵🇸🏳️‍⚧️
Late 30s
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Still, if you think I might be able to help somehow I'd be happy to, open offer
November 26, 2025 at 3:24 AM
Hmm, I am currently out of suggestions :(

I hope you can find a way to tackle this though, if you ever want to message me feel free, I'm usually alright at throwing around/iterating on ideas
November 26, 2025 at 3:15 AM
Are you able to speak to a therapist? Here at least there's ones available over the phone somewhat readily. Mine has helped me quite a bit on that front though there's a lot more to do it feels like
November 26, 2025 at 3:04 AM
That is almost certainly going to happen to some degree, in any relationship. Good communication and talking about expectations can go long way to minimizing or often eliminating that too.

Can you share a specific way you think you would hurt someone? No worries if not.
November 26, 2025 at 2:54 AM
I am watching my roommate date a lot and like... The bar seems pretty low. You're not perfect and neither are they. If you're both cool kind people you'll make it work I think. If only I could believe that for myself.
November 26, 2025 at 2:40 AM
From what I've seen you're not letting yourself see the good you do and joy you already bring to people. You naturally do this for strangers, you would pay attention and see how to do that for your partner. And they wouldn't come to care for you without you doing something they like and appreciate
November 26, 2025 at 2:36 AM
I think our only way forward is to try, accepting failure and gaining knowledge along the way.

For me it feels like I need to trust someone before I can reveal almost anything about myself. Not even as a choice but what my brain will let me access in the moment. I mostly freeze up in conversation.
November 26, 2025 at 2:36 AM
I am in the same boat, other people say people like me but I don't see it myself and only believe that what they see is surface level. Except for my niece.

I have relinquished the belief that I can tell, myself, there's too much history of self hatred to see clearly.
November 26, 2025 at 2:36 AM
Likewise! I wish I was better at interacting though 😭
November 25, 2025 at 10:06 PM
I have a hard time thinking anyone would like me is a big factor, what's there to like? Improving on that has been the plan for years but progress feels glacial, especially when I don't know what I want for myself mostly.

Maybe I shoulf post some mildly funny skeets and go to sleep about it.
November 25, 2025 at 1:59 AM
I guess I'm just scared of putting myself out there? Going through a dozen people who I do not like and have a bad time interacting with and maybe #13 is alright? Is there no better way?
November 25, 2025 at 1:55 AM
If I make some nice casseroles and bake some bread and do my yoga and needle felt and read a book will I be human?

I feel unconnectable to other people, I know I'm not, I guess. But I feel it. I'm some kind of freak (non-negative), I gotta find a compatible freak and I don't know how
November 25, 2025 at 1:55 AM
They are queens of cute 🧡
November 25, 2025 at 1:35 AM
It's only gooning if it's done to hentai for a 6-hour minimum

I don't fully know what gooning entails besides jacking off a lot in one session so hopefully that is accurate enough for a joke
November 25, 2025 at 1:20 AM
"Your egg roll has been expended of grease, you must acquire another. Confirm."
November 25, 2025 at 12:42 AM
It took 15 months but Minette likes Dixie now and licks her head a few times now and then :)

Dixie liked Minette from the start because she is pure of heart
November 25, 2025 at 12:39 AM