Ryu
@call-me-diablo.bsky.social
VENT ACC!! I‘m a weirdo obsessed with his weight
Undiagnosed arfid, diagnosed severe depression and ADHD
Hw: 75kg/ 165lbs
Cw: 60.6kg/ 133.6lbs
Gw: 55kg/ 120lbs
Ugw: 45kg/ 100lbs
Literally (beast) Akutagawa if it wasn’t obvious
19yo, bsd fan, basic dni
Undiagnosed arfid, diagnosed severe depression and ADHD
Hw: 75kg/ 165lbs
Cw: 60.6kg/ 133.6lbs
Gw: 55kg/ 120lbs
Ugw: 45kg/ 100lbs
Literally (beast) Akutagawa if it wasn’t obvious
19yo, bsd fan, basic dni
Pinned
𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝:
𝘩𝘪, 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘙𝘺𝘶!!
★ 𝟣𝟫, 𝘩𝘦/𝘩𝘪𝘮
★ 𝘎𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘯
★ 𝘳𝘦𝘨𝘶𝘭𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘺 𝘶𝘱𝘥𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘪𝘰
★ 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘩
★ 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘺 𝘮𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘺
🤍 𝘐𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴:
☆ 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵
☆ 𝘴𝘤𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 (𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘪𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘺)
☆ 𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘴
☆ 𝘣𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘨𝘴
☆ 𝘢𝘳𝘵 & 𝘥𝘳𝘢𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨
☆ 𝘷𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘰 𝘨𝘢𝘮𝘦𝘴
𝘩𝘪, 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘙𝘺𝘶!!
★ 𝟣𝟫, 𝘩𝘦/𝘩𝘪𝘮
★ 𝘎𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘯
★ 𝘳𝘦𝘨𝘶𝘭𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘺 𝘶𝘱𝘥𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘪𝘰
★ 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘩
★ 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘺 𝘮𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘺
🤍 𝘐𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴:
☆ 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵
☆ 𝘴𝘤𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 (𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘪𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘺)
☆ 𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘴
☆ 𝘣𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘨𝘴
☆ 𝘢𝘳𝘵 & 𝘥𝘳𝘢𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨
☆ 𝘷𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘰 𝘨𝘢𝘮𝘦𝘴
There ain’t no way I fell unconscious, stood up, fell unconscious AGAIN, stood up again just to fall unconscious A THIRD TIME. THREE TIMES. And three times my head hit the floor hard, fuck this hurts-
December 10, 2025 at 6:20 PM
There ain’t no way I fell unconscious, stood up, fell unconscious AGAIN, stood up again just to fall unconscious A THIRD TIME. THREE TIMES. And three times my head hit the floor hard, fuck this hurts-
Im cleaning my book shelves rn and found this book… 😭I believe my grandparents gifted it to me when I was like ten, and Ive never read it so I can’t say anything about the content, but cough cough- what kind of title is that?? 😟 (in English itd be: „the white [n-word] Wumbaba“) …Seriously wtf
December 10, 2025 at 1:22 PM
Im cleaning my book shelves rn and found this book… 😭I believe my grandparents gifted it to me when I was like ten, and Ive never read it so I can’t say anything about the content, but cough cough- what kind of title is that?? 😟 (in English itd be: „the white [n-word] Wumbaba“) …Seriously wtf
My now ex-therapist that I met yesterday for the last time (we haven’t seen each other in over a year before yesterday tho) genuinely, and for some fucking reason recommended me ChatGPT… like, „well, have you tried talking to ai about your problems? It’s great at helping!“ BITCH ARE YOU DEADASS-
December 10, 2025 at 6:58 AM
My now ex-therapist that I met yesterday for the last time (we haven’t seen each other in over a year before yesterday tho) genuinely, and for some fucking reason recommended me ChatGPT… like, „well, have you tried talking to ai about your problems? It’s great at helping!“ BITCH ARE YOU DEADASS-
Trying to turn math into my hobby and get myself interested in it, let’s see how this goes…
December 9, 2025 at 7:22 PM
Trying to turn math into my hobby and get myself interested in it, let’s see how this goes…
Sitting in the car with my mom and suddenly Careless Whisper from my playlist plays 💔 Send help please
December 9, 2025 at 6:18 PM
Sitting in the car with my mom and suddenly Careless Whisper from my playlist plays 💔 Send help please
Wait- I’m ABOVE average male height worldwide?? 🥹🥹 Nvmd guys my life is worth living again I never knew!! (let’s ignore that I’m still way under average for Germany)
December 9, 2025 at 2:31 PM
Wait- I’m ABOVE average male height worldwide?? 🥹🥹 Nvmd guys my life is worth living again I never knew!! (let’s ignore that I’m still way under average for Germany)
I just had my favorite salad, it’s like 600kcals tho (it can only come from the little chunks of cheese and dressing like huh 😭 where is that shit 600kcals) But I still like it a lot, it’s so perfect, comforting and tasty
December 9, 2025 at 2:17 PM
I just had my favorite salad, it’s like 600kcals tho (it can only come from the little chunks of cheese and dressing like huh 😭 where is that shit 600kcals) But I still like it a lot, it’s so perfect, comforting and tasty
One of my teachers just asked me why I get a compensation for disadvantages in school, and I told him I’m diagnosed with severe ADHD. He was like „oh really? But you’re so smart I would’ve never guessed-„ I mean ty for thinking I’m smart but why would me having ADHD contradict that in any way??
December 9, 2025 at 10:03 AM
One of my teachers just asked me why I get a compensation for disadvantages in school, and I told him I’m diagnosed with severe ADHD. He was like „oh really? But you’re so smart I would’ve never guessed-„ I mean ty for thinking I’m smart but why would me having ADHD contradict that in any way??
I want to be worthy. Worthy of being called a human being. And I don’t want to die, I want to find a reason to keep living. I need a reason I not yet have found.
December 9, 2025 at 7:07 AM
I want to be worthy. Worthy of being called a human being. And I don’t want to die, I want to find a reason to keep living. I need a reason I not yet have found.
⚠️Vent thread⚠️
before bed to just get my negative thoughts sorted and off my chest. You dont have to read through it at all ofc, but small kind messages to keep me going and motivate me are absolutely appreciated, I don't want to seem like I'm begging or want pity though.
before bed to just get my negative thoughts sorted and off my chest. You dont have to read through it at all ofc, but small kind messages to keep me going and motivate me are absolutely appreciated, I don't want to seem like I'm begging or want pity though.
December 8, 2025 at 8:51 PM
⚠️Vent thread⚠️
before bed to just get my negative thoughts sorted and off my chest. You dont have to read through it at all ofc, but small kind messages to keep me going and motivate me are absolutely appreciated, I don't want to seem like I'm begging or want pity though.
before bed to just get my negative thoughts sorted and off my chest. You dont have to read through it at all ofc, but small kind messages to keep me going and motivate me are absolutely appreciated, I don't want to seem like I'm begging or want pity though.
How to convince myself to ⭐️ve myself and not go buy smth tasty omw home just bc I want to??
December 8, 2025 at 1:57 PM
How to convince myself to ⭐️ve myself and not go buy smth tasty omw home just bc I want to??
I just want to have no worries, no school no job no responsibilities and bury myself in bungo stray dogs lore all day. Complete the manga, the light novels, wan, all the spin offs and side stories and gather every bit of information that was ever published. And I wanna starve myself while doing that
December 7, 2025 at 8:16 PM
I just want to have no worries, no school no job no responsibilities and bury myself in bungo stray dogs lore all day. Complete the manga, the light novels, wan, all the spin offs and side stories and gather every bit of information that was ever published. And I wanna starve myself while doing that
So Ive lowk been eating like a pig lately, idk I just wanna starve myself so badly but my family is keeping an eye on me at all times I’m so done for. I feel so guilty…
December 7, 2025 at 8:11 PM
So Ive lowk been eating like a pig lately, idk I just wanna starve myself so badly but my family is keeping an eye on me at all times I’m so done for. I feel so guilty…
How does this, THIS MF have a higher bmi than me?? 🥹🔫 I just wanna genuinely jump off somewhere atp ik comparing myself to fictional characters is stupid but holy hell I’m never gonna look even close like him whats the point of living
December 7, 2025 at 8:09 PM
How does this, THIS MF have a higher bmi than me?? 🥹🔫 I just wanna genuinely jump off somewhere atp ik comparing myself to fictional characters is stupid but holy hell I’m never gonna look even close like him whats the point of living
I just want to act mean so badly I hate these societal norms and having to look out for other peoples feelings, the only person I ever talk to about my hate is my mom and I know shes secretly thinking I’m a bad person for what I’m feeling.
December 6, 2025 at 4:02 PM
I just want to act mean so badly I hate these societal norms and having to look out for other peoples feelings, the only person I ever talk to about my hate is my mom and I know shes secretly thinking I’m a bad person for what I’m feeling.
The genuine urge to commit acts of violence is insane, and I’m not meaning it in an edgy angsty teen way who‘s like „oooh I wanna beat people up so badly“, it’s just genuine feelings of utter hate and I know myself how stupid they are but that the fuck is wrong with me mentally.
I am so nonsharing about my fandoms & favs I’m serious, if I see someone else even remotely liking akutagawa or Chuuya there starts to grow a deep hatred within me that I cannot control. I know I’m a jealous person but I just had this situation and I never realized it’s THIS bad.
December 6, 2025 at 3:59 PM
The genuine urge to commit acts of violence is insane, and I’m not meaning it in an edgy angsty teen way who‘s like „oooh I wanna beat people up so badly“, it’s just genuine feelings of utter hate and I know myself how stupid they are but that the fuck is wrong with me mentally.
I am so nonsharing about my fandoms & favs I’m serious, if I see someone else even remotely liking akutagawa or Chuuya there starts to grow a deep hatred within me that I cannot control. I know I’m a jealous person but I just had this situation and I never realized it’s THIS bad.
December 6, 2025 at 3:57 PM
I am so nonsharing about my fandoms & favs I’m serious, if I see someone else even remotely liking akutagawa or Chuuya there starts to grow a deep hatred within me that I cannot control. I know I’m a jealous person but I just had this situation and I never realized it’s THIS bad.
Ate so much chocolate I feel sick
December 6, 2025 at 12:22 PM
Ate so much chocolate I feel sick
Okay, so here we fucking go:
- almost 2000, yes, TWO THOUSAND calories in chips (which alone also have like 130g of pure fat)
- two cans of monster (400 kcals)
- Pizza Roll thingy (600)
- one piece of Toast (idfk)
- three or four stuffed grape leaves
- chocolate covered fruits
- some almonds idk
- almost 2000, yes, TWO THOUSAND calories in chips (which alone also have like 130g of pure fat)
- two cans of monster (400 kcals)
- Pizza Roll thingy (600)
- one piece of Toast (idfk)
- three or four stuffed grape leaves
- chocolate covered fruits
- some almonds idk
Heyyyy sooooo- can someone shoot me please? I’m so serious rn. I literally ate so fucking much today, and it’s not in the „oh no I ate 600 today thats sooooo much 😫“ way. … I don’t even wanna list it all but I deserve to feel this shame so I’m gonna do it anyways. I’m so fucking disgusting.
December 5, 2025 at 5:55 PM
Okay, so here we fucking go:
- almost 2000, yes, TWO THOUSAND calories in chips (which alone also have like 130g of pure fat)
- two cans of monster (400 kcals)
- Pizza Roll thingy (600)
- one piece of Toast (idfk)
- three or four stuffed grape leaves
- chocolate covered fruits
- some almonds idk
- almost 2000, yes, TWO THOUSAND calories in chips (which alone also have like 130g of pure fat)
- two cans of monster (400 kcals)
- Pizza Roll thingy (600)
- one piece of Toast (idfk)
- three or four stuffed grape leaves
- chocolate covered fruits
- some almonds idk
Heyyyy sooooo- can someone shoot me please? I’m so serious rn. I literally ate so fucking much today, and it’s not in the „oh no I ate 600 today thats sooooo much 😫“ way. … I don’t even wanna list it all but I deserve to feel this shame so I’m gonna do it anyways. I’m so fucking disgusting.
December 5, 2025 at 5:48 PM
Heyyyy sooooo- can someone shoot me please? I’m so serious rn. I literally ate so fucking much today, and it’s not in the „oh no I ate 600 today thats sooooo much 😫“ way. … I don’t even wanna list it all but I deserve to feel this shame so I’m gonna do it anyways. I’m so fucking disgusting.
One of my less harmful intrusive thoughts (or at least a sudden craving) I keep on having today like really badly is to dye my hair. It’s stupid and I’ll regret it and probably be bullied and called gay but I still want to so badly you wouldn’t understand-!
December 5, 2025 at 1:39 PM
One of my less harmful intrusive thoughts (or at least a sudden craving) I keep on having today like really badly is to dye my hair. It’s stupid and I’ll regret it and probably be bullied and called gay but I still want to so badly you wouldn’t understand-!
Singing Christmas songs for 45 mins straight- I cannot take this school serious bro tf are we learning here (it was very embarrassing because I let myself go and sang with too much passion kill me)
December 5, 2025 at 12:52 PM
Singing Christmas songs for 45 mins straight- I cannot take this school serious bro tf are we learning here (it was very embarrassing because I let myself go and sang with too much passion kill me)
JUST FOUND OUT MY PHYSICS TEACH IS RETIRING NEXT SEMESTER HOLY SHITTTTT YESSSS
a silhouette of a man breaking chains in his hands
ALT: a silhouette of a man breaking chains in his hands
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December 5, 2025 at 11:56 AM
JUST FOUND OUT MY PHYSICS TEACH IS RETIRING NEXT SEMESTER HOLY SHITTTTT YESSSS
Im too socially awkward to go through with it but sometimes I gen wanna just compliment people. I just saw a dude that was like one grade above me and he had such cool hair (color and style) and I wish I said smth.
December 5, 2025 at 11:05 AM
Im too socially awkward to go through with it but sometimes I gen wanna just compliment people. I just saw a dude that was like one grade above me and he had such cool hair (color and style) and I wish I said smth.
Uhm also, here guys, have smth??
Bungou Stray Dogs Wan - Google Drive
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December 5, 2025 at 10:39 AM
Uhm also, here guys, have smth??