Adele Taylor (pthagonal)
@adeletaylor.bsky.social
Data analyst, dungeon master, depressive. A nerd and a nerdfighter. Cis bi woman. #NoLGBWithoutT
pthagonal on YouTube and elsewhere.
"Unfortunately, I have read a lot of books."
Views my own not that of my employer. She/her.
pthagonal on YouTube and elsewhere.
"Unfortunately, I have read a lot of books."
Views my own not that of my employer. She/her.
I think I might be dead inside.
Or empty.
Just a shallow person with no depth of understanding.
That's why I don't get art. Or poetry. Why I can't name a character I relate to. Why I struggle with journals. Why I don't fit in.
I'm not a real human being.
Or empty.
Just a shallow person with no depth of understanding.
That's why I don't get art. Or poetry. Why I can't name a character I relate to. Why I struggle with journals. Why I don't fit in.
I'm not a real human being.
January 26, 2026 at 6:47 PM
I think I might be dead inside.
Or empty.
Just a shallow person with no depth of understanding.
That's why I don't get art. Or poetry. Why I can't name a character I relate to. Why I struggle with journals. Why I don't fit in.
I'm not a real human being.
Or empty.
Just a shallow person with no depth of understanding.
That's why I don't get art. Or poetry. Why I can't name a character I relate to. Why I struggle with journals. Why I don't fit in.
I'm not a real human being.
I need to get off social media, but probably not as much as some other people need to get off social media
January 25, 2026 at 6:04 PM
I need to get off social media, but probably not as much as some other people need to get off social media
Reposted by Adele Taylor (pthagonal)
The reason the BBC coverage of Alex Pretti's murder reads like Fox News, while the likes of the NYT are reading the room and dropping the both-sideism, is that the BBC's news team is institutionally captured by people who are proud of only ever listening to the opinions of racists and transphobes.
January 25, 2026 at 12:33 PM
The reason the BBC coverage of Alex Pretti's murder reads like Fox News, while the likes of the NYT are reading the room and dropping the both-sideism, is that the BBC's news team is institutionally captured by people who are proud of only ever listening to the opinions of racists and transphobes.
I think I was happy watching football and then the Fantastic Four, why did I have to check the news?
January 24, 2026 at 9:53 PM
I think I was happy watching football and then the Fantastic Four, why did I have to check the news?
Reposted by Adele Taylor (pthagonal)
Two possibilities here.
1) this chemical activates random floating shapes in your vision but connects them to the person-recognition pathway, so you identify them as tiny people
2) this switched off the bit of the brain that stops us from seeing Them
1) this chemical activates random floating shapes in your vision but connects them to the person-recognition pathway, so you identify them as tiny people
2) this switched off the bit of the brain that stops us from seeing Them
With most psychedelic drugs, you never know what you're going to get. But this mysterious mushroom from China - without fail - causes users to hallucinate tiny people: crawling up walls, popping out from under furniture and marching under doors. www.bbc.com/future/artic...
'They saw them on their dishes when eating': The mushroom making people hallucinate dozens of tiny humans
Only recently described by science, the mysterious mushrooms are found in different parts of the world, but they give people the same exact visions.
www.bbc.com
January 23, 2026 at 9:51 AM
Two possibilities here.
1) this chemical activates random floating shapes in your vision but connects them to the person-recognition pathway, so you identify them as tiny people
2) this switched off the bit of the brain that stops us from seeing Them
1) this chemical activates random floating shapes in your vision but connects them to the person-recognition pathway, so you identify them as tiny people
2) this switched off the bit of the brain that stops us from seeing Them
I /should/ be challenging negative thoughts or cleaning the bathroom.
I /am/ drinking wine and playing boardgames online.
That's almost the same thing, right?
I /am/ drinking wine and playing boardgames online.
That's almost the same thing, right?
January 22, 2026 at 7:28 PM
I /should/ be challenging negative thoughts or cleaning the bathroom.
I /am/ drinking wine and playing boardgames online.
That's almost the same thing, right?
I /am/ drinking wine and playing boardgames online.
That's almost the same thing, right?
Showed my son my latest t-shirt.
"I thought it was called Dear Hank and John?"
"I thought it was called Dear Hank and John?"
January 22, 2026 at 6:12 PM
Showed my son my latest t-shirt.
"I thought it was called Dear Hank and John?"
"I thought it was called Dear Hank and John?"
No matter what I try, I just can't seem to get past the block of "my life is meaningless and therefore worthless and I may as well be dead"
January 22, 2026 at 1:38 PM
No matter what I try, I just can't seem to get past the block of "my life is meaningless and therefore worthless and I may as well be dead"
Tfw you realise you should take a break from one of the hobbies/communities you love because it's just fueling your monomania
January 21, 2026 at 6:27 PM
Tfw you realise you should take a break from one of the hobbies/communities you love because it's just fueling your monomania
Took myself dancing. Got the bus and everything.
I am definitely celebrating this, and not at all disappointed that one particular person isn't here.
I am definitely celebrating this, and not at all disappointed that one particular person isn't here.
January 20, 2026 at 8:46 PM
Took myself dancing. Got the bus and everything.
I am definitely celebrating this, and not at all disappointed that one particular person isn't here.
I am definitely celebrating this, and not at all disappointed that one particular person isn't here.
Can't believe I just wrote "sodas" instead of "pop" wtf has happened to me
January 20, 2026 at 5:30 PM
Can't believe I just wrote "sodas" instead of "pop" wtf has happened to me
Guess one of the upsides of poor taste differentiation is I really can't tell, and the reason I switched to the "zero" version of everything is it also tastes just the same 🤷
UK, I'm gonna need you to be so real with me right now...are you letting soda companies sell non-diet versions of classic soft drinks that are sweetened primarily by artificial sweeteners?
January 20, 2026 at 5:28 PM
Guess one of the upsides of poor taste differentiation is I really can't tell, and the reason I switched to the "zero" version of everything is it also tastes just the same 🤷
Every time the stream crashes, YouTube decides I want to listen to Hozier and I can't say it's wrong
January 19, 2026 at 8:47 PM
Every time the stream crashes, YouTube decides I want to listen to Hozier and I can't say it's wrong
I know I can't expect instant results but I'm not enjoying how after going to the gym I am still sad but also now really tired. And I still have to find the energy to cook.
I've done one bit of maintenance today already why do I still have to do the rest?
Rubbish needs to go out too.
I've done one bit of maintenance today already why do I still have to do the rest?
Rubbish needs to go out too.
January 19, 2026 at 7:03 PM
I know I can't expect instant results but I'm not enjoying how after going to the gym I am still sad but also now really tired. And I still have to find the energy to cook.
I've done one bit of maintenance today already why do I still have to do the rest?
Rubbish needs to go out too.
I've done one bit of maintenance today already why do I still have to do the rest?
Rubbish needs to go out too.
Yeah, no, social media is definitely not good for my mental health and holding babies definitely is good for it - just unfortunately only one of those is available at all times on my phone.
January 19, 2026 at 10:06 AM
Yeah, no, social media is definitely not good for my mental health and holding babies definitely is good for it - just unfortunately only one of those is available at all times on my phone.
Finally got round to watching @hankgreen.bsky.social's comedy special, which is awesome, but now I am sad because I don't have that to look forward to any more.
Brains are weird, huh?
Brains are weird, huh?
January 18, 2026 at 9:01 PM
Finally got round to watching @hankgreen.bsky.social's comedy special, which is awesome, but now I am sad because I don't have that to look forward to any more.
Brains are weird, huh?
Brains are weird, huh?
I may be coming down with a cold. Arse. This is not good timing.
Also, have video chat with parents in an hour and I know they read my blog so they might not believe me if I say I'm ok.
Also also, other people continue to be disgustingly talented and pretty. 'Snot fair.
Also, have video chat with parents in an hour and I know they read my blog so they might not believe me if I say I'm ok.
Also also, other people continue to be disgustingly talented and pretty. 'Snot fair.
January 17, 2026 at 6:41 PM
I may be coming down with a cold. Arse. This is not good timing.
Also, have video chat with parents in an hour and I know they read my blog so they might not believe me if I say I'm ok.
Also also, other people continue to be disgustingly talented and pretty. 'Snot fair.
Also, have video chat with parents in an hour and I know they read my blog so they might not believe me if I say I'm ok.
Also also, other people continue to be disgustingly talented and pretty. 'Snot fair.
Who the hell would be a football fan
January 17, 2026 at 6:03 PM
Who the hell would be a football fan
Why do I have to wait a whole day before I can see my friends? What am I actually meant to do in between the bits where I actually feel like I'm living my life?
January 17, 2026 at 10:39 AM
Why do I have to wait a whole day before I can see my friends? What am I actually meant to do in between the bits where I actually feel like I'm living my life?
I am generally a bit better but also lonely and feeling very on the outside.
January 16, 2026 at 9:10 PM
I am generally a bit better but also lonely and feeling very on the outside.
Doing a little better with the book of food times now I've accepted it's ok to just write a line or two.
I wish my handwriting was legible though. I just cant slow my brain down enough so my hand can keep up. If I focus too much on making the pen make the letters I lose the flow of words.
I wish my handwriting was legible though. I just cant slow my brain down enough so my hand can keep up. If I focus too much on making the pen make the letters I lose the flow of words.
January 16, 2026 at 6:13 PM
Doing a little better with the book of food times now I've accepted it's ok to just write a line or two.
I wish my handwriting was legible though. I just cant slow my brain down enough so my hand can keep up. If I focus too much on making the pen make the letters I lose the flow of words.
I wish my handwriting was legible though. I just cant slow my brain down enough so my hand can keep up. If I focus too much on making the pen make the letters I lose the flow of words.
Last random thought before I try and do some work: whenever I fall in love, I feel a sort of grief because the person had a whole life before I knew them that I will never be a part of. I missed out on so much!
Anyway, that's also what becoming a nerdfighter in 2024 feels like.
Anyway, that's also what becoming a nerdfighter in 2024 feels like.
January 16, 2026 at 11:32 AM
Last random thought before I try and do some work: whenever I fall in love, I feel a sort of grief because the person had a whole life before I knew them that I will never be a part of. I missed out on so much!
Anyway, that's also what becoming a nerdfighter in 2024 feels like.
Anyway, that's also what becoming a nerdfighter in 2024 feels like.
Oh no, I accidentally looked at the news.
January 16, 2026 at 11:22 AM
Oh no, I accidentally looked at the news.
Let's add tumblr to that list. I should definitely not make a Tumblr account
Hmm. So I need to stop looking at Reddit, Facebook, here, and maybe Discord, and also somehow stop my brain generating comforting but highly implausible fantasies that make reality even less palatable by comparison.
January 16, 2026 at 11:18 AM
Let's add tumblr to that list. I should definitely not make a Tumblr account
And again, reduced to tears by The Happiness Trap because the exercises are too hard and I can't imagine what I want to do or who I want to be
January 15, 2026 at 11:38 AM
And again, reduced to tears by The Happiness Trap because the exercises are too hard and I can't imagine what I want to do or who I want to be