ah, that explains so much.

gonna try to get us back into therapy soon, hopefully I can clear up at least some of this brain fog.

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I lost time earlier. it could’ve just been because I was tired, but i’ve been SO tired ALL THE TIME recently. a few hours ago I woke up in bed, with no memory of getting there. I remember dozing off in the living room, and then asking my husband to go to bed, but >>

love when mean ppl bitch about other mean ppl being rude to them because like… is this not just the consequences of your own actions? a little karma maybe? hmmst..

every time I try to make a post, they get so loud, talking all at once constantly. I can’t think straight. I can’t focus on what I want to say. everything is yelling “stop” “don’t do that” or telling me why I shouldn’t. I’m riding an episode today, every little thing is pissing me off. I’m scared..

update : I got ignored :’)

i’ll continue to suffer in silence I suppose

breaking down and asking the discord community for advice because I’m at a loss and driving myself insane

tired of being an attention whore

fuck me, man. fuck this goddamned house.

might hide here tonight. too scattered tonight to be interacting with my friends/moots on my main and spam. I’m honestly terrified of any of them finding this because I don’t want to be judged or looked at as a weirdo + lose any of them. idk.

I don’t appreciate what my brain is doing rn.

I wish I had a friend that’s a system that I could talk to about my symptoms, but silly little me avoided systems after the trauma my ex put me through, and I kept a really ignorant mindset for a long time due to that.

I promise I’ve learned and have reeducated myself + am a lot more open minded

I really am my own best friend.

basically how life has gone since I stopped ignoring the voices