Hey y'all, Lee was approved for a surgery that would literally change their life. However, living in America means it's really hard to pay for medical costs alone 🫠

While I'm still doing commissions when I can, we opened a GoFundMe. You can donate and view the explanation here:
gofund.me/4529263b1

ITS SO AWFUL AND IVE HAD LIKE 17 FILLINGS OVER MY LIFE, IT NEVER GETS BETTER

look i'm very normal about gwynn and attal #DestinyRising

alright i know it's not silksong but i've been told I'm allowed to announce a crazy cool thing i've been working on for the past couple months and that's basically silksong. to me.

I cannot believe I grew up in a world with the dot-com bubble burnt into recent memory, only to watch venture capitalists make the same exact mistake, only stupider.

AI was never going to lead you anywhere except around your ass to get to your elbow.

meet me in city trial, ill be the gayest meta knight palette

resident evil: requiem feels like a horror game made in a lab to specifically make me feral, from its branding to narrative to gameplay flexibility

most excited I've ever been to be scared

even six months removed, I occasionally have nightmares about UE3 editor crashes.

the fact I worked in an engine so old it could buy alcohol haunts me, the memory of physical panic anytime I copy/pasted in Kismet lingers.

The one sad thing that comes with how niche Paladins was is that only about five people ever got to be there for the multiple insane bits of yuri in it

I'll never forget how giddy I was to run to the commune everytime we did a reveal to see yours and others reactions, it was such a privilege to work on something that meant a lot to my friends!!

You're too kind as always, thanks for believing in me & the team no matter what the world threw at us! 💜

i'm starting a blog! 🌱

it's called ripped wings & other things. it's about finding optimism in dire times. the first post is about Paladins.

in the future, it'll span other topics and hopefully grow to be a space people can come to feel solace.

📝 justurvalpal.bearblog.dev

letting God sort em out

for the first time in over a decade, I'm returning to therapy!

I've wanted to return for a long while but hadn't been in the right space, either mentally or financially.

really looking forward to it since last time I was a child & hadn't fully recognized my depression and identity issues 🥹

I think I've settled on applying for an MFA in Creative Writing this winter, which deeply scares me despite being what I truly want to do to move closer to my career and life goals.

I'm out of practice and will need to seek mentors to help me build confidence again, but I'm making the choice now.

it never stops.

that feeling in my chest when i hear about peers being obilterated despite doing all they are asked.

it's permanent now, a stain on the industry and the underlying systems that fuel a constant need for record profits and endless expansion.

so tired, so physically sick.

worth pointing out that game devs at xbox are some of the very few people at microsoft engaged in work that people actually want. no one wants copilot. no one wants to rely on windows anymore. no one wants teams and no one wants drone targeting AI. but i do want pentiment

I just got laid off from Xbox's publishing team, alongside many others.

Open community roles are welcome, but if you could send recommendations for games or other works of art that have helped bring you creative fulfillment recently, I'd deeply appreciate it. 💖

Zohran Mamdani performing so well in the first round of RCV is the most joy I've felt politically in several years.

It's far from the moment to celebrate, but it's a major showcase in the DSA's ability to activate leftists and that Democrats really need to run younger, dynamic candidates nationally

playing the new Victoria 3 patch, managed to convince the Great Qing to take on all 50M of my debt in a treaty titled "The Great Austrian Bailout"

all they wanted in return was luxury furniture, they treated my loans like a Discover card 😂

🕒🕞🕔🎂🎉

🚫👑

I also realize this may be the first time many people learn that I'm as interested in music production/streaming performance as I am game development. It's a fascinating world that shares a lot of DNA in how creatives are treated and struggle within corporate interests.

I may simply be out of the loop, but having a hard time thinking of a case where an artist's album so obviously has a drop off point. The pre-Weezer and post-Weezer streams on Spotify are basically two different albums and I am so curious to see how those numbers evolve.