I love being hospitalized for the...4th time this year!

....I still have two prior auths to worry about wrt medications too

IT'S ONLY 10:30AM. WTF. I JUST GOT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL YESTERDAY LET ME LIVE 😭

Actual sequence of events today:
- look up housing info, learn I don't have the proper documentation at all
- Hospital calls at 9AM, survey
- Call specialty pharmacy, cancel their shipment bc we changed meds
- get called by primary care office, make followup appointment for tomorrow

I've been bedridden for the last 10 months for medical reasons, and I'm still about 1000$ behind on being able to pay for my car and storage. I'm sorry to keep asking, but if you could send a couple dollars, it'd really help.

ko-fi.com/fooneturing

I'm working through it, really...everything just avalanched at once

iseekyou.itch.io/cell-of-empi... btw CoE has an 'unofficial' EN TL that's approved by the devs now CHECK IT OUT. PLEAAAASE.

cursed

Last boost for tonight

Thanks, Mona. It's only been a few weeks for all of these things so...

it is yeah

I'm extremely not up to updating it, but in a more dire situation so yeah

I'll try to update it tomorrow

Things are really bad right now though.

I'm completely homeless right now, and I just got out of the hospital today. I'm staying in an airbnb for the next 4 days so I'm safe that long...

I logged in here for the first time in months, and the first thing I saw in my notifs were all the likes from a friend of mine who recently passed away.

Sorry, I might need a little more time.

my rent due date got moved up to Tuesday a few weeks ago

It's crucial that I get to this appointment and I can't access paypal funds right now and I might lose my housing because of that as-is

I'm not back yet, I'm supposed to have a neurologist appointment at 8:30 this morning and rn I have no way of affording getting there and I'm trying to not break down crying over that. If anyone has Venmo and $30 to spare so I can at least get there:

@popeyeotaku.bsky.social If you're here PLEASE CHECK PAYPAL I've been trying to get your attention for hours

I sent you a DM on Discord about it, it's a little too sensitive to talk about publicly I'm sorry

Also, last night, Donald Trump signed an EO that straight up criminalizes homelessness/being mentally ill. They don't mean 'treatment', btw, they mean institutionalization. Which is imprisonment but socially acceptable because y'all hate us homeless disabled people www.usatoday.com/story/news/p...

Sorry, I've still been having a really rough time of things so I've been hiding from here.

It's still really hard to be here because so many of the people who believed the smear campaign moved here. And I've gotten things like threats/harassment through strawpage to the point I don't use it anymore

The part that really scares me is the general attitude that the -possibility- of addiction scares people more than seizures and other immediately fatal side effects, to the point they overlook how many serious side effects exist that aren't addiction. It's outright deadly stigmatization atp

I haven't been able to sleep I'm so tired

Tonight is an Iron Lotus kind of night

🎶Flower of iron
Shrivelled up to hide the imposter in me
"Hey, why did you leave? Why did you leave?"
Don't let those words out of me
Imposter's about to speak
So I chewed on 話梅糖🎶

www.youtube.com/watch?v=UeBQ...

Life is allowing yourself, allowing yourself to step on fire (Life is to consume)
Shed tears on bloodied routes (Life is to become food for each other, no matter evil or good)
Eternally in hell we live (Life is fairness, life is inequality)
Life is in the motion by default