🪲johnny🪲
@gatorpond.bsky.social
late 30s queer disabled mixed race trans dude (he/they/it) making art & fursuits in arkansas
anticolonialist anarchist & not-a-white vegan
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living in unceded Wazhazhe/Ugahxpa territory
https://gatorpond.carrd.com
anticolonialist anarchist & not-a-white vegan
🔞no minors pls🔞
living in unceded Wazhazhe/Ugahxpa territory
https://gatorpond.carrd.com
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long story short, life has been hellish for the past ~2 yrs. last week, my dog passed away unexpectedly & i am drowning in grief. my partner is working, but her job won't pay until mid dec. i have enough for rent but not much else. if anyone feels like helping, i'd greatly appreciate it.
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still trying to get car payment settled. it's due on the 3rd. about 250 short. and still need some funds for necessities like food, gas, meds, etc. working but everything is slow and i'm just. not okay.
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sat and crie for half an hour, then got a text asking if i'm available for a foster interview on the phone at noon and that made me cry even more, today is. difficult.
November 29, 2025 at 3:57 PM
sat and crie for half an hour, then got a text asking if i'm available for a foster interview on the phone at noon and that made me cry even more, today is. difficult.
i miss my dog so fucking much i just go drive to a secluded park and screamsob at least twice a day right now so i'm definitely emotionally volatile at the moment. sorry for the ranting.
November 29, 2025 at 3:06 PM
i miss my dog so fucking much i just go drive to a secluded park and screamsob at least twice a day right now so i'm definitely emotionally volatile at the moment. sorry for the ranting.
disabled ppl looking for service animals deserve better than being made to feel guilty for needing a healthy, temperamentally sound animal. sometimes, rescue animals simply are not a reasonable option. sometimes, we have to buy a dog for a purpose. comparing that to eugenics is ableism.
November 29, 2025 at 3:00 PM
disabled ppl looking for service animals deserve better than being made to feel guilty for needing a healthy, temperamentally sound animal. sometimes, rescue animals simply are not a reasonable option. sometimes, we have to buy a dog for a purpose. comparing that to eugenics is ableism.
finishing woodburnings today and then starting some premades to sell to hopefully get us thru the start of the month until my partner gets paid. owed fursuit work after that.
November 29, 2025 at 2:51 PM
finishing woodburnings today and then starting some premades to sell to hopefully get us thru the start of the month until my partner gets paid. owed fursuit work after that.
i'm likely to buy a puppy for service dog work a few yrs down the line when i can hopefully afford to do so and treating that like eugenics is just so frustrating. disabled ppl need purpose bred dogs for service work. that's not the same as, say, nazis sterilizing disabled humans. come on.
November 29, 2025 at 2:32 PM
i'm likely to buy a puppy for service dog work a few yrs down the line when i can hopefully afford to do so and treating that like eugenics is just so frustrating. disabled ppl need purpose bred dogs for service work. that's not the same as, say, nazis sterilizing disabled humans. come on.
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still trying to get car payment settled. it's due on the 3rd. about 250 short. and still need some funds for necessities like food, gas, meds, etc. working but everything is slow and i'm just. not okay.
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long story short, life has been hellish for the past ~2 yrs. last week, my dog passed away unexpectedly & i am drowning in grief. my partner is working, but her job won't pay until mid dec. i have enough for rent but not much else. if anyone feels like helping, i'd greatly appreciate it.
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November 27, 2025 at 1:12 PM
still trying to get car payment settled. it's due on the 3rd. about 250 short. and still need some funds for necessities like food, gas, meds, etc. working but everything is slow and i'm just. not okay.
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responsible breeding of dogs to a standard is not eugenics and if i see any of y'all parroting that nonsense i will lecture you. responsible breeding makes dogs healthier. i also hate kennel club standards taken to extremes but that doesn't mean dog breeding as a whole is nazi shit.
November 29, 2025 at 2:19 PM
responsible breeding of dogs to a standard is not eugenics and if i see any of y'all parroting that nonsense i will lecture you. responsible breeding makes dogs healthier. i also hate kennel club standards taken to extremes but that doesn't mean dog breeding as a whole is nazi shit.
just have to do the lettering and i'm done with this woodburning. one more to go, and it's just details/lettering on that one. then i'm all caught up.
hoping to get these all sent out this week. started sketching some premade pieces to go in my shop asap.
hoping to get these all sent out this week. started sketching some premade pieces to go in my shop asap.
November 29, 2025 at 1:20 AM
just have to do the lettering and i'm done with this woodburning. one more to go, and it's just details/lettering on that one. then i'm all caught up.
hoping to get these all sent out this week. started sketching some premade pieces to go in my shop asap.
hoping to get these all sent out this week. started sketching some premade pieces to go in my shop asap.
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November 18, 2025 at 1:13 AM
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November 15, 2025 at 2:29 PM
did some of my physical therapy and went for a very short walk. everything is just. hard. but i'm trying.
work time. reposts of my adopts/ko-fi links are extremely appreciated. my partner's job just kicked in again and her first full check will come in mid dec. just gotta get there.
work time. reposts of my adopts/ko-fi links are extremely appreciated. my partner's job just kicked in again and her first full check will come in mid dec. just gotta get there.
November 28, 2025 at 10:05 PM
did some of my physical therapy and went for a very short walk. everything is just. hard. but i'm trying.
work time. reposts of my adopts/ko-fi links are extremely appreciated. my partner's job just kicked in again and her first full check will come in mid dec. just gotta get there.
work time. reposts of my adopts/ko-fi links are extremely appreciated. my partner's job just kicked in again and her first full check will come in mid dec. just gotta get there.
waking up just hurts now. i keep thinking "i should get up and take the dog out," but that's not true anymore. then i lay here and cry.
November 28, 2025 at 1:36 PM
waking up just hurts now. i keep thinking "i should get up and take the dog out," but that's not true anymore. then i lay here and cry.
i'm going to bed. i'll work more tomorrow. i just. can't function right now.
November 28, 2025 at 2:41 AM
i'm going to bed. i'll work more tomorrow. i just. can't function right now.
1 week without you.
November 28, 2025 at 1:11 AM
1 week without you.
6 weeks post op
1 week without my dog
i am not okay
1 week without my dog
i am not okay
November 27, 2025 at 5:39 PM
6 weeks post op
1 week without my dog
i am not okay
1 week without my dog
i am not okay
i keep just sitting down and watching videos of roswell and i can't tell if it makes me feel better or worse. i miss him so fucking much. i would do anything just to kiss his head one more time. to tell him he's the best boy. to pinch his cheeks and get a side eye. everything hurts.
November 27, 2025 at 4:51 PM
i keep just sitting down and watching videos of roswell and i can't tell if it makes me feel better or worse. i miss him so fucking much. i would do anything just to kiss his head one more time. to tell him he's the best boy. to pinch his cheeks and get a side eye. everything hurts.
still trying to get car payment settled. it's due on the 3rd. about 250 short. and still need some funds for necessities like food, gas, meds, etc. working but everything is slow and i'm just. not okay.
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long story short, life has been hellish for the past ~2 yrs. last week, my dog passed away unexpectedly & i am drowning in grief. my partner is working, but her job won't pay until mid dec. i have enough for rent but not much else. if anyone feels like helping, i'd greatly appreciate it.
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November 27, 2025 at 1:12 PM
still trying to get car payment settled. it's due on the 3rd. about 250 short. and still need some funds for necessities like food, gas, meds, etc. working but everything is slow and i'm just. not okay.
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dreamed roswell was hurt and i couldn't get to him. woke up and immediately reached for where he usually slept. have been sobbing since.
November 27, 2025 at 1:08 PM
dreamed roswell was hurt and i couldn't get to him. woke up and immediately reached for where he usually slept. have been sobbing since.
too many memories i'll never get to add to. it's bedtime.
November 27, 2025 at 5:28 AM
too many memories i'll never get to add to. it's bedtime.
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long story short, life has been hellish for the past ~2 yrs. last week, my dog passed away unexpectedly & i am drowning in grief. my partner is working, but her job won't pay until mid dec. i have enough for rent but not much else. if anyone feels like helping, i'd greatly appreciate it.
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November 26, 2025 at 2:10 PM
long story short, life has been hellish for the past ~2 yrs. last week, my dog passed away unexpectedly & i am drowning in grief. my partner is working, but her job won't pay until mid dec. i have enough for rent but not much else. if anyone feels like helping, i'd greatly appreciate it.
hoping to be done with woodburning comms by the weekend. gonna make some for my shop. and then i'm going to try to do one of the fursuits i owe. i'm trying. everything hurts and i am sad all the time, but i'm tired of being behind.
November 27, 2025 at 1:54 AM
hoping to be done with woodburning comms by the weekend. gonna make some for my shop. and then i'm going to try to do one of the fursuits i owe. i'm trying. everything hurts and i am sad all the time, but i'm tired of being behind.
any time i start to feel happy about anything, i remember he's gone and just crumble. i'm so tired.
November 26, 2025 at 11:12 PM
any time i start to feel happy about anything, i remember he's gone and just crumble. i'm so tired.
cleaned a bunch, organized some stuff... planned a necklace to carry ashes with me. cried a lot. gonna do some work now.
November 26, 2025 at 9:43 PM
cleaned a bunch, organized some stuff... planned a necklace to carry ashes with me. cried a lot. gonna do some work now.
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