Same same same, gift and deserving and survivors guilt.

I am packing to move the other way, to the Cities, and am keeping an eye on you to see how long it takes to onboard the change!

Yes though might not be what you’re asking for?

Bancha twig tea with

a spoon of kuzu starch

a splash of ginger juice

and a spoon of umeboshi plum paste

Stir and keep stirring. Best first thing in the morning before eating anything else, can drink 2x day at the beginning to calm things down.

I’ve wondered if I manage it because it’s an IM injection instead of oral. Thank you! Will bookmark this thread to see if the new drug works for you.

…are most antibiotics mast cell triggers? Is this why I’m down to rocephin? Would explain a lot!

Love to see this!

This is what I was doing this time last year. It killed me and it gave me life. Hope you are getting back as much as you are giving 💗

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One of the smartest moves we've seen through this ordeal was the decision of Brown University to cancel classes and exams – everything. To close completely and allow students, faculty and staff to go home until the middle of January.

I think that protected people from even more trauma.

I loved being that person but also it feels like freedom to leave her here.

I never thought I’d leave here but I’m very sure it’s the right thing now. That I will be lighter not dragging all the history. That it will be good to stop feeling like there’s things I should be doing, all the work I chose and loved.

Everything can change.

The way that every time I leave the house here I’ll see someone I know and they invariably light up and then get really sad in the space of three minutes. I’m looking forward to anonymity. To just being who I am instead of the person people miss.

Omg