Here is Adobo!

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I'm getting into music (on my own terms, mixing, playing with synthesis, I don't think music instruments are my thing tho I would like to try percussions at some point) which has given me a medium to channel my creative energy, but also it's been a hobby that's fun and interesting to me

But on the other hand my chronic state of anxiety is practically gone

The few times I start to feel anxious I can identify the feelings involved and triggers, and think then act upon them has made it much manageable than a few years ago

Realizing axiety is just my body reacting in a way

(c.) missing my overall life back there (I felt so lonely all the timeback there)

Making peace with my adictions and learning to control when I am smoking/consuming stuff more consciously, I'm back to 4 cups of coffee a day which is not great for my stomach

Still no job almost a year after I got laid off, still looking but at the same time enjoying the free time, and enjoying family and friends again, been reading and learning more stuff on my own

Missing Michigan but just a few things here and there, places, friends, events, but not (c.)

On the other hand I've been trying to cut on the doomscrolling and use of social media in general, been more aware of how The Algorithm is messing and playing with our psyche

As a by-product I've been more silent on social media and the comunities I am part of

And it hasn't been bad at all

(c.) but at the same time I feel more like myself? Like a veil covering my eyes just dissapeared and I started confronting myself and my thoughts and past experiences and even traumatic experiences, seeing those for what they are/were

I really dunno where zi wanna go with all this tbh

For some reason I stumbled (again but this time more in-depth) upon Jung's works on the shadow self and it resonated with this process

Been using this + integration on my meditations with interesting results, kinda like not being the same person after each sesh (c.)

Like seeing things on a different perspective, specificaly about my "healing process" made me stop and re-frame the way I was doing it

Been writing A LOT about my inner dialogue and reflections, and coming back every few days to re-read stuff makes me think this stuff in a new light