voiveli
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posting who knows what, venting about stuff that haunts my brain..
Idk if I like these meds or not, last night I had the third night in a row with barely any sleep because I felt so restless while laying in bed, bUT I have gotten shit done... I just.. don't really enjoy being alive at all. I'm turning into a robot.
January 20, 2026 at 6:00 PM
Idk if I like these meds or not, last night I had the third night in a row with barely any sleep because I felt so restless while laying in bed, bUT I have gotten shit done... I just.. don't really enjoy being alive at all. I'm turning into a robot.
I haven't updated about my current med situation - but.. I am now going through a MANIC EPISODE! Idk what to tell you, my body is exhausted but my brain refuses to chill. I keep moving like someone is poking my ass with a pitch fork. I don't feel like myself at ALL! Great pills doc.
January 19, 2026 at 2:34 PM
I haven't updated about my current med situation - but.. I am now going through a MANIC EPISODE! Idk what to tell you, my body is exhausted but my brain refuses to chill. I keep moving like someone is poking my ass with a pitch fork. I don't feel like myself at ALL! Great pills doc.
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January 12, 2026 at 8:03 PM
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I upped my new meds dosage yesterday, and I actually slept. Had dreams, not nightmares.. but.. I am barely awake despite getting up three hours ago.. I'm dissociating real bad, I was insanely grumpy when I forced myself to get out of bed, and was fuming with rage. Now, I can't feel a thing.
January 10, 2026 at 12:10 PM
I upped my new meds dosage yesterday, and I actually slept. Had dreams, not nightmares.. but.. I am barely awake despite getting up three hours ago.. I'm dissociating real bad, I was insanely grumpy when I forced myself to get out of bed, and was fuming with rage. Now, I can't feel a thing.
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This night I had dreams again, one was a nightmare but the second one was just me walking the dogs during summer near a lake. So I did actually sleep more, waking up less. Huh. That's pretty cool I guess.
January 9, 2026 at 8:10 AM
This night I had dreams again, one was a nightmare but the second one was just me walking the dogs during summer near a lake. So I did actually sleep more, waking up less. Huh. That's pretty cool I guess.
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First night with the new meds, I don't even know how to describe it.. it felt like I didn't sleep, it felt like I was just laying in bed the whole night while hearing voices coming from around my room.. like, walking, talking, sudden screams.. idk what to think of it🧍♂️
January 8, 2026 at 8:10 AM
First night with the new meds, I don't even know how to describe it.. it felt like I didn't sleep, it felt like I was just laying in bed the whole night while hearing voices coming from around my room.. like, walking, talking, sudden screams.. idk what to think of it🧍♂️
They switched my meds again, and now i'm forced to stop multiple previous meds as well as the ones they prescribed me last time😐 Well.. we'll see how the new ones treat my brain!
January 7, 2026 at 6:26 PM
They switched my meds again, and now i'm forced to stop multiple previous meds as well as the ones they prescribed me last time😐 Well.. we'll see how the new ones treat my brain!
Feels like i'm starting to get numb to nightmares, they've been going on for over a month now.. Last night I drowned in a tar pit, in another night I had to watch my granma die again, third one had a massive thunder storm that caused humanity to regress hundreds of years and I was burned alive :)👍
January 7, 2026 at 9:14 AM
Feels like i'm starting to get numb to nightmares, they've been going on for over a month now.. Last night I drowned in a tar pit, in another night I had to watch my granma die again, third one had a massive thunder storm that caused humanity to regress hundreds of years and I was burned alive :)👍
I still haven't slept one full night. Last night I woke up four times, to my heart pounding so loud I thought I was having a heart attack. It scared me so bad I was afraid to fall back asleep..💀 Meeting with the acute healthcare tomorrow, we'll see what they think of my "progress" ...
January 6, 2026 at 7:46 PM
I still haven't slept one full night. Last night I woke up four times, to my heart pounding so loud I thought I was having a heart attack. It scared me so bad I was afraid to fall back asleep..💀 Meeting with the acute healthcare tomorrow, we'll see what they think of my "progress" ...
I woke up with the worst brain fog i've ever had, nothing feels real, i'm looking at myself from a distance, every movement I make lags, my vision keeps unfocusing and I feel i'm loosing my mind.. not sure if this new medication is working for me🙂
January 3, 2026 at 11:38 AM
I woke up with the worst brain fog i've ever had, nothing feels real, i'm looking at myself from a distance, every movement I make lags, my vision keeps unfocusing and I feel i'm loosing my mind.. not sure if this new medication is working for me🙂
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heal your nervous system with this one weird trick
October 29, 2025 at 9:10 PM
heal your nervous system with this one weird trick
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english isn't my mother language
August 31, 2024 at 4:39 PM
english isn't my mother language
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Since it's the Year of the Horse, I want to watch again "A Town Called Panic" (starring Horse ♡).
January 2, 2026 at 1:11 PM
Since it's the Year of the Horse, I want to watch again "A Town Called Panic" (starring Horse ♡).
Had a nightmare where I was hatecrimed and killed for being gay, and I watched my body being torn to pieces from above by my old school bullies.. After nightmares like this, I wish I didn't remember my dreams very vividly..🫠 my brain is full of gore..
December 30, 2025 at 9:46 AM
Had a nightmare where I was hatecrimed and killed for being gay, and I watched my body being torn to pieces from above by my old school bullies.. After nightmares like this, I wish I didn't remember my dreams very vividly..🫠 my brain is full of gore..
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finally available as a shirt!!!! 🦂🏳️⚧️
November 9, 2025 at 6:33 PM
finally available as a shirt!!!! 🦂🏳️⚧️
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December 26, 2025 at 4:32 PM
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I lied I have one more piece in me before the year ends.
This is an experimental illustration though. I'm not great with the flat graphic stuff but I thought I'd give it a go again.
This is an experimental illustration though. I'm not great with the flat graphic stuff but I thought I'd give it a go again.
December 28, 2025 at 10:31 PM
I lied I have one more piece in me before the year ends.
This is an experimental illustration though. I'm not great with the flat graphic stuff but I thought I'd give it a go again.
This is an experimental illustration though. I'm not great with the flat graphic stuff but I thought I'd give it a go again.
I was prescribed meds for severe depression few weeks ago, and some to help with constant nightmares. Idk if they've helped much. I've had a horrible year mental health wise.. I lost a friend to cancer, my father died and my little sister betrayed me. Now my dog is in palliative care.. <:) _sigh_...
December 28, 2025 at 6:55 PM
I was prescribed meds for severe depression few weeks ago, and some to help with constant nightmares. Idk if they've helped much. I've had a horrible year mental health wise.. I lost a friend to cancer, my father died and my little sister betrayed me. Now my dog is in palliative care.. <:) _sigh_...
still debating if living this long was necessary hehe
If I was a hobbit, today I'd be coming of age. Turning 33 today, not celebrating! I'm gonna eat a donut though.
December 28, 2025 at 6:51 PM
still debating if living this long was necessary hehe