Also I can’t tell you how good it feels to not respond to his texts but drag him to his wife instead knowing she’ll say it to him like I can’t stop laughing about this

Sorry also adding to the complicaciones of this series of relationships is that we also talked about my other partner because they’ve fucked too 😭😭😭 like
I’m sooo obsessed w the whole situation it’s sooo stupid

Let me reiterate she sold that mans to me like they sold y/n to one direction and then called me to talk about blowjobs and gay porn while i was naked shaving my legs in the bath. What the hell even is happening in my life even at all (I love it I’m having the best time)

Long story short despite living four hours away he was here later the same night because he’s a wife guy who listens to his wife. Longer story short she just FaceTimed me to talk about a gay movie while she knew I was in the bath. I’m really out here on levels of polyamory I can’t even describe

Like being susceptible to overstimulation or being impacted by my environment makes me so annoyed conceptually bc I feel weak lol

It’s also so annoying that like the process of unlock door/take jacket off/take headphone off/cat scream at me/wet bellbottom/temperature change/put heavy bags down is a) the thing that made me figure out adhd and b) the thing that still kills me instantly lol

Like also thinking about how there are a lot of people that I’ve known really early on in knowing them that I want in my life forever & having to concede to myself that this is one of them, really gay, especially because I think all the other people on that list are long term friendships

Tasting juniper we picked together on top of a mountain and filled with a rush of love and the memory of a beautiful rare flower I saw up there like I don’t fuxking know dude I’m just gay

Anyways

Me excited to see if this works vs my body waking me up after ~4 hours of sleep at five oh one A M 😩

We’ve been trading coping mechanisms lately tbh I’ve given him more than a few of my hard won ones like google calendar, own six of the same water bottle, laundry timer etc but it was really nice of him to set it up even if he named one or the routines “wake up bitch” (prob would’ve done the same)

I love friendship

like to be clear, and as he put it, this knowledge of diphtheria is out of scope for my job BUT I find it interesting to look into and know a lot about shitloads of communicable diseases even though I mostly just need to know their names lol like I’m a glorified mail sorter for lab results