Toadlyturtle
@toadlyturtle.mastodon.social.ap.brid.gy
My partner Sabi is disabled 24/7 caretaker for elderly mom & ESA bun. They're a disabled Indigenous Latina family, homeless after eviction. Nothing is […]
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In 41 yrs I've learned:
I do not deserve kindness
I was born to suffer and be punished
I don't deserve to have basic needs
I have to guilt and shame others to survive
Am I a #findomme by design?
Who knows - for those who know that profile, nope not a mistake
I do not deserve kindness
I was born to suffer and be punished
I don't deserve to have basic needs
I have to guilt and shame others to survive
Am I a #findomme by design?
Who knows - for those who know that profile, nope not a mistake
December 12, 2025 at 5:16 PM
In 41 yrs I've learned:
I do not deserve kindness
I was born to suffer and be punished
I don't deserve to have basic needs
I have to guilt and shame others to survive
Am I a #findomme by design?
Who knows - for those who know that profile, nope not a mistake
I do not deserve kindness
I was born to suffer and be punished
I don't deserve to have basic needs
I have to guilt and shame others to survive
Am I a #findomme by design?
Who knows - for those who know that profile, nope not a mistake
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Newsflash #mastodon I'm still unhoused and in danger
That's all
Toot
kofi: sabilewsounds
PPal: SabiLewSounds
Linktree: sabilewsounds
🐇
Vnm: toadlyturtle
CA: toadlyturtle
*Add note* "Sabi"
That's all
Toot
kofi: sabilewsounds
PPal: SabiLewSounds
Linktree: sabilewsounds
🐇
Vnm: toadlyturtle
CA: toadlyturtle
*Add note* "Sabi"
December 11, 2025 at 3:52 PM
Newsflash #mastodon I'm still unhoused and in danger
That's all
Toot
kofi: sabilewsounds
PPal: SabiLewSounds
Linktree: sabilewsounds
🐇
Vnm: toadlyturtle
CA: toadlyturtle
*Add note* "Sabi"
That's all
Toot
kofi: sabilewsounds
PPal: SabiLewSounds
Linktree: sabilewsounds
🐇
Vnm: toadlyturtle
CA: toadlyturtle
*Add note* "Sabi"
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Please share‼️⬇️⬇️
Critical update for Sabi:
"$2,539 is Past Due, $15 accrues daily as we are several weeks behind, $650 is added every Tues until our reservation ends 12/30 then idk whatever impending doom." - Sabi
Please chip in all you can!
#helpsky
#mutualaid
#helpfolkslive2025
#disability
#communitycare
💸💕
"$2,539 is Past Due, $15 accrues daily as we are several weeks behind, $650 is added every Tues until our reservation ends 12/30 then idk whatever impending doom." - Sabi
Please chip in all you can!
#helpsky
#mutualaid
#helpfolkslive2025
#disability
#communitycare
💸💕
Hey! Sabi is still the sole caregiver for a beloved family member while surviving off a super limited fixed income in a hotel room that they are behind paying for.
Each every bit of help counts!
Kofi: SabilLewSounds
PP: SabiLewSounds
PLEASE ADD NOTE:
"FOR SABI"
V: toadlyturtle
CA: toadlyturtle
Each every bit of help counts!
Kofi: SabilLewSounds
PP: SabiLewSounds
PLEASE ADD NOTE:
"FOR SABI"
V: toadlyturtle
CA: toadlyturtle
December 10, 2025 at 3:12 AM
Please share‼️⬇️⬇️
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When I’m like “ooh look the moon” I remember that someone once told me “the way you look at the moon is the way your innermost you (your soul if you call it that) is looking at you all the time.”
🌙
🌙
Almost forgot to post a #Moon shot!
#SantaBarbara #MoonPhotography #MoonPhotos #MoonShots #Photography
Camera settings:
Canon T5i
Sigma 150mm x 600mm
Focal length: 600mm
F-stop: f/11
Exposure time: 1/640
ISO: 800
Moon phase: Waning 76%
#SantaBarbara #MoonPhotography #MoonPhotos #MoonShots #Photography
Camera settings:
Canon T5i
Sigma 150mm x 600mm
Focal length: 600mm
F-stop: f/11
Exposure time: 1/640
ISO: 800
Moon phase: Waning 76%
December 9, 2025 at 8:03 PM
When I’m like “ooh look the moon” I remember that someone once told me “the way you look at the moon is the way your innermost you (your soul if you call it that) is looking at you all the time.”
🌙
🌙
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People are human.
People are not machines to be perfected and run at peak performance speeds constantly. WTF ever that even means because the bar always moves again.
People are flawed.
This is a chance to love them anyways.
Not at the expense of our own wellbeing, but in service to it.
People are not machines to be perfected and run at peak performance speeds constantly. WTF ever that even means because the bar always moves again.
People are flawed.
This is a chance to love them anyways.
Not at the expense of our own wellbeing, but in service to it.
December 9, 2025 at 7:37 PM
People are human.
People are not machines to be perfected and run at peak performance speeds constantly. WTF ever that even means because the bar always moves again.
People are flawed.
This is a chance to love them anyways.
Not at the expense of our own wellbeing, but in service to it.
People are not machines to be perfected and run at peak performance speeds constantly. WTF ever that even means because the bar always moves again.
People are flawed.
This is a chance to love them anyways.
Not at the expense of our own wellbeing, but in service to it.
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When children aren’t allowed to really participate in society we live in societies that only provide for those performing excellence or what is the ideal of “ADULTHOOD”
Our nervous systems can quite literally conditioned to be impatient, cold, short, punitive, perfectionist, paternalistic, etc
Our nervous systems can quite literally conditioned to be impatient, cold, short, punitive, perfectionist, paternalistic, etc
December 9, 2025 at 7:37 PM
When children aren’t allowed to really participate in society we live in societies that only provide for those performing excellence or what is the ideal of “ADULTHOOD”
Our nervous systems can quite literally conditioned to be impatient, cold, short, punitive, perfectionist, paternalistic, etc
Our nervous systems can quite literally conditioned to be impatient, cold, short, punitive, perfectionist, paternalistic, etc
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This is just something to remember.
It’s the “holiday season”
A lot of people are activated & that’s okay.
Not everyone will be able to regulate & that’s okay.
Not everyone will want to celebrate & that’s okay.
Not everyone will be willing to be vulnerable & that’s okay.
It’s the “holiday season”
A lot of people are activated & that’s okay.
Not everyone will be able to regulate & that’s okay.
Not everyone will want to celebrate & that’s okay.
Not everyone will be willing to be vulnerable & that’s okay.
December 9, 2025 at 7:37 PM
This is just something to remember.
It’s the “holiday season”
A lot of people are activated & that’s okay.
Not everyone will be able to regulate & that’s okay.
Not everyone will want to celebrate & that’s okay.
Not everyone will be willing to be vulnerable & that’s okay.
It’s the “holiday season”
A lot of people are activated & that’s okay.
Not everyone will be able to regulate & that’s okay.
Not everyone will want to celebrate & that’s okay.
Not everyone will be willing to be vulnerable & that’s okay.
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Even if you eat me you will run out of food
Even if the machine takes me first you will perish
Even if you hide in the circus sickness is at your feet
Despair and fear and shame strip love from the flesh of reality
Even if the machine takes me first you will perish
Even if you hide in the circus sickness is at your feet
Despair and fear and shame strip love from the flesh of reality
December 11, 2025 at 1:25 AM
Even if you eat me you will run out of food
Even if the machine takes me first you will perish
Even if you hide in the circus sickness is at your feet
Despair and fear and shame strip love from the flesh of reality
Even if the machine takes me first you will perish
Even if you hide in the circus sickness is at your feet
Despair and fear and shame strip love from the flesh of reality
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Death never loses its sting
she is darkness and mystery
she dwells in every breath
she births hope and renewal
Her sweet kiss burns the living
but as she sweeps in with her peace and rest
Death feeds life
She is the beginning
she is darkness and mystery
she dwells in every breath
she births hope and renewal
Her sweet kiss burns the living
but as she sweeps in with her peace and rest
Death feeds life
She is the beginning
December 11, 2025 at 1:30 AM
Death never loses its sting
she is darkness and mystery
she dwells in every breath
she births hope and renewal
Her sweet kiss burns the living
but as she sweeps in with her peace and rest
Death feeds life
She is the beginning
she is darkness and mystery
she dwells in every breath
she births hope and renewal
Her sweet kiss burns the living
but as she sweeps in with her peace and rest
Death feeds life
She is the beginning
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Brown Disabled #indigenous Latina family, homeless; mourning loss of Little Man (ESA bun)
#sabilewsounds is a disabled 24/7 caretaker for elderly mom w/ #dementia; multidisciplinary artist #disability & #mentalhealth advocate
As of 12-10-25 11:00 AM ET
$3 […]
[Original post on mastodon.social]
#sabilewsounds is a disabled 24/7 caretaker for elderly mom w/ #dementia; multidisciplinary artist #disability & #mentalhealth advocate
As of 12-10-25 11:00 AM ET
$3 […]
[Original post on mastodon.social]
December 10, 2025 at 10:09 PM
Brown Disabled #indigenous Latina family, homeless; mourning loss of Little Man (ESA bun)
#sabilewsounds is a disabled 24/7 caretaker for elderly mom w/ #dementia; multidisciplinary artist #disability & #mentalhealth advocate
As of 12-10-25 11:00 AM ET
$3 […]
[Original post on mastodon.social]
#sabilewsounds is a disabled 24/7 caretaker for elderly mom w/ #dementia; multidisciplinary artist #disability & #mentalhealth advocate
As of 12-10-25 11:00 AM ET
$3 […]
[Original post on mastodon.social]
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Being ignored and pushed aside because I am #brown hurts like hell, getting treated like my partner's love for me is a fucking burden to him is painful as shit and ontop of losing my #emotionalsupportbunny only a month ago and being severely disoriented I'm SICK of putting up with two faced BS […]
Original post on mastodon.social
mastodon.social
December 9, 2025 at 6:02 PM
Being ignored and pushed aside because I am #brown hurts like hell, getting treated like my partner's love for me is a fucking burden to him is painful as shit and ontop of losing my #emotionalsupportbunny only a month ago and being severely disoriented I'm SICK of putting up with two faced BS […]
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Quoting and expanding a caption written for the #metademon it's a #tacotuesday thread and holy fuck am I hungry
So many practice #eugenics everyday
the value placed on lives based on output
is exactly that, a disgusting form of choosing who gets to live
I care for my mother who has #dementia […]
So many practice #eugenics everyday
the value placed on lives based on output
is exactly that, a disgusting form of choosing who gets to live
I care for my mother who has #dementia […]
Original post on mastodon.social
mastodon.social
December 9, 2025 at 5:53 PM
Quoting and expanding a caption written for the #metademon it's a #tacotuesday thread and holy fuck am I hungry
So many practice #eugenics everyday
the value placed on lives based on output
is exactly that, a disgusting form of choosing who gets to live
I care for my mother who has #dementia […]
So many practice #eugenics everyday
the value placed on lives based on output
is exactly that, a disgusting form of choosing who gets to live
I care for my mother who has #dementia […]
Brown Disabled #indigenous Latina family, homeless; mourning loss of Little Man (ESA bun)
#sabilewsounds is a disabled 24/7 caretaker for elderly mom w/ #dementia; multidisciplinary artist #disability & #mentalhealth advocate
As of 12-09-25 11:00 AM ET
$2,811 Needed
$2,539 Past Due
$2,075 min […]
#sabilewsounds is a disabled 24/7 caretaker for elderly mom w/ #dementia; multidisciplinary artist #disability & #mentalhealth advocate
As of 12-09-25 11:00 AM ET
$2,811 Needed
$2,539 Past Due
$2,075 min […]
Original post on mastodon.social
mastodon.social
December 9, 2025 at 5:19 PM
Brown Disabled #indigenous Latina family, homeless; mourning loss of Little Man (ESA bun)
#sabilewsounds is a disabled 24/7 caretaker for elderly mom w/ #dementia; multidisciplinary artist #disability & #mentalhealth advocate
As of 12-09-25 11:00 AM ET
$2,811 Needed
$2,539 Past Due
$2,075 min […]
#sabilewsounds is a disabled 24/7 caretaker for elderly mom w/ #dementia; multidisciplinary artist #disability & #mentalhealth advocate
As of 12-09-25 11:00 AM ET
$2,811 Needed
$2,539 Past Due
$2,075 min […]
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Oh look sanism from the libs
Not surprised
https://mastodon.social/@r_alb/115678528624323289
Many are still on TWITTER to survive from #mutualaid
Many of us are #neuroresisting aka #neurononconforming aka #madd
Tired of fucking #ablism from these so called "#antifacist" folx
🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕
Not surprised
https://mastodon.social/@r_alb/115678528624323289
Many are still on TWITTER to survive from #mutualaid
Many of us are #neuroresisting aka #neurononconforming aka #madd
Tired of fucking #ablism from these so called "#antifacist" folx
🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕
Raphael Albert (@[email protected])
@[email protected] Are you still on X after what the company's self-proclaimed god-king recently tweeted?
mastodon.social
December 7, 2025 at 3:58 PM
Oh look sanism from the libs
Not surprised
https://mastodon.social/@r_alb/115678528624323289
Many are still on TWITTER to survive from #mutualaid
Many of us are #neuroresisting aka #neurononconforming aka #madd
Tired of fucking #ablism from these so called "#antifacist" folx
🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕
Not surprised
https://mastodon.social/@r_alb/115678528624323289
Many are still on TWITTER to survive from #mutualaid
Many of us are #neuroresisting aka #neurononconforming aka #madd
Tired of fucking #ablism from these so called "#antifacist" folx
🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕
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December 7, 2025 at 3:54 PM
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For the caretaker, it means one moment it feels safe to place attention elsewhere and the next danger, literally. This results in a constant feeling of dread, made all the harder without help. It means even so much as not having adequate rest, nor the ability to safely process & grieve.
I've […]
I've […]
Original post on mastodon.social
mastodon.social
December 6, 2025 at 7:56 PM
For the caretaker, it means one moment it feels safe to place attention elsewhere and the next danger, literally. This results in a constant feeling of dread, made all the harder without help. It means even so much as not having adequate rest, nor the ability to safely process & grieve.
I've […]
I've […]
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There's not much awareness of what it means to be caretaker for an elder w/ dementia, let alone that having dementia means continually reliving trauma, loss & fear thru each moment.
Bodies may be frail, but memories are experienced as if they were but moments ago, while not knowing those alive […]
Bodies may be frail, but memories are experienced as if they were but moments ago, while not knowing those alive […]
Original post on mastodon.social
mastodon.social
December 6, 2025 at 7:34 PM
There's not much awareness of what it means to be caretaker for an elder w/ dementia, let alone that having dementia means continually reliving trauma, loss & fear thru each moment.
Bodies may be frail, but memories are experienced as if they were but moments ago, while not knowing those alive […]
Bodies may be frail, but memories are experienced as if they were but moments ago, while not knowing those alive […]
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Migraine 18 days and now a fever fun times - what a lovely leisure life of caretaking 24/7 with not one ounce of family or community to physically help me
Don't mind me here on #vacay
Don't mind me here on #vacay
December 7, 2025 at 1:03 AM
Migraine 18 days and now a fever fun times - what a lovely leisure life of caretaking 24/7 with not one ounce of family or community to physically help me
Don't mind me here on #vacay
Don't mind me here on #vacay
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Hey #mastodon #art lovers
My friend @tulsalien.bsky.social recently shared a #mutualaid request to help expand their ability to uplift #community through art and creating!!!
They have helped me stay housed by creating a #zine with my art, and selling stickers on my behalf made with my art too! […]
My friend @tulsalien.bsky.social recently shared a #mutualaid request to help expand their ability to uplift #community through art and creating!!!
They have helped me stay housed by creating a #zine with my art, and selling stickers on my behalf made with my art too! […]
Original post on mastodon.social
mastodon.social
December 7, 2025 at 2:35 AM
Hey #mastodon #art lovers
My friend @tulsalien.bsky.social recently shared a #mutualaid request to help expand their ability to uplift #community through art and creating!!!
They have helped me stay housed by creating a #zine with my art, and selling stickers on my behalf made with my art too! […]
My friend @tulsalien.bsky.social recently shared a #mutualaid request to help expand their ability to uplift #community through art and creating!!!
They have helped me stay housed by creating a #zine with my art, and selling stickers on my behalf made with my art too! […]
There's not much awareness of what it means to be caretaker for an elder w/ dementia, let alone that having dementia means continually reliving trauma, loss & fear thru each moment.
Bodies may be frail, but memories are experienced as if they were but moments ago, while not knowing those alive […]
Bodies may be frail, but memories are experienced as if they were but moments ago, while not knowing those alive […]
Original post on mastodon.social
mastodon.social
December 6, 2025 at 7:34 PM
There's not much awareness of what it means to be caretaker for an elder w/ dementia, let alone that having dementia means continually reliving trauma, loss & fear thru each moment.
Bodies may be frail, but memories are experienced as if they were but moments ago, while not knowing those alive […]
Bodies may be frail, but memories are experienced as if they were but moments ago, while not knowing those alive […]
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Help @SabiLewSounds & I start our lives together. Visit the following links to learn more.
https://chuffed.org/project/119126-star-crossed-lovers
https://youtu.be/XDzqrBi7Vig
#disability #neurodivergent #demisexual #longdistancerelationship #starcrossedlovers #crowdfunding #fundraisingCampaign
https://chuffed.org/project/119126-star-crossed-lovers
https://youtu.be/XDzqrBi7Vig
#disability #neurodivergent #demisexual #longdistancerelationship #starcrossedlovers #crowdfunding #fundraisingCampaign
Star Crossed Lovers
Sabi and Todd are both disabled Neurodivergent Demisexual friends who fell in love across the country.
chuffed.org
December 16, 2024 at 2:43 AM
Help @SabiLewSounds & I start our lives together. Visit the following links to learn more.
https://chuffed.org/project/119126-star-crossed-lovers
https://youtu.be/XDzqrBi7Vig
#disability #neurodivergent #demisexual #longdistancerelationship #starcrossedlovers #crowdfunding #fundraisingCampaign
https://chuffed.org/project/119126-star-crossed-lovers
https://youtu.be/XDzqrBi7Vig
#disability #neurodivergent #demisexual #longdistancerelationship #starcrossedlovers #crowdfunding #fundraisingCampaign
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Disabled #Indigenous Latina family, #homeless; mourning loss of Little Man (ESA bun)
Linktr.ee/SabiLewSounds
Ko-fi.com/SabiLewSounds
PayPal.me/SabiLewSounds
Cash.app/$toadlyturtle
Venmo.com/toadlyturtle
Note: Sabi
#HelpFolksLive2025 #HelpSky #MutualAid #LatinaMusician #DisabledArtist
Linktr.ee/SabiLewSounds
Ko-fi.com/SabiLewSounds
PayPal.me/SabiLewSounds
Cash.app/$toadlyturtle
Venmo.com/toadlyturtle
Note: Sabi
#HelpFolksLive2025 #HelpSky #MutualAid #LatinaMusician #DisabledArtist
November 28, 2025 at 3:15 PM
Disabled #Indigenous Latina family, #homeless; mourning loss of Little Man (ESA bun)
Linktr.ee/SabiLewSounds
Ko-fi.com/SabiLewSounds
PayPal.me/SabiLewSounds
Cash.app/$toadlyturtle
Venmo.com/toadlyturtle
Note: Sabi
#HelpFolksLive2025 #HelpSky #MutualAid #LatinaMusician #DisabledArtist
Linktr.ee/SabiLewSounds
Ko-fi.com/SabiLewSounds
PayPal.me/SabiLewSounds
Cash.app/$toadlyturtle
Venmo.com/toadlyturtle
Note: Sabi
#HelpFolksLive2025 #HelpSky #MutualAid #LatinaMusician #DisabledArtist
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Please check out the shops for #SabiLewSounds listed at Linktr.ee/SabiLewSounds
Sabi is a disabled #Indigenous #Latina multidisciplinary #artist & #musician, as well advocate for #mentalhealth & #disability
#SettlerSaturday
Sabi is a disabled #Indigenous #Latina multidisciplinary #artist & #musician, as well advocate for #mentalhealth & #disability
#SettlerSaturday
SabiLewSounds | Instagram, Facebook, Twitch | Linktree
Creations to heal and grow through love and peace!
Linktr.ee
November 29, 2025 at 3:31 PM
Please check out the shops for #SabiLewSounds listed at Linktr.ee/SabiLewSounds
Sabi is a disabled #Indigenous #Latina multidisciplinary #artist & #musician, as well advocate for #mentalhealth & #disability
#SettlerSaturday
Sabi is a disabled #Indigenous #Latina multidisciplinary #artist & #musician, as well advocate for #mentalhealth & #disability
#SettlerSaturday
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Please check out the shops for #sabilewsounds listed at https://Linktr.ee/SabiLewSounds
Sabi is a disabled #indigenous #latina multidisciplinary #artist & #musician, as well advocate for #mentalhealth & #disability
She's sole 24/7 caretaker for her elderly mom with dementia
They're raising […]
Sabi is a disabled #indigenous #latina multidisciplinary #artist & #musician, as well advocate for #mentalhealth & #disability
She's sole 24/7 caretaker for her elderly mom with dementia
They're raising […]
Original post on mastodon.social
mastodon.social
November 29, 2025 at 3:31 PM
Please check out the shops for #sabilewsounds listed at https://Linktr.ee/SabiLewSounds
Sabi is a disabled #indigenous #latina multidisciplinary #artist & #musician, as well advocate for #mentalhealth & #disability
She's sole 24/7 caretaker for her elderly mom with dementia
They're raising […]
Sabi is a disabled #indigenous #latina multidisciplinary #artist & #musician, as well advocate for #mentalhealth & #disability
She's sole 24/7 caretaker for her elderly mom with dementia
They're raising […]