As much as I love pure pen and ink (digital or otherwise) it felt really weird not to have the hood be red. 😁 Thank you again for commissioning me!

I can’t emphasize enough how significant getting these items for my cats would be. I am so grateful for any help I receive. It’s all I want for Christmas, just things for them.

I will! Thank you again!

Someday I honestly hope to return to cons and hug several of you once again. I depend so much on my little community. Thank you everyone for always being there for me.

Oh Loupy!! 😭 I just saw, I didn’t know! It absolutely does, thank you, so so much!!

If this sounds odd: Fiona needs a place to feel secure in the house. Unfortunately she lost two of her favorites since both downstairs cat trees were too damaged to keep. But I’ve had too much in vet costs this month, hundreds, as usual… we just can’t.

It’s sad how far removed from my mind toys are this Christmas, lol. I hope next year is better on my mental health…

…I’ve been so disconnected from community in general this year, that it feels wrong to even try. I feel like I never do anything for anyone else. Even so, I wish I could at least get the cat tree because Romeo destroyed Fiona’s and I had to trash it and she’s so obviously unhappy about it. Sigh. 😞

But I like to continue to hope. Everything will be okay somehow. Things will be okay eventually, even if this is my cat's badness level. Because he is still my ohana I guess... and I love him.

But it's tiring. I am so, so tired, so mentally drained. We have spent so much money on this issue. When you see my blog is not updated for months, when you see I have not drawn for weeks/months at a time depending of the ongoing cat-astrophe (hah) at a given time, you know things are not okay.

If an animal can be neurodivergent, he absolutely is, and this is very much a "funny brain" household, after all. I don't really believe in fate, but it's hard not to think he got stuck behind our specific shed because no one else would have loved and fought for him like I have and continue to do.

Of course, there is more to it than the bad stuff. There are happy moments, and my vet and I haven't given up yet on helping him. He's not even two, and the passing of years changes an animal. He is actually changing. It's not just that I don't want to abandon him. I love him so much that it hurts.

And in case anyone suggests something like making him a barn cat or such... this is a cat that truly loves human company (from a distance) and the company of other cats (except for the ones he hates and wants to kill). I personally believe that he would suffer as a working / lone cat.

Either I can "make it work" or the situation is so serious, that you just *know* no one else will deal with it. That's Romeo's situation. If a cat like him is taken to a shelter he will be immediately euthanized for aggression and marking. He is considered unadoptable. I wouldn't even try it.