But I can’t relate. Life has always been real to me. I have always felt the weight of my parent’s expectations. I always knew that it was do or die for me. So life has always been real for me, even as a child. So yeah

But I have taken care of my current partner when they were sick. And if they are sick, I do want to be there and take care of them. There’s a huge difference.

My ex had mentioned in the past before when they were sick that they wished I was there so that I could take care of them. But I never wanted to take care of them and I never have. If they were sick, I’d stay away from them.

My ex was sick often and my thought was always, ugh again. Talk to me when you have recovered.
But when my current partner is sick, it does make me worry and have anxiety.

I wasn’t even willing to do this for my ex at one point and they lived 10 mins away from me at that time. Lmao. I remember my ex in the past telling me that they were sick and I just said, what do you want me to do about it? Go see a doctor.

They were sick and all that mattered in that moment was what kind can I do for them? And I was willing to get them meds for them eventhough they lived half an hour away from me. I don’t own a car so I would have to uber my ass there and back. And I was willing to do it for them.

I’m so tired of making do. I don’t want to make do. I want to thrive.

I don’t know. I don’t know how to tell people that you should care about people around you. I don’t know how to do that.

Also not everything is about you. Like you don’t have kids so good education probably don’t matter to you as you are a single adult. BUT LIKE I SAID, WE LIVE IN A SOCIETY. Good education matters even if it doesn’t personally affect you.

I understand that our govt sucks and paying taxes to them do feel less than ideal. BUT, WE DO HAPPEN TO LIVE IN A SOCIETY. Do you want good healthcare? Do you want the road fixed? Do you want better education? PAY YOUR DAMN TAXES.

Will keep trying didn't really want to take on another social media. I need to be off my phone sometimes

So no, don’t ignore thinking. Think a little. And then see where the road goes.

I’m not big into planning every detail either. But I do believe you must have the important things ironed out and always be ready to review them because life can change and priorities can also change. Be open to change and be flexible.

And this is the same with life. It’s one small thing after the other. And the next thing you know, everything’s different.

I spent my early 20s going through a financial journey, learning about what matters to me financially and what’s the best methods for me. And I learnt that, it is the small expenses that adds up. It is the small expenses cumulatively that will end you.

Life will lead you to places but if you do not know what’s important,you will be wasting your time and energy on many useless things.I get it.Going with the flow means possibilities is endless. But is that a possibility you want? Do you just want to end up with a life that you did not intend to have