uhhh I have a horrible panicked voice telling me he died and I know that's like paranoia but what if he did I'm so stupid :(((( idk
December 20, 2025 at 11:04 AM
uhhh I have a horrible panicked voice telling me he died and I know that's like paranoia but what if he did I'm so stupid :(((( idk
maybe missing you is good. I will give you space. I won't let myself pester you. I won't make it a race.
December 20, 2025 at 4:17 AM
maybe missing you is good. I will give you space. I won't let myself pester you. I won't make it a race.
hasn't messaged me all evening so I'm being really calm and not checking my phone every second. he woke up and messaged me but then went cold in the afternoon and of course I take that incredibly personally. Monsieur I have anxious attachment how are you so chill when you have it too
December 20, 2025 at 2:53 AM
hasn't messaged me all evening so I'm being really calm and not checking my phone every second. he woke up and messaged me but then went cold in the afternoon and of course I take that incredibly personally. Monsieur I have anxious attachment how are you so chill when you have it too
he was drunk or tipsy after a work party and we hung out online alone for a little and then friends joined and he went to "bed" and I have a headache so left soon after too and we were texting for an hour and he flirted and I said I wasn't used to being flirted with so much (I've never called it
December 18, 2025 at 10:44 PM
he was drunk or tipsy after a work party and we hung out online alone for a little and then friends joined and he went to "bed" and I have a headache so left soon after too and we were texting for an hour and he flirted and I said I wasn't used to being flirted with so much (I've never called it
shared a nice thing he said in the GC and b immediately said "you didn't want a long distance relationship?" and I said I didn't even know if it was serious and they said "ok well then good luck" and now I wish I hadn't said anything at all lol. I have spoken about him like once before so it's mot
December 18, 2025 at 5:01 PM
shared a nice thing he said in the GC and b immediately said "you didn't want a long distance relationship?" and I said I didn't even know if it was serious and they said "ok well then good luck" and now I wish I hadn't said anything at all lol. I have spoken about him like once before so it's mot
when we play the shooting game and I clutch I feel so fucking cool like yea let mommy handle this w my prey animal reaction times 💅
December 18, 2025 at 4:52 AM
when we play the shooting game and I clutch I feel so fucking cool like yea let mommy handle this w my prey animal reaction times 💅
like oh my godddd holy moly what if I don't like him in person I know he's not my usual type but 🥀 fuck my life man he's sooooooooo. and you know I don't say that about m*n but he's just!!!!!!!!!
December 18, 2025 at 2:02 AM
like oh my godddd holy moly what if I don't like him in person I know he's not my usual type but 🥀 fuck my life man he's sooooooooo. and you know I don't say that about m*n but he's just!!!!!!!!!
my dopamine,,,, arghhh we played the shooting game and it was so!!!!!! he was in a good mood and so flirty and I now know too much about him but also I'm :) cos he's sooooooo. fun and funny and flirty and I actually laugh so much around him it's not normal for me I never find anyone funny.
December 17, 2025 at 8:50 PM
my dopamine,,,, arghhh we played the shooting game and it was so!!!!!! he was in a good mood and so flirty and I now know too much about him but also I'm :) cos he's sooooooo. fun and funny and flirty and I actually laugh so much around him it's not normal for me I never find anyone funny.
banning myself from listening to my yearning playlist bc I am miserable enough and beginning to get the hint from him lol. just need to keep myself occupied. I have enough I need to do at home.
December 17, 2025 at 3:47 PM
banning myself from listening to my yearning playlist bc I am miserable enough and beginning to get the hint from him lol. just need to keep myself occupied. I have enough I need to do at home.
I think he has actually gone off me lol it might be time to end it 😍 wasn't invited to friends hang yesterday online. I put an attention seeking message then deleted it straight away. they don't owe me to @ me I know. now a is going to b's on Friday night and asked if I wanted to come and I said nty
December 17, 2025 at 3:32 PM
I think he has actually gone off me lol it might be time to end it 😍 wasn't invited to friends hang yesterday online. I put an attention seeking message then deleted it straight away. they don't owe me to @ me I know. now a is going to b's on Friday night and asked if I wanted to come and I said nty
so obsessive I can't help but message him. I wonder if I smother him. I wonder if he realises how deep my feelings go. I wonder if he thinks of the possibility. I wonder if he wonders about us. I wonder if he thinks about our first meeting. I wonder if he looks back at what we've said. I wonder if
December 17, 2025 at 7:37 AM
so obsessive I can't help but message him. I wonder if I smother him. I wonder if he realises how deep my feelings go. I wonder if he thinks of the possibility. I wonder if he wonders about us. I wonder if he thinks about our first meeting. I wonder if he looks back at what we've said. I wonder if
well today did not go great w him. I haven't been feeling good and didn't respond to him as he just wrote two words. our friend streamed and when I came in later I saw he had spoke 20 mins before so probably thought I didn't know he was around and used an alarm so say hello to everyone and hmm..
December 17, 2025 at 12:25 AM
well today did not go great w him. I haven't been feeling good and didn't respond to him as he just wrote two words. our friend streamed and when I came in later I saw he had spoke 20 mins before so probably thought I didn't know he was around and used an alarm so say hello to everyone and hmm..
I am now wondering if I imagined it like maybe it's not that deep and isn't that great and I've just gotten excited about flirting and got too carried away. sure he's sweet sometimes but a lot of it is me wishing he'd respond and he's busy with work or wants to be alone so like... is there really
December 16, 2025 at 9:10 AM
I am now wondering if I imagined it like maybe it's not that deep and isn't that great and I've just gotten excited about flirting and got too carried away. sure he's sweet sometimes but a lot of it is me wishing he'd respond and he's busy with work or wants to be alone so like... is there really
honestly no wonder h ditched me she had to deal w my moaning about guys every single day. I'm just too much for people. it's exhausting and embarrassing. I feel so empty inside. fill me with your life and experience because I have nothing to give but my attention. I wonder if I met him in person
December 16, 2025 at 5:35 AM
honestly no wonder h ditched me she had to deal w my moaning about guys every single day. I'm just too much for people. it's exhausting and embarrassing. I feel so empty inside. fill me with your life and experience because I have nothing to give but my attention. I wonder if I met him in person
woke up obsessed with him AGAIN frick my chungus life with my humongous heart
December 15, 2025 at 3:47 PM
woke up obsessed with him AGAIN frick my chungus life with my humongous heart
I'm so obsessed with him I hate ADHD
December 15, 2025 at 7:16 AM
I'm so obsessed with him I hate ADHD
haven't slept, my stomach and bladder have been bad. my period ended yesterday. can't sleep cos of the pain. and that awful buzzing noise is still there and I have a bad feeling the landlord won't do squat about it. and the blind is stuck again. and the bathroom taps suck. and I still haven't
December 15, 2025 at 7:15 AM
haven't slept, my stomach and bladder have been bad. my period ended yesterday. can't sleep cos of the pain. and that awful buzzing noise is still there and I have a bad feeling the landlord won't do squat about it. and the blind is stuck again. and the bathroom taps suck. and I still haven't
well I will try be nice to myself and say well done for going to b's today it was a new journey and confusing and I pushed myself and made it there problem free. I even put on the seatbelt I was worried about. and it didn't feel that bad going home either. so well done me. and for yesterday. I went
December 15, 2025 at 7:07 AM
well I will try be nice to myself and say well done for going to b's today it was a new journey and confusing and I pushed myself and made it there problem free. I even put on the seatbelt I was worried about. and it didn't feel that bad going home either. so well done me. and for yesterday. I went
I couldn't sleep so only got like 5 hours and I feel exhausted. I have to use public transport for 4 hours today and I'm miserable just thinking about it. We are going to b's as they have been feeling lonely after moving out alone. I know it's selfish but I just wish I could go back to sleep.
December 14, 2025 at 10:30 AM
I couldn't sleep so only got like 5 hours and I feel exhausted. I have to use public transport for 4 hours today and I'm miserable just thinking about it. We are going to b's as they have been feeling lonely after moving out alone. I know it's selfish but I just wish I could go back to sleep.
I thought about him all day. When I was out I thought of his voice and got butterflies. It melts me. I need to know him. I wonder what he thinks of me. Is it just a small crush? Am I just an occasional thought? Does he picture me while listening to love songs? Does he look for my messages in his
December 14, 2025 at 2:11 AM
I thought about him all day. When I was out I thought of his voice and got butterflies. It melts me. I need to know him. I wonder what he thinks of me. Is it just a small crush? Am I just an occasional thought? Does he picture me while listening to love songs? Does he look for my messages in his
I'm reading our messages back multiple times a day. I get excited seeing a notification thinking it's from him. I'm always wondering what he's doing, what he's thinking about. A month. That's all that's passed. There is this horrible weight over my shoulders, trying to pull me back. All I want to do
December 13, 2025 at 4:24 AM
I'm reading our messages back multiple times a day. I get excited seeing a notification thinking it's from him. I'm always wondering what he's doing, what he's thinking about. A month. That's all that's passed. There is this horrible weight over my shoulders, trying to pull me back. All I want to do
I am. I had a nice day with him. We spoke for basically all of it. We played games for like 3 hours. And texted after the game too. and he said he appreciates me and that I always cheer him up and I thanked him and said I really enjoy his company. and then he fell asleep and I just :) I have such
December 13, 2025 at 12:06 AM
I am. I had a nice day with him. We spoke for basically all of it. We played games for like 3 hours. And texted after the game too. and he said he appreciates me and that I always cheer him up and I thanked him and said I really enjoy his company. and then he fell asleep and I just :) I have such
I know I'm infatuated but I feel like I'm falling in love nsudjdmskdjdnd
December 12, 2025 at 3:28 AM
I know I'm infatuated but I feel like I'm falling in love nsudjdmskdjdnd
okay, there is no doubt he likes me too. we were joking around in game, and we said something about his heart and I went to go and he said something like if you leave now then half my heart will be gone. and all I could do was giggle but it was like one of the most romantic things ive had someone
December 12, 2025 at 12:27 AM
okay, there is no doubt he likes me too. we were joking around in game, and we said something about his heart and I went to go and he said something like if you leave now then half my heart will be gone. and all I could do was giggle but it was like one of the most romantic things ive had someone
I said all this and then this morning he was asking lots of questions hhhhhhhh BRO I DON'T GET IT
I'm so confused about him. I know it's just in my head. We have a bit of chemistry, a lot over text and some in voice when it's just us. But then his messages get cold and he gets blunt and I take it *so* personally. and I know it's in my head. but he is flirty with me over voice. less so over text
December 11, 2025 at 3:18 AM
I said all this and then this morning he was asking lots of questions hhhhhhhh BRO I DON'T GET IT