Mimi Starlight
@redpandachris.bsky.social
35m Red Panda babyfur dad. Demisexual, scared, sensitive, want people to stop assuming who i am and just try to get to know me without forcing their assumptions constantly.
"cool I do that all the time with no problem, it's nothing special" and all I hear is "yeah I have someone in my life who does what you fucking do, so I take advantage of them to be a lazy shit and a glutton, so don't expect me to care if you get something without being an asshole"
November 28, 2025 at 3:11 PM
"cool I do that all the time with no problem, it's nothing special" and all I hear is "yeah I have someone in my life who does what you fucking do, so I take advantage of them to be a lazy shit and a glutton, so don't expect me to care if you get something without being an asshole"
so I have to whittle it down to NOTHING over all my free time, and then pass out, I don't get to enjoy being little, or games, or anything, BETWEEN WORKING 45 TO 50 HOURS A WEEK AND CLEANING UP AFTER THEM, and then I finally get a sliver A SLIVER of something I want and it's
November 28, 2025 at 3:11 PM
so I have to whittle it down to NOTHING over all my free time, and then pass out, I don't get to enjoy being little, or games, or anything, BETWEEN WORKING 45 TO 50 HOURS A WEEK AND CLEANING UP AFTER THEM, and then I finally get a sliver A SLIVER of something I want and it's
when I finished it. But this is common fucking place for me, BEING UP UNTIL 2 3 4AM DOING DISHES and waking up to A FULL SINK OF FUCKING DISHES because my roomies can't FUCKING SEE AN EMPTY SPACE LIKE A FUCKING TABLE OR CHAIR OR SINK OR ANYTHING WITHOUT FILLING IT THE FUCK UP TO CAPACITY!
November 28, 2025 at 3:09 PM
when I finished it. But this is common fucking place for me, BEING UP UNTIL 2 3 4AM DOING DISHES and waking up to A FULL SINK OF FUCKING DISHES because my roomies can't FUCKING SEE AN EMPTY SPACE LIKE A FUCKING TABLE OR CHAIR OR SINK OR ANYTHING WITHOUT FILLING IT THE FUCK UP TO CAPACITY!
to the people who take it for granted. Legit, up until 2am cleaning dishes after thanksgiving dinner yesterday, without complaint, because my roomie cooked, so I feel obligated to clean since I partook in his dinner. But I wake up today to THE SINK FUCKING FULL AGAIN when there was NOTHING LEFT
November 28, 2025 at 3:09 PM
to the people who take it for granted. Legit, up until 2am cleaning dishes after thanksgiving dinner yesterday, without complaint, because my roomie cooked, so I feel obligated to clean since I partook in his dinner. But I wake up today to THE SINK FUCKING FULL AGAIN when there was NOTHING LEFT
I present you with a 3 ham omelette.
November 28, 2025 at 2:36 PM
I present you with a 3 ham omelette.
And the few times I have gotten into the little space. And im not fucking lying here. Other LITTLES have AVTIVELY SCOLDED ME FOR IT, then when I block them they throw fits and I get yelled at by people for blocking them.
November 28, 2025 at 2:15 PM
And the few times I have gotten into the little space. And im not fucking lying here. Other LITTLES have AVTIVELY SCOLDED ME FOR IT, then when I block them they throw fits and I get yelled at by people for blocking them.
always, and I mean always "just ask, and I'll help" I ask and get "not now" "I can't" "i am incapable of that" "that's asking too much" and yet they can turn around and ask me the same things I'm starved STARVED for, and expect me to jump at it and encourage it back.
November 28, 2025 at 1:55 PM
always, and I mean always "just ask, and I'll help" I ask and get "not now" "I can't" "i am incapable of that" "that's asking too much" and yet they can turn around and ask me the same things I'm starved STARVED for, and expect me to jump at it and encourage it back.
rejceted all the time. I have trust issues, I can't just break down and be little around just anyone, and the people I trust I've been knwoing for years and years, and frankly, NEVER AM I ALLOWED TO BE LITTLE AND I'M SICK OF IT! i'm just so fucking done with everyone and everything because it's
November 28, 2025 at 1:55 PM
rejceted all the time. I have trust issues, I can't just break down and be little around just anyone, and the people I trust I've been knwoing for years and years, and frankly, NEVER AM I ALLOWED TO BE LITTLE AND I'M SICK OF IT! i'm just so fucking done with everyone and everything because it's
and actually thats the part that fucking hurts more. I see people I trust, who are the ones who I can trust to help with any of this, ignoring me, and pushing me away basically, then turn around and encourage other people. SO I KNOW THEY CAN ENCOURAGE PEOPLE TO DO THE SAME SHIT I WANT! and I'm just
November 28, 2025 at 1:55 PM
and actually thats the part that fucking hurts more. I see people I trust, who are the ones who I can trust to help with any of this, ignoring me, and pushing me away basically, then turn around and encourage other people. SO I KNOW THEY CAN ENCOURAGE PEOPLE TO DO THE SAME SHIT I WANT! and I'm just
I honestly have NO ONE NOT A SINGLE PERSON IN MY LIFE, who does feel like they validate the real me ever.
November 28, 2025 at 1:52 PM
I honestly have NO ONE NOT A SINGLE PERSON IN MY LIFE, who does feel like they validate the real me ever.
and this this is how EVERYONE TREATS ME! I ask for help, I'M NOT AFRAID TO ASK FOR HELP, but the help I need is to relax. I can't relax on my own, BECAUSE I'M ALWAYS FORCED INTO THE RESPONSIBLE OBLIGATION. And people who can fucking break through those mental barriers REFUSE to get I can't.
November 28, 2025 at 1:52 PM
and this this is how EVERYONE TREATS ME! I ask for help, I'M NOT AFRAID TO ASK FOR HELP, but the help I need is to relax. I can't relax on my own, BECAUSE I'M ALWAYS FORCED INTO THE RESPONSIBLE OBLIGATION. And people who can fucking break through those mental barriers REFUSE to get I can't.
away the one thing I love, BAKING, from me, because "you shouldn't have to bake on your birthday" because they see it as A FUCKING CHORE, and then pile on this big social obligation to me THAT I HAVE TO BASICALLY CLEAN UP AFTER THE MESS THEY MAKE, AND DO WHAT THEY WANT TO DO!
November 28, 2025 at 1:52 PM
away the one thing I love, BAKING, from me, because "you shouldn't have to bake on your birthday" because they see it as A FUCKING CHORE, and then pile on this big social obligation to me THAT I HAVE TO BASICALLY CLEAN UP AFTER THE MESS THEY MAKE, AND DO WHAT THEY WANT TO DO!
scary horrible erratic monster who's volatile and can easily beat them up at any time in their mind, BECAUSE when I calmly say no to them, THEIR PLANS TAKE PRIORITY AND THEY NEED TO WEASEL THEIR PLANS IN WHILE NOT DOING ANY WORK FOR THEM! I hate cleaning. They just want to make a mess, take
November 28, 2025 at 1:52 PM
scary horrible erratic monster who's volatile and can easily beat them up at any time in their mind, BECAUSE when I calmly say no to them, THEIR PLANS TAKE PRIORITY AND THEY NEED TO WEASEL THEIR PLANS IN WHILE NOT DOING ANY WORK FOR THEM! I hate cleaning. They just want to make a mess, take
the poly then started telling me what they were going to do, and I kept saying to them "I don't want any of this, I WANT TO HAVE A PIZZA MAKE MY OWN CAKE AND WATCH A MOVIE AND DO NOTHING FUCKING ELSE!" and they go "stop being difficult! we are trying to make YOUR LIFE EASIER!" and now I'm this big
November 28, 2025 at 1:52 PM
the poly then started telling me what they were going to do, and I kept saying to them "I don't want any of this, I WANT TO HAVE A PIZZA MAKE MY OWN CAKE AND WATCH A MOVIE AND DO NOTHING FUCKING ELSE!" and they go "stop being difficult! we are trying to make YOUR LIFE EASIER!" and now I'm this big
Legit, my roomie wanted to this year throw me a birthday party, by inviting their entire poly over on new years(something I DID NOT FUCKING GIVE A SHIT ABOUT) to THROW ME A PARTY WHERE I HAD TO COOK LISTEN TO EVERYONE COMPLAIN ABOUT THE FOOD AND FORCE ME TO HOST! while I was asking for silence
November 28, 2025 at 1:52 PM
Legit, my roomie wanted to this year throw me a birthday party, by inviting their entire poly over on new years(something I DID NOT FUCKING GIVE A SHIT ABOUT) to THROW ME A PARTY WHERE I HAD TO COOK LISTEN TO EVERYONE COMPLAIN ABOUT THE FOOD AND FORCE ME TO HOST! while I was asking for silence
but people don't get that means listening to them, NOT JUST DOING WHAT YOU THINK IS BEST FOR THEM WHEN YOU DON'T! Telling an introvert that their birthday will be a big party with all of these people WHO AREN'T THEIR FUCKING FRIENDS COMING OVER! isn't prioritizing them.
November 28, 2025 at 1:52 PM
but people don't get that means listening to them, NOT JUST DOING WHAT YOU THINK IS BEST FOR THEM WHEN YOU DON'T! Telling an introvert that their birthday will be a big party with all of these people WHO AREN'T THEIR FUCKING FRIENDS COMING OVER! isn't prioritizing them.
"you should be little more" I ask for help, and it's "urg why can't you do this on your own" kinda feeling from them, and distance, and silence. I NEVER feel like I'm EVER the priority once. It's not this narcissism kinda thing, but EVERYONE needs to feel prioritized once in a while.
November 28, 2025 at 1:52 PM
"you should be little more" I ask for help, and it's "urg why can't you do this on your own" kinda feeling from them, and distance, and silence. I NEVER feel like I'm EVER the priority once. It's not this narcissism kinda thing, but EVERYONE needs to feel prioritized once in a while.
ACTIVELY DISCOURAGED by the world. When I get into games, and want to talk about them, and I'M NEVER INTO A GAME, I'm told "that games dumb play this one I love more" and it's something I never got into. and can't, but it's the ONLY FUCKING GAME THAT MATTERS NOT MINE! People say
November 28, 2025 at 1:52 PM
ACTIVELY DISCOURAGED by the world. When I get into games, and want to talk about them, and I'M NEVER INTO A GAME, I'm told "that games dumb play this one I love more" and it's something I never got into. and can't, but it's the ONLY FUCKING GAME THAT MATTERS NOT MINE! People say
This would fix me...
November 28, 2025 at 6:53 AM
This would fix me...
I am now actually curious to see the pipeline of Crash players who grew up to be into Soulslike games. and i wouldn't be surprised.
November 28, 2025 at 6:30 AM
I am now actually curious to see the pipeline of Crash players who grew up to be into Soulslike games. and i wouldn't be surprised.