heathbird
@quixoticpress.bsky.social
queer chronically ill autistic amorphous blob
I never learned how to be funny on the internet
artist afterhours: instagram.com/jaysharps
they/them
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I never learned how to be funny on the internet
artist afterhours: instagram.com/jaysharps
they/them
🇨🇦
I don't think I've been in this much pain in a long time it's like actually kind of impressive. it's more spread of it than the level of it (which is also pretty fucking incredible) that's got me bad today, like EVERY single joint that exists in my body hurts today- and that's not an exaggeration.
February 10, 2026 at 3:18 AM
I don't think I've been in this much pain in a long time it's like actually kind of impressive. it's more spread of it than the level of it (which is also pretty fucking incredible) that's got me bad today, like EVERY single joint that exists in my body hurts today- and that's not an exaggeration.
why do all of the cute little markets and shows only give you like 2 weeks for applications. is it because you're already supposed to be a functional brand/artist and have things ready when you apply? right yes that's probably why. you're not supposed to apply aspirationally.
February 10, 2026 at 12:10 AM
why do all of the cute little markets and shows only give you like 2 weeks for applications. is it because you're already supposed to be a functional brand/artist and have things ready when you apply? right yes that's probably why. you're not supposed to apply aspirationally.
it's crazy bc every part of my body will be screaming in pain and my brain will still be thinking "nah, you can snap out of this and just be normal. you're being a baby. shake it off, you're making a big deal of nothing" as if this all just part of some daydream I'm stuck in.
February 9, 2026 at 9:54 PM
it's crazy bc every part of my body will be screaming in pain and my brain will still be thinking "nah, you can snap out of this and just be normal. you're being a baby. shake it off, you're making a big deal of nothing" as if this all just part of some daydream I'm stuck in.
as someone who happily lives in a small cultural bubble, I just heard an ad on the radio for the new Wuthering Heights movie & it said "featuring new song from Charli XCX!!!!" and my entire soul left my body.
February 8, 2026 at 3:42 PM
as someone who happily lives in a small cultural bubble, I just heard an ad on the radio for the new Wuthering Heights movie & it said "featuring new song from Charli XCX!!!!" and my entire soul left my body.
today I discovered I like licorice allsorts so I guess I am officially 75 years old.
February 8, 2026 at 2:46 AM
today I discovered I like licorice allsorts so I guess I am officially 75 years old.
$7.99 for a shitty basic hallmark card should be illegal. girl what do you mean.
February 8, 2026 at 2:18 AM
$7.99 for a shitty basic hallmark card should be illegal. girl what do you mean.
begging things to be normal for even like 5 minutes just so I can get my bearings. like, is that so much to ask.
February 7, 2026 at 4:13 PM
begging things to be normal for even like 5 minutes just so I can get my bearings. like, is that so much to ask.
I feel yucky & itchy & tingly & migrainey and I'm like oh right doofus. I wonder if this is at all related to your new medication? potentially. that or the usual question of whether it's my body hating me or a god trying to smite me.
February 7, 2026 at 3:08 AM
I feel yucky & itchy & tingly & migrainey and I'm like oh right doofus. I wonder if this is at all related to your new medication? potentially. that or the usual question of whether it's my body hating me or a god trying to smite me.
started trying to make something, broke it bc I have the wrong materials, got pissed off realizing my mum wouldnt wear it anyway bc she's never once worn any of the jewelry I've bought her in the past 20 years so what would make this any different? abandoning ship, gonna fuck around elsewhere.
February 6, 2026 at 10:46 PM
started trying to make something, broke it bc I have the wrong materials, got pissed off realizing my mum wouldnt wear it anyway bc she's never once worn any of the jewelry I've bought her in the past 20 years so what would make this any different? abandoning ship, gonna fuck around elsewhere.
I started my productivity with cannibalising jewelry I bought specially for the rad beads. which really makes you feel like you accomplished a LOT and simultaneously NOTHING at the same time.
February 6, 2026 at 9:08 PM
I started my productivity with cannibalising jewelry I bought specially for the rad beads. which really makes you feel like you accomplished a LOT and simultaneously NOTHING at the same time.
ideas I just had in rapid succession: zine about lives I wish I could live, zine about disability complaints, piece of art about rage, designing a piece of jewelry for my mum's birthday (in 2 days) designing a car plushie for my mum's review mirror, redesigning an old sticker- it goes on.
February 6, 2026 at 7:49 PM
ideas I just had in rapid succession: zine about lives I wish I could live, zine about disability complaints, piece of art about rage, designing a piece of jewelry for my mum's birthday (in 2 days) designing a car plushie for my mum's review mirror, redesigning an old sticker- it goes on.
an older lady in the thrift store told me she thought I just had such a cute style and was so pretty. gonna ride that high for a while.
February 4, 2026 at 7:30 PM
an older lady in the thrift store told me she thought I just had such a cute style and was so pretty. gonna ride that high for a while.
things I miss: when it was affordable to drink in bars just for the ambiance & not even to socialize with strangers. just to not be in the house. you'd chat with your friends/partner sans screens or you could sit at a table alone even and work on your own thing. what a time.
February 4, 2026 at 3:15 AM
things I miss: when it was affordable to drink in bars just for the ambiance & not even to socialize with strangers. just to not be in the house. you'd chat with your friends/partner sans screens or you could sit at a table alone even and work on your own thing. what a time.
gave myself my second injection for the new medication, so I'm like a certified pro now. I actually really don't mind doing stabbing myself, turns out. besides the anxiety of infection, it's pretty convenient only doing this twice a month.
February 4, 2026 at 2:46 AM
gave myself my second injection for the new medication, so I'm like a certified pro now. I actually really don't mind doing stabbing myself, turns out. besides the anxiety of infection, it's pretty convenient only doing this twice a month.
grief is not a straight line, I know that. I just wish I could move forward. it's the same problem over & over with no real solution. I don't like where I am. I wish I could do more than "the best with what you're given". someday I guess.
February 4, 2026 at 1:33 AM
grief is not a straight line, I know that. I just wish I could move forward. it's the same problem over & over with no real solution. I don't like where I am. I wish I could do more than "the best with what you're given". someday I guess.
do you ever just cry in the middle of a value village bc you find an amazing jacket & you're celebrating how good you are at finding cool pieces when suddenly you're struck with immense grief bc the joy you're feeling finding this piece used to actually be your job before your body collapsed.
February 4, 2026 at 12:59 AM
do you ever just cry in the middle of a value village bc you find an amazing jacket & you're celebrating how good you are at finding cool pieces when suddenly you're struck with immense grief bc the joy you're feeling finding this piece used to actually be your job before your body collapsed.
okay so like while it hurts a lot to do things like cleaning, it is SO SATISFYING TO MY SOUL to accomplish a good cleaning session. like mmmm yeah baby, light a cigarette. that's the good shit. look at those clean counters sparkle, YES.
February 3, 2026 at 5:40 PM
okay so like while it hurts a lot to do things like cleaning, it is SO SATISFYING TO MY SOUL to accomplish a good cleaning session. like mmmm yeah baby, light a cigarette. that's the good shit. look at those clean counters sparkle, YES.
so far my body has been very accepting of fibre arts so excuse me while I pivot my entire artistic practice to handheld crafts.
February 2, 2026 at 2:12 AM
so far my body has been very accepting of fibre arts so excuse me while I pivot my entire artistic practice to handheld crafts.
I just made the jankiest friendship bracelet instead of being on the internet all day & I can honestly say, I didn't miss a thing. this is going places. I'm heading in the right direction.
February 1, 2026 at 8:52 PM
I just made the jankiest friendship bracelet instead of being on the internet all day & I can honestly say, I didn't miss a thing. this is going places. I'm heading in the right direction.
pair of cattle dogs in snow jackets PAIR OF CATTLE DOGS IN SNOW JACKETS
January 30, 2026 at 7:51 PM
pair of cattle dogs in snow jackets PAIR OF CATTLE DOGS IN SNOW JACKETS
my current trouble is I have like 300 ideas in my head and only about 2-3 hours of usable energy per day (sometimes more) so it's like chaos trying to wrangle it in and focus on what do actually do?
January 30, 2026 at 4:35 PM
my current trouble is I have like 300 ideas in my head and only about 2-3 hours of usable energy per day (sometimes more) so it's like chaos trying to wrangle it in and focus on what do actually do?
I'm mad at myself for not being more clear with the dr when I'm in his office but by the time I get around to seeing him, drive across the cities, in the office, through all the hoops, I'm in such a different mental state that I forget why I'm even there. I need to write a script.
January 27, 2026 at 8:56 PM
I'm mad at myself for not being more clear with the dr when I'm in his office but by the time I get around to seeing him, drive across the cities, in the office, through all the hoops, I'm in such a different mental state that I forget why I'm even there. I need to write a script.
today? ouchers. adjusting my entire routine, again, due to my father's return? ugh. thoughts about life? wow. bedtime? yes, thank you.
January 27, 2026 at 2:47 AM
today? ouchers. adjusting my entire routine, again, due to my father's return? ugh. thoughts about life? wow. bedtime? yes, thank you.
I feel nauseous every time I look at my phone today but that hasn't stopped me from routinely checking to see if it's still happening, like some kind of lab rat getting zapped in an experiment.
January 27, 2026 at 12:04 AM
I feel nauseous every time I look at my phone today but that hasn't stopped me from routinely checking to see if it's still happening, like some kind of lab rat getting zapped in an experiment.
trying to think of what I did before phones and it was another screen and before that was just a different kind of screen. damn dude. a whole person raised by screens. no wonder my brain is cooked.
January 27, 2026 at 12:02 AM
trying to think of what I did before phones and it was another screen and before that was just a different kind of screen. damn dude. a whole person raised by screens. no wonder my brain is cooked.