Paolo San Juan
paolosj.bsky.social
Paolo San Juan
@paolosj.bsky.social
The eye has to travel
The sky gave me a tinge of nostalgia, the kind that brought me back to my youth. It was a perfect day, I’ve never felt more okay for the longest time.
December 15, 2025 at 2:47 PM
to suddenly take up something I’ve never dared nor dreamt of pursuing is shocking to me, I’m rather enjoying the release boxing gives me. It’s strange how mental anguish can really drive you to do things that are foreign to your being. The rage just dissipates
December 14, 2025 at 2:40 PM
I’m Doing everything for you.
December 14, 2025 at 2:30 PM
Omw to launion for a Xmas party for yoga friends. I didn’t expect that I’d bawl my eyes driving down. I have this feeling of just wanting to get away from everyone actually, just living alone & working.finding peace with myself
December 6, 2025 at 3:37 AM
Bipolar Friends, i discovered ashwaganda and it does wonders. At Least for me i am able to function & process emotions very well. I’m on my 3rd week. Tod.i had so many triggers but I’m responding well, emotions are stable & it never went downhill.
December 1, 2025 at 2:36 AM
Pure love: one of the best reasons to stay.
November 15, 2025 at 1:56 PM
Trauma is physical & emotional abuse by people who thought you’d be safe with. It’s also fear from living in a high strung family dynamics.
November 15, 2025 at 1:45 PM
I’ve always felt “alone”, I learned to be with myself & my problems, not many know that my family life isn’t what it’s cracked up to be. I’m even more comfortable w/close friends, but I’ve learned to accept that u can’t rely on anyone else except yourself.
November 11, 2025 at 12:33 AM
Letting go is 1 of the hardest thing to do, but I’m feeling how rage & sadness have affected my overall health. that feeling when you’re planning this ultimate revenge plot in your heart but u don’t want to do it bec. There is no point? But then I realize how much it has taken away from me.
October 24, 2025 at 1:55 AM
New Moon chronicles: it’s a period where all emotions are all coming out, even the painful ones. I’ve been really depressed for the past 3 days, at last nights sound bath, I cried for an hour while meditating. But, the universe has a way of telling me that it’s just another phase.
October 22, 2025 at 4:31 AM
Alley way in Enoshima island, kamakura. This leads to the sea candle.
October 18, 2025 at 12:01 AM
When I met Fuji in her all her glory after so many years of going to Japan and not being able to really see her. I took it as a good sign
October 17, 2025 at 3:24 PM
I’m going to be okay
October 17, 2025 at 3:19 PM
I’m spent, another round of exhausting emotional rollercoasters for today. Medyo quota na. I hate it when the progress is abruptly taken away.
September 15, 2025 at 1:11 PM
Discernment on when to keep certain family members in or out of our lives, but I do consider a small group of friends/cousins as my family. People you feel safe with no matter what & you know they got you if shit happens. I’ve never felt “safe” at home.
September 15, 2025 at 3:39 AM
It’s a bit strange to see old friends you started out with. After more than a decade, the conversations are mostly about health & coping with life in our mid 30s. I love getting old to a degree, things sort of settle down in some areas.
September 14, 2025 at 1:16 PM
I know I’ll be okay.
September 10, 2025 at 3:24 PM
Who grew up with narcissistic elders? How do you deal/cope with their behaviors?
September 4, 2025 at 12:38 AM
Much needed break from everything.
September 3, 2025 at 5:30 AM
High functioning depression. That’s new to me, I had to return & get my head right. I’m happy however that I don’t need meds. Just plenty of exercise & good company. It’s still a matter of showing up for myself everyday, may I look back at this someday stronger than I ever was.
September 2, 2025 at 1:23 AM
I just want to get out of Baguio and calm down. Even home has become unbearable, they don’t get it.
September 1, 2025 at 12:58 AM
Reconnected w/ an old good friend. Both of us just had to undergo plenty of 💩 & im happy she’s thriving w/ a renewed passion for something else & that we’ve rekindled a new kind of friendship that’s much more mature & uncomplicated.
August 31, 2025 at 11:11 PM
I pray for bookings for the next three days. Pls say a little prayer for me and wish me luck.
August 29, 2025 at 2:43 AM
Today is a bit heavy, it would have been our 8th year. I’m still angry, the rage is exhausting & a bit challenging to process. I don’t ask why anymore, part of me just wants revenge but I’m too tired & they tell me it’s not worth my energy.
August 27, 2025 at 4:23 AM
I supported her business very well
,yet wasn’t even accorded the simple
Act of sharing a link to my business. Oh well, so much for managing my expectations.
August 24, 2025 at 12:18 PM