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Sam
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End genocide everywhere.
disabled. queer. non-binary. Korean transracial adoptee. they/them 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🇰🇷
That review makes me think, “well, now I wanna read it!”
December 15, 2024 at 7:28 PM
*inspo porn

Damn I hate when I accidentally a word.
December 15, 2024 at 7:23 PM
I was told by the agency it was a mistake, but I guess I’m not surprised if that’s a lie too. Sigh.
December 15, 2024 at 7:20 PM
And then people act like we should be grateful they tried to connect us to it at all.

I feel robbed. I feel the loss of my culture and language so deeply it hurts. And trying to connect to it feels at once wonderful and painful.

And that’s where my head is swimming around today.
December 15, 2024 at 7:19 PM
her joy for getting to eat her food again is showing what has been taken from her.

And this is what I keep circling around on recently about how culture is stolen from us. That any attempt to “give it back to us” or “make sure it’s in our lives” is to give us a piece of what was stolen.
December 15, 2024 at 7:19 PM
My parents took me to maybe a handful of Korean cultural events when I was a kid. As much as I loved them, they also gave me a lot of anxiety and stoked my abandonment issues.

And I felt stolen from, because I shouldn’t have to go to cultural events to learn about Korea, it’s my culture.
December 15, 2024 at 7:19 PM
www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8NHJcTv/

If you don’t wanna give them the views: (summary) white’s family takes Deaf Indian adoptee to get Indian food and films her incredibly excited reaction. Everyone in the comments thinks it’s so adorable and heartwarming.
Adoptee excited by cultural food
TikTok video by rosaliefishers
www.tiktok.com
December 15, 2024 at 7:19 PM
I wanna touch those little ices so bad!
December 15, 2024 at 6:47 PM
I found out my parents weren’t divorced when they gave me go (they are now), and my birthday was incorrect. lol
December 15, 2024 at 6:42 PM
Damn. People just told me I was short, but they never gave me career advice bc of it.

I’m Sam. I’m short. Should I have done comedy?
December 15, 2024 at 6:41 PM
YMMV but I got the outcome I feared most and it hasn’t been as bad as I thought. My life hasn’t shaken apart. I wasn’t destroyed.

Not saying you should do it or not, but just saying I get that fear and this was my experience.
December 15, 2024 at 6:34 PM
I did it a couple years ago, and the agency got no response from biomom and a flat out rejection from biodad. He said I didn’t exist, apparently.

I didn’t do it until I felt pretty secure in myself and my other relationships. It hasn’t been as bad as I thought.
December 15, 2024 at 6:34 PM
This is why it took me ages to start the birth search. I had this fear for the longest time. I felt like a second rejection from them would destroy me.

*cw for the next bit: adoptee rejection/abandonment*
December 15, 2024 at 6:34 PM
Ahhhhhh! I’m so excited!
December 6, 2024 at 8:59 PM
*skeet

I’m still not used to BlueSky…
December 3, 2024 at 9:36 PM
They stood up to Yoon. They said no to tyrannical rule. The members of the assembly got together and said no, because they are not going back.

And I feel fucking proud of Koreans and to be Korean.
December 3, 2024 at 9:34 PM
Adoption is full of weird, complicated feelings (it’s all the trauma). So, it took me a long time to feel like I could claim Korea in any way. Now, I’m building my relationship to my heritage bit by bit.

Korea, like every nation, has problems, but today the people of Korea resisted martial law.
December 3, 2024 at 9:34 PM
And that’s why my disabilities are at play in why I couldn’t finish an earlier post.

In that way, this post is kind of perfect. All of my disabilities participated in getting me here.

That is what disability is like to me. It’s ever present, it plays into every part of my life.
December 3, 2024 at 8:19 PM
It’s hard to believe what I have to say even matters or that my experience will actually mean anything to anyone.

It’s hard not to worry about the consequences of a post getting too much traction.

It’s hard not to anticipate a negative reaction.
December 3, 2024 at 8:19 PM