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☀️alt of h-g-unwells, MDNI
☀️some nsfw, some vent, some rambles, something
☀️yippee i love my awesome sugoi life
☀️alt of h-g-unwells, MDNI
☀️some nsfw, some vent, some rambles, something
☀️yippee i love my awesome sugoi life
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ive been thinking about this lately but ok the concept of muses- I think as an artist its kind of insane if your lover, friends, family, anyone you care about, doesnt affect your art in any way, shape, or form. like, they should inspire you? and if they dont what the fuck kind of relationship do
omfg my mom makes looks just like that ☹️
these mfers love talking about God while radiating evil like an unshielded reactor core
December 13, 2025 at 5:07 AM
omfg my mom makes looks just like that ☹️
considering how my upbringing treated sex and sexuality its kind of a fucking miracle that all of the sexual experiences ive ever had were positive and enjoyable. I've enjoyed like 99% of the sex ive ever had and any that i didnt enjoy i was able to communicate it and it ended up being alright
December 12, 2025 at 10:09 PM
considering how my upbringing treated sex and sexuality its kind of a fucking miracle that all of the sexual experiences ive ever had were positive and enjoyable. I've enjoyed like 99% of the sex ive ever had and any that i didnt enjoy i was able to communicate it and it ended up being alright
god ok now im at the part of the grieving stage where im actually feeling grief over my ex roommate also best friend. it was so clear how mentally unwell she was and like i knew that, but i didnt have the tools myself to handle it and i was also quite unwell and its just such a sad situation
December 12, 2025 at 7:30 AM
god ok now im at the part of the grieving stage where im actually feeling grief over my ex roommate also best friend. it was so clear how mentally unwell she was and like i knew that, but i didnt have the tools myself to handle it and i was also quite unwell and its just such a sad situation
it is hard not to want to give up bc i feel like a stumbling child learning how to walk and i feel stupid and dumb for it but thats just the place in life that i am in and thats okay
December 11, 2025 at 4:32 AM
it is hard not to want to give up bc i feel like a stumbling child learning how to walk and i feel stupid and dumb for it but thats just the place in life that i am in and thats okay
isnt it so awesome when you have beautiful lovely women in your life tell you how much they think youre hot and want to have sex with you and want to hold and cuddle and kiss you but all you can feel is terror and a sickness bubbling up in the pit of your stomach
December 7, 2025 at 7:00 PM
isnt it so awesome when you have beautiful lovely women in your life tell you how much they think youre hot and want to have sex with you and want to hold and cuddle and kiss you but all you can feel is terror and a sickness bubbling up in the pit of your stomach
i just desperately crave physical affection and attention and warmth and i love the sounds that i can cause girls to make and i want to be touched but when it happens i get so deeply terrified
December 7, 2025 at 6:50 PM
i just desperately crave physical affection and attention and warmth and i love the sounds that i can cause girls to make and i want to be touched but when it happens i get so deeply terrified
anothah thing: not only do my ssris kill my drive and i cant really just switch them or decrease them bc im using them for OCD meaning i need a high dose, but also i am reencountering religious bullshit with sex again and its making me weird with physical intimacy
December 7, 2025 at 6:25 PM
anothah thing: not only do my ssris kill my drive and i cant really just switch them or decrease them bc im using them for OCD meaning i need a high dose, but also i am reencountering religious bullshit with sex again and its making me weird with physical intimacy
brainworm day brainworm day 🥳🥳🥳😁😁😁😁😁
December 7, 2025 at 5:08 PM
brainworm day brainworm day 🥳🥳🥳😁😁😁😁😁
i usually stay out of discourse especially when its not my domain but i realized after the fact i accidentally contributed to it and now its definitely not gonna be taken the way i specifically intended it ugh
December 6, 2025 at 4:33 AM
i usually stay out of discourse especially when its not my domain but i realized after the fact i accidentally contributed to it and now its definitely not gonna be taken the way i specifically intended it ugh
my soul is more alive and clear than ever but my body and my mind are fragmented and torn apart. the dissonance is agony
constantly fighting off deep rooted fears that i don't believe but they're nasty and unpleasant. I'm basically having to do it at all times I'm awake and the only respite is sleep. its exhausting and im in survival mode and it's frustrating because i want to live but i only have so many spoons
December 6, 2025 at 12:35 AM
my soul is more alive and clear than ever but my body and my mind are fragmented and torn apart. the dissonance is agony
constantly fighting off deep rooted fears that i don't believe but they're nasty and unpleasant. I'm basically having to do it at all times I'm awake and the only respite is sleep. its exhausting and im in survival mode and it's frustrating because i want to live but i only have so many spoons
December 6, 2025 at 12:16 AM
constantly fighting off deep rooted fears that i don't believe but they're nasty and unpleasant. I'm basically having to do it at all times I'm awake and the only respite is sleep. its exhausting and im in survival mode and it's frustrating because i want to live but i only have so many spoons
tired of cis peoples shit today
December 5, 2025 at 10:25 PM
tired of cis peoples shit today
oh my god my internal monologue is back. this is Big
December 2, 2025 at 8:01 AM
oh my god my internal monologue is back. this is Big
i would absolutely love to be a person that cuddles and is touchy feely and shit with friends and people unfortunately when it is attempted my entire body screams in fear and anger and i would rather chew off my arm
November 29, 2025 at 9:57 PM
i would absolutely love to be a person that cuddles and is touchy feely and shit with friends and people unfortunately when it is attempted my entire body screams in fear and anger and i would rather chew off my arm
ive GOT to love and appreciate myself more. and get my head outta my own ass
November 28, 2025 at 5:43 PM
ive GOT to love and appreciate myself more. and get my head outta my own ass
I JUST WANNA CUM AGAIN !!!! RAAAAAAAA
November 25, 2025 at 6:22 AM
I JUST WANNA CUM AGAIN !!!! RAAAAAAAA
ssris go crazy when u actually wanna get off like damn at this point im just gooning because im so close but im so close but im so close but im
November 25, 2025 at 6:19 AM
ssris go crazy when u actually wanna get off like damn at this point im just gooning because im so close but im so close but im so close but im
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The Iconoclasm
November 21, 2025 at 3:17 PM
The Iconoclasm
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one favorite of mine (and a sort of self-portrait)
November 23, 2025 at 10:24 PM
one favorite of mine (and a sort of self-portrait)
the more i am myself the more i remember oh holy shit i am just a Cat thing
November 24, 2025 at 3:46 AM
the more i am myself the more i remember oh holy shit i am just a Cat thing
yeahhh im trying not to beat myself up over it but i have always had a weird relationship with physical affection and its affected me way more than i thought
November 24, 2025 at 2:19 AM
yeahhh im trying not to beat myself up over it but i have always had a weird relationship with physical affection and its affected me way more than i thought
it is very beautiful to me to worry at first about being too lonely and not having enough people around, but when i think to invite people i care about to an event, i can think of at least 20 people. what a lovely thing to have 20 people in your life that care about you
November 18, 2025 at 12:25 AM
it is very beautiful to me to worry at first about being too lonely and not having enough people around, but when i think to invite people i care about to an event, i can think of at least 20 people. what a lovely thing to have 20 people in your life that care about you
im proud of myself for how far ive already come along. i have so much more I want to grow into and it does feel discouraging how long and how much work its going to take but i just have to keep going
November 17, 2025 at 10:09 PM
im proud of myself for how far ive already come along. i have so much more I want to grow into and it does feel discouraging how long and how much work its going to take but i just have to keep going
yeah ok like i love how sertraline helps me be normal but its absolutely destroying my libido and im very frustrated with it rn
November 17, 2025 at 2:09 AM
yeah ok like i love how sertraline helps me be normal but its absolutely destroying my libido and im very frustrated with it rn