🔞 Vixy Moore
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Mental health reached a new low today since surgery. I've come to a point where if I could go back in time I'd probably take the risk of cancer rather than have the LLETZ again. I'm just so tired.
November 8, 2025 at 9:57 AM
Mental health reached a new low today since surgery. I've come to a point where if I could go back in time I'd probably take the risk of cancer rather than have the LLETZ again. I'm just so tired.
10 days after LLETZ. I feel awful and like I stink so bad tho partner said he doesn't find it offensive. I have the 'mild abdominal pain' I was told to expect and have been taking painkillers for it. Can't imagine going to work and managing this, though. It sucks and I'm scared to move normally.
November 7, 2025 at 5:42 PM
10 days after LLETZ. I feel awful and like I stink so bad tho partner said he doesn't find it offensive. I have the 'mild abdominal pain' I was told to expect and have been taking painkillers for it. Can't imagine going to work and managing this, though. It sucks and I'm scared to move normally.
Oh man, I've been so focused on the pain in my tummy area I keep forgetting the sore throat from the breathing tube is more annoying until I swallow. I do appreciate that I didn't suffocate during the operation, of course, but oww.
October 29, 2025 at 6:49 PM
Oh man, I've been so focused on the pain in my tummy area I keep forgetting the sore throat from the breathing tube is more annoying until I swallow. I do appreciate that I didn't suffocate during the operation, of course, but oww.
It's the next morning after LLETZ procedure, not quite 24 hours later. Some stabby pains in tummy region and another hour before I can take more anti-inflammatory. Sore back, like during my period. I'm still scared the pain will get worse or persist but I have 4 types of painkillers to fall back on!
October 29, 2025 at 6:32 PM
It's the next morning after LLETZ procedure, not quite 24 hours later. Some stabby pains in tummy region and another hour before I can take more anti-inflammatory. Sore back, like during my period. I'm still scared the pain will get worse or persist but I have 4 types of painkillers to fall back on!
Oh btw: Happy Halloween in advance to those that care about such things!
It's only a couple of days away so wanted to say it now since I don't know how I'll be feeling on the day.
It's only a couple of days away so wanted to say it now since I don't know how I'll be feeling on the day.
October 28, 2025 at 3:10 PM
Oh btw: Happy Halloween in advance to those that care about such things!
It's only a couple of days away so wanted to say it now since I don't know how I'll be feeling on the day.
It's only a couple of days away so wanted to say it now since I don't know how I'll be feeling on the day.
Well, surgery day is here. Had luck and well wishes sent to me from a few people I wasn't expecting to hear from, which has been reassuring as there are some I thought of as good friends who I haven't heard from at all for days/weeks. Makes me wonder if they forgot me or if I just wasn't worth it.
October 28, 2025 at 2:58 PM
Well, surgery day is here. Had luck and well wishes sent to me from a few people I wasn't expecting to hear from, which has been reassuring as there are some I thought of as good friends who I haven't heard from at all for days/weeks. Makes me wonder if they forgot me or if I just wasn't worth it.
My LEEP/LLETZ surgery under general anaesthesia is getting closer. In 2 weeks' time I will either be recovering fine on some painkillers as hoped, or in excruciating, immobilising pain as feared. Impossible to know.
If I'm still in pain by Christmas, plan B is demanding a hysterectomy.
If I'm still in pain by Christmas, plan B is demanding a hysterectomy.
October 19, 2025 at 10:13 PM
My LEEP/LLETZ surgery under general anaesthesia is getting closer. In 2 weeks' time I will either be recovering fine on some painkillers as hoped, or in excruciating, immobilising pain as feared. Impossible to know.
If I'm still in pain by Christmas, plan B is demanding a hysterectomy.
If I'm still in pain by Christmas, plan B is demanding a hysterectomy.
I've been very tired lately. After work yesterday I ate, slept, woke up for meds and snack, then slept again. I have woken up tired and must now ready for another full workday. I'm sad I had no time to game with my partner or talk to online friends. Feels like my fault I can't keep up with life.
September 30, 2025 at 6:01 PM
I've been very tired lately. After work yesterday I ate, slept, woke up for meds and snack, then slept again. I have woken up tired and must now ready for another full workday. I'm sad I had no time to game with my partner or talk to online friends. Feels like my fault I can't keep up with life.
I have a surgery date booked to remove precancer cells from my cervix. Talking to the anaesthetist next week and going under before the end of October. Normally a 20-min outpatient procedure but just my biopsy caused a month of extreme pain and they're taking more now! Main thing is getting it done.
September 30, 2025 at 5:52 PM
I have a surgery date booked to remove precancer cells from my cervix. Talking to the anaesthetist next week and going under before the end of October. Normally a 20-min outpatient procedure but just my biopsy caused a month of extreme pain and they're taking more now! Main thing is getting it done.
Is it usually this easy to fall off the face of the earth? No matter how competent and confident I feel as a person, I still end up questioning my significance in the end. Despair seeps into the gaps left behind by lost connections.
September 24, 2025 at 2:34 PM
Is it usually this easy to fall off the face of the earth? No matter how competent and confident I feel as a person, I still end up questioning my significance in the end. Despair seeps into the gaps left behind by lost connections.
My mood has been elevated since my birthday the other week. This always scares me. I have to keep checking if I'm delusional.
This realisation has already come too late for the scraps of my emergency savings, I spent it all on the idea I must eat expensive healthy foods or I'll get cancer.
This realisation has already come too late for the scraps of my emergency savings, I spent it all on the idea I must eat expensive healthy foods or I'll get cancer.
September 23, 2025 at 4:58 PM
My mood has been elevated since my birthday the other week. This always scares me. I have to keep checking if I'm delusional.
This realisation has already come too late for the scraps of my emergency savings, I spent it all on the idea I must eat expensive healthy foods or I'll get cancer.
This realisation has already come too late for the scraps of my emergency savings, I spent it all on the idea I must eat expensive healthy foods or I'll get cancer.
I can't find a single memory of being with my mother where I felt loved or cared for. Every memory with her is tainted by a feeling of dread, or fear of her hidden motives. My earliest memories of spending time with my dad were full of good times, treats, hugs, and joy, until she killed that too.
September 21, 2025 at 9:40 PM
I can't find a single memory of being with my mother where I felt loved or cared for. Every memory with her is tainted by a feeling of dread, or fear of her hidden motives. My earliest memories of spending time with my dad were full of good times, treats, hugs, and joy, until she killed that too.
For my birthday last weekend I bought a journal to write in, to go with the self-care journal my case worker gave me. Didn't realise how much I'd missed really writing, physically holding a pen and moving it to get my thoughts out.
September 20, 2025 at 6:58 PM
For my birthday last weekend I bought a journal to write in, to go with the self-care journal my case worker gave me. Didn't realise how much I'd missed really writing, physically holding a pen and moving it to get my thoughts out.
Looks like I won't be able to afford even a cheap piece of art of Brandy for Halloween this year but I must sacrifice personal traditions in favour of survival, and maybe a long overdue PC tech upgrade. We'll see.
August 19, 2025 at 6:29 PM
Looks like I won't be able to afford even a cheap piece of art of Brandy for Halloween this year but I must sacrifice personal traditions in favour of survival, and maybe a long overdue PC tech upgrade. We'll see.
I just checked my calendar. Every day I'm either working or having to spend at least an hour on an appointment with others for the betterment of my health. I'm a full time job into myself and I don't get weekends. Gotta have a word with the boss...
August 17, 2025 at 8:41 PM
I just checked my calendar. Every day I'm either working or having to spend at least an hour on an appointment with others for the betterment of my health. I'm a full time job into myself and I don't get weekends. Gotta have a word with the boss...
Cooking is a mindfulness activity for me and it has an almost immediate, tangible, tasty reward for good work at the end of it!
Pic is of a potato bake covered with cheese with homemade mushroom gravy flavoured with bacon & onion soup and chicken stock.
Pic is of a potato bake covered with cheese with homemade mushroom gravy flavoured with bacon & onion soup and chicken stock.
August 17, 2025 at 8:15 PM
Cooking is a mindfulness activity for me and it has an almost immediate, tangible, tasty reward for good work at the end of it!
Pic is of a potato bake covered with cheese with homemade mushroom gravy flavoured with bacon & onion soup and chicken stock.
Pic is of a potato bake covered with cheese with homemade mushroom gravy flavoured with bacon & onion soup and chicken stock.
We have way too many doughnuts and brownies croissants (khwossoh) and cookies, and too much biltong in the house right now. So much for cutting back on sugar, and RiP my gut flora which still hasn't recovered after the last round of antibiotics.
August 16, 2025 at 8:09 PM
We have way too many doughnuts and brownies croissants (khwossoh) and cookies, and too much biltong in the house right now. So much for cutting back on sugar, and RiP my gut flora which still hasn't recovered after the last round of antibiotics.
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Hi i'm a NB/Queer artist from NZ with Chronic pain.
Originally did trad pencil art for nearly 20 years, now dabbling in Digital. My fave thing to draw is Creatures/hybrids, Horses, MLP, Dinos, and my headworld stuff!
Originally did trad pencil art for nearly 20 years, now dabbling in Digital. My fave thing to draw is Creatures/hybrids, Horses, MLP, Dinos, and my headworld stuff!
September 11, 2023 at 1:55 AM
Hi i'm a NB/Queer artist from NZ with Chronic pain.
Originally did trad pencil art for nearly 20 years, now dabbling in Digital. My fave thing to draw is Creatures/hybrids, Horses, MLP, Dinos, and my headworld stuff!
Originally did trad pencil art for nearly 20 years, now dabbling in Digital. My fave thing to draw is Creatures/hybrids, Horses, MLP, Dinos, and my headworld stuff!
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Hirses,mlp,bigcats,chimera!
#commissions #furry #lionking #MLPsky #ocArt
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Prices start at $35usd
Hirses,mlp,bigcats,chimera!
#commissions #furry #lionking #MLPsky #ocArt
May 5, 2025 at 9:28 PM
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Commissions are still open
💙💙💙
Prices start at $35usd
Hirses,mlp,bigcats,chimera!
#commissions #furry #lionking #MLPsky #ocArt
Commissions are still open
💙💙💙
Prices start at $35usd
Hirses,mlp,bigcats,chimera!
#commissions #furry #lionking #MLPsky #ocArt
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Pegagoat.
Another digital charcoal, a sort of companion piece for the unidonk. I think I might have gone a bit overboard with this one, trying to channel some Nika Goltz with the background.
Prints: www.inprnt.com/artist/print...
Another digital charcoal, a sort of companion piece for the unidonk. I think I might have gone a bit overboard with this one, trying to channel some Nika Goltz with the background.
Prints: www.inprnt.com/artist/print...
August 2, 2025 at 7:55 PM
Pegagoat.
Another digital charcoal, a sort of companion piece for the unidonk. I think I might have gone a bit overboard with this one, trying to channel some Nika Goltz with the background.
Prints: www.inprnt.com/artist/print...
Another digital charcoal, a sort of companion piece for the unidonk. I think I might have gone a bit overboard with this one, trying to channel some Nika Goltz with the background.
Prints: www.inprnt.com/artist/print...
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I didn't think I was asking for much but if I literally say "it's not at all *like this*," and the response I get is, "I don't know why you need it to be *like this* so badly, nobody else does," then I can only assume I'm not actually being listened to and I won't feel safe saying any more.
August 3, 2025 at 6:31 PM
I didn't think I was asking for much but if I literally say "it's not at all *like this*," and the response I get is, "I don't know why you need it to be *like this* so badly, nobody else does," then I can only assume I'm not actually being listened to and I won't feel safe saying any more.
I love you, my guy friends, but sometimes I just want a woman I can trust to talk to about experiences relevant to being a woman, such as period pain or what it's like to have a cervix, womb, and ovaries. I already know lots of great guys but I'm still severely lacking in female friends I can trust.
August 2, 2025 at 5:43 PM
I love you, my guy friends, but sometimes I just want a woman I can trust to talk to about experiences relevant to being a woman, such as period pain or what it's like to have a cervix, womb, and ovaries. I already know lots of great guys but I'm still severely lacking in female friends I can trust.
Ohh yeah, update on this.... I finally had my appointment and got zapped. Result? Apparently my nerves are "robustly normal."
I also asked the neurologist if he'd ever heard of First Bite Syndrome and he hadn't and didn't seem interested in validating my concerns so no progress there either.
I also asked the neurologist if he'd ever heard of First Bite Syndrome and he hadn't and didn't seem interested in validating my concerns so no progress there either.
A wait of 4-5 months is about what I expected, honestly. If it means I'm on the right path to getting more answers then I'm okay with this. I've had nerve oddities and complaints for more than 20 years now so 4 months is soon enough.
July 30, 2025 at 6:04 PM
Ohh yeah, update on this.... I finally had my appointment and got zapped. Result? Apparently my nerves are "robustly normal."
I also asked the neurologist if he'd ever heard of First Bite Syndrome and he hadn't and didn't seem interested in validating my concerns so no progress there either.
I also asked the neurologist if he'd ever heard of First Bite Syndrome and he hadn't and didn't seem interested in validating my concerns so no progress there either.