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lotsa who-cares news but I think I've decided that that's my favorite kind :3 wanna start doing things just for the hell of it again without everything needing some end goal. like putting beat saber replays on youtube, them shits get like 3 views but I do it bc I like them. gonna try more of that

i guess to summarize, I wanna make some new years resolutions early
- slow it the FUCK down and stop giving a shit (in the fun way, the apathy needs to gtfo)
- live my life, right now, in the moment, for me and the things I'm interested in

and I'll be damned if I don't see it through, let alone to a standard of quality that I'm actually proud of.

In that regard, my 3D printer is *actually* almost done now. waiting on my dad's work to cut the side panels, and then after that, it's 99% wiring and setup, and then the real fun begins :3

-as it is just objectively whimsical, like there's no disputing that. I think the "learning 3 different art forms all at once that I have zero experience with" part of it is also bringing some spark back. This will legit be the most ambitious project I've ever committed to in my entire life

I've also just realized how my whimsy has gradually sorta devolved into apathy again, and it's pissing me the fuck off. I'm thinking that properly getting to work on my fursuit once my 3D printer's built will help with that-

where did this come from? employment through my university, of all places. Not because I don't like it (I think it's neat when it's isolated) but it showed me just how miserable it actually is trying to shoehorn monetization into my hobbies. It's probably part of the reason I got so burned out

and related to that, I'm decommissioning my alt and going back to one account, just posting whatever the hell I feel like on here and not giving a shit about following or whatever. (will be moving that handle over to this one and probably letting my .art domain go after 2026)

I'll probably open comms casually still. if anyone wants art, feel free to message me and I'll give a quote, but I've decided I like doing art more when there's a personal meaning beyond just getting paid for it, even if I suck at coming up with ideas. engagement/analytics bs probably didn't help

anyway ... I've decided some things
For starters, I've realized how little I care about maintaining a social media presence, and advertising or trying to "grow" my art or anything, it was exhausting and I've been much happier not doing that (for now, at least)

congrats dude!

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(other than accidentally touching the 200+°C metal a couple of times)

(ignore my shaky ass hand they just do that) :p