Helen 🖤
@helenblack.bsky.social
Hel on earth.
45. Scarborough. UK. Photographer/Shelf Stacker.
This is more like a journal. I’m not funny/smart enough to do discourse.
45. Scarborough. UK. Photographer/Shelf Stacker.
This is more like a journal. I’m not funny/smart enough to do discourse.
I don’t have to look like a cis woman. That’s not even an option for me.
I can’t do wigs. It just doesn’t feel right.
Drinking tinnies and trying to let the confidence sink in.
I’m transitioning to be the best version of me I can be.
I’ll be a joke to a lot of people but
I can’t do wigs. It just doesn’t feel right.
Drinking tinnies and trying to let the confidence sink in.
I’m transitioning to be the best version of me I can be.
I’ll be a joke to a lot of people but
February 9, 2026 at 11:35 PM
I don’t have to look like a cis woman. That’s not even an option for me.
I can’t do wigs. It just doesn’t feel right.
Drinking tinnies and trying to let the confidence sink in.
I’m transitioning to be the best version of me I can be.
I’ll be a joke to a lot of people but
I can’t do wigs. It just doesn’t feel right.
Drinking tinnies and trying to let the confidence sink in.
I’m transitioning to be the best version of me I can be.
I’ll be a joke to a lot of people but
Soooo… I’m starting to accept that my 14 month long project to regrow my hair is a failure.
Lots of tears tonight. Tomorrow, the hair clippers come out.
Time to start experimenting with wigs. Going to start short and cheap. Try to figure out what suits me before I drop any serious cash.
Lots of tears tonight. Tomorrow, the hair clippers come out.
Time to start experimenting with wigs. Going to start short and cheap. Try to figure out what suits me before I drop any serious cash.
February 3, 2026 at 10:49 PM
Soooo… I’m starting to accept that my 14 month long project to regrow my hair is a failure.
Lots of tears tonight. Tomorrow, the hair clippers come out.
Time to start experimenting with wigs. Going to start short and cheap. Try to figure out what suits me before I drop any serious cash.
Lots of tears tonight. Tomorrow, the hair clippers come out.
Time to start experimenting with wigs. Going to start short and cheap. Try to figure out what suits me before I drop any serious cash.
We’re back on the road!
13 years old but top spec, decent mileage, and without a scratch.
Kinda in love with it.
13 years old but top spec, decent mileage, and without a scratch.
Kinda in love with it.
January 25, 2026 at 12:58 PM
We’re back on the road!
13 years old but top spec, decent mileage, and without a scratch.
Kinda in love with it.
13 years old but top spec, decent mileage, and without a scratch.
Kinda in love with it.
Made one of my Christmas pressies. My first Gundam kit.
I love his slutty little heels. 👠
I love his slutty little heels. 👠
January 20, 2026 at 8:05 PM
Made one of my Christmas pressies. My first Gundam kit.
I love his slutty little heels. 👠
I love his slutty little heels. 👠
Came out to my manager today and it turns out she’s a fierce ally. I’m at least the third trans person she’s hired recently.
She’s made sure the line managers are in line and said to tell her if there is the slightest whiff of bullshit.
Got my new name badge.
So yeah. Shop at Sainsbury’s 👍
She’s made sure the line managers are in line and said to tell her if there is the slightest whiff of bullshit.
Got my new name badge.
So yeah. Shop at Sainsbury’s 👍
January 18, 2026 at 8:44 PM
Came out to my manager today and it turns out she’s a fierce ally. I’m at least the third trans person she’s hired recently.
She’s made sure the line managers are in line and said to tell her if there is the slightest whiff of bullshit.
Got my new name badge.
So yeah. Shop at Sainsbury’s 👍
She’s made sure the line managers are in line and said to tell her if there is the slightest whiff of bullshit.
Got my new name badge.
So yeah. Shop at Sainsbury’s 👍
The wife.
The other half of the equation. The colourful one who brings balance to the farce.
The other half of the equation. The colourful one who brings balance to the farce.
When I was 17, I went on an art trip to London and saw work by Gilbert & George. It stuck in my brain. Years later, when I called us Emma + Rich, that’s exactly where the name came from. I always wanted us to be a ‘one’. I saw this Gilbert & George necklace at Tatty Devine, I had to have it.
January 17, 2026 at 9:29 AM
The wife.
The other half of the equation. The colourful one who brings balance to the farce.
The other half of the equation. The colourful one who brings balance to the farce.
Oh yeah.
Oh yeah, baby.
The anxiety I used to feel around going out to eat alone seems to have vanished.
I felt out of place no matter where I was. Nowadays just doing simple, enjoyable things for myself feels fulfilling and relaxing.
Actually starting to live. 🖤
Oh yeah, baby.
The anxiety I used to feel around going out to eat alone seems to have vanished.
I felt out of place no matter where I was. Nowadays just doing simple, enjoyable things for myself feels fulfilling and relaxing.
Actually starting to live. 🖤
January 13, 2026 at 2:18 PM
Oh yeah.
Oh yeah, baby.
The anxiety I used to feel around going out to eat alone seems to have vanished.
I felt out of place no matter where I was. Nowadays just doing simple, enjoyable things for myself feels fulfilling and relaxing.
Actually starting to live. 🖤
Oh yeah, baby.
The anxiety I used to feel around going out to eat alone seems to have vanished.
I felt out of place no matter where I was. Nowadays just doing simple, enjoyable things for myself feels fulfilling and relaxing.
Actually starting to live. 🖤
Got ma tickets booked.
Need some more loud and noisy in my life.
Need some more loud and noisy in my life.
Faintest Idea + Active Minds + Pivnica + Jenkem Revolt - 27th March 2026
Ticket for "A Night Out By The Seaside II" - 4 band gig at The Corporation Club, Scarborough on Friday 27th March 2026
loonytunesrecords.bigcartel.com
January 12, 2026 at 8:27 PM
Got ma tickets booked.
Need some more loud and noisy in my life.
Need some more loud and noisy in my life.
If we keep pointing out their hypocrisy maybe they’ll get embarrassed and stop doing a fascism.
Any minute now
Any minute now
January 11, 2026 at 7:20 PM
If we keep pointing out their hypocrisy maybe they’ll get embarrassed and stop doing a fascism.
Any minute now
Any minute now
Sparkly blue nails and a backup vial acquired.
A pretty successful day and yet somehow I’ve caught the mega sads.
Ordered a shitty pizza as medicine. 😋
A pretty successful day and yet somehow I’ve caught the mega sads.
Ordered a shitty pizza as medicine. 😋
January 8, 2026 at 7:15 PM
Sparkly blue nails and a backup vial acquired.
A pretty successful day and yet somehow I’ve caught the mega sads.
Ordered a shitty pizza as medicine. 😋
A pretty successful day and yet somehow I’ve caught the mega sads.
Ordered a shitty pizza as medicine. 😋
Thick snow.
-6c.
Schools and businesses closed.
Seems like the perfect day to drive around town shooting a wedding.
Let’s goooo!
-6c.
Schools and businesses closed.
Seems like the perfect day to drive around town shooting a wedding.
Let’s goooo!
January 6, 2026 at 10:04 AM
Thick snow.
-6c.
Schools and businesses closed.
Seems like the perfect day to drive around town shooting a wedding.
Let’s goooo!
-6c.
Schools and businesses closed.
Seems like the perfect day to drive around town shooting a wedding.
Let’s goooo!
Need to EAT.
Keep losing weight.
Forget I’m going through another puberty.
Craving so much food but I keep it under control through habit but I actually need to EAT.
MUST CONSUME.
I’m in the chippy. 😁
Keep losing weight.
Forget I’m going through another puberty.
Craving so much food but I keep it under control through habit but I actually need to EAT.
MUST CONSUME.
I’m in the chippy. 😁
January 5, 2026 at 6:09 PM
Need to EAT.
Keep losing weight.
Forget I’m going through another puberty.
Craving so much food but I keep it under control through habit but I actually need to EAT.
MUST CONSUME.
I’m in the chippy. 😁
Keep losing weight.
Forget I’m going through another puberty.
Craving so much food but I keep it under control through habit but I actually need to EAT.
MUST CONSUME.
I’m in the chippy. 😁
Snow day!!
Got some beers in. Might treat myself to a new video game and get the fire going and the fairy lights on.
Cosy and content 😌
Got some beers in. Might treat myself to a new video game and get the fire going and the fairy lights on.
Cosy and content 😌
January 3, 2026 at 1:09 PM
Snow day!!
Got some beers in. Might treat myself to a new video game and get the fire going and the fairy lights on.
Cosy and content 😌
Got some beers in. Might treat myself to a new video game and get the fire going and the fairy lights on.
Cosy and content 😌
This is least “New Yearsy” I think I’ve ever felt.
Early transition feels a lot like a series of resolutions that I’m actually keeping.
A self improvement program where I know that if I stop, there’s a very high chance I’ll end up dead. So I keep with the program.
New Years feel redundant. 😆
Early transition feels a lot like a series of resolutions that I’m actually keeping.
A self improvement program where I know that if I stop, there’s a very high chance I’ll end up dead. So I keep with the program.
New Years feel redundant. 😆
December 31, 2025 at 8:25 PM
This is least “New Yearsy” I think I’ve ever felt.
Early transition feels a lot like a series of resolutions that I’m actually keeping.
A self improvement program where I know that if I stop, there’s a very high chance I’ll end up dead. So I keep with the program.
New Years feel redundant. 😆
Early transition feels a lot like a series of resolutions that I’m actually keeping.
A self improvement program where I know that if I stop, there’s a very high chance I’ll end up dead. So I keep with the program.
New Years feel redundant. 😆
My body is craving salads and water but I’m giving it chocolate and wine.
It will learn to love Christmas or perish in the education.
It will learn to love Christmas or perish in the education.
December 30, 2025 at 6:49 PM
My body is craving salads and water but I’m giving it chocolate and wine.
It will learn to love Christmas or perish in the education.
It will learn to love Christmas or perish in the education.
I have finally figured out how to do crypto in 2025 UK.
I shall continue to trans despite the best efforts of the overlords.
MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
I shall continue to trans despite the best efforts of the overlords.
MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
December 30, 2025 at 3:38 PM
I have finally figured out how to do crypto in 2025 UK.
I shall continue to trans despite the best efforts of the overlords.
MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
I shall continue to trans despite the best efforts of the overlords.
MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Watching Gremlins again and damn, that kitchen scene is great. Billy’s Mum is an absolute savage.
Sarah Conner. Ellen Ripley. Lynn Peltzer.
Sarah Conner. Ellen Ripley. Lynn Peltzer.
December 20, 2025 at 10:07 PM
Watching Gremlins again and damn, that kitchen scene is great. Billy’s Mum is an absolute savage.
Sarah Conner. Ellen Ripley. Lynn Peltzer.
Sarah Conner. Ellen Ripley. Lynn Peltzer.
So fricken crypto has become bloody impossible to buy in the UK now.
Spent most of my day off wrestling with vpns and exchanges and verification services.
Have to sit patiently now to see if I’ve just flushed £70 down the drain or if I can actually pay for another vial.
Spent most of my day off wrestling with vpns and exchanges and verification services.
Have to sit patiently now to see if I’ve just flushed £70 down the drain or if I can actually pay for another vial.
December 18, 2025 at 3:06 PM
So fricken crypto has become bloody impossible to buy in the UK now.
Spent most of my day off wrestling with vpns and exchanges and verification services.
Have to sit patiently now to see if I’ve just flushed £70 down the drain or if I can actually pay for another vial.
Spent most of my day off wrestling with vpns and exchanges and verification services.
Have to sit patiently now to see if I’ve just flushed £70 down the drain or if I can actually pay for another vial.
“Ere, mate. How are you built like that?” Says one of the teenage boys that came up to me as I’m stood outside my wife’s work, waiting to walk her home.
“Like what?” I confidently reply. They walk off laughing amongst themselves.
1/2
“Like what?” I confidently reply. They walk off laughing amongst themselves.
1/2
December 9, 2025 at 7:39 PM
“Ere, mate. How are you built like that?” Says one of the teenage boys that came up to me as I’m stood outside my wife’s work, waiting to walk her home.
“Like what?” I confidently reply. They walk off laughing amongst themselves.
1/2
“Like what?” I confidently reply. They walk off laughing amongst themselves.
1/2
Reposted by Helen 🖤
Running this tomorrow if anyone fancies chucking a last few quid at a good cause. It's 23 degrees Celsius with no cloud cover so please consider donating before I disintegrate into a pile of dust at the 20 mile mark 🙏
December 6, 2025 at 3:38 PM
Running this tomorrow if anyone fancies chucking a last few quid at a good cause. It's 23 degrees Celsius with no cloud cover so please consider donating before I disintegrate into a pile of dust at the 20 mile mark 🙏
Last wedding of the year and I’m chilling whilst the groom has a shower.
I’m just happy he didn’t want a bath.
I’m just happy he didn’t want a bath.
November 29, 2025 at 11:40 AM
Last wedding of the year and I’m chilling whilst the groom has a shower.
I’m just happy he didn’t want a bath.
I’m just happy he didn’t want a bath.
Just down the road.
Bloody immigrants.
Walking over here on their land bridges.
They ruined England for the real English.
Like Red Deer or something. I dunno.
Bloody immigrants.
Walking over here on their land bridges.
They ruined England for the real English.
Like Red Deer or something. I dunno.
November 25, 2025 at 2:02 PM
Just down the road.
Bloody immigrants.
Walking over here on their land bridges.
They ruined England for the real English.
Like Red Deer or something. I dunno.
Bloody immigrants.
Walking over here on their land bridges.
They ruined England for the real English.
Like Red Deer or something. I dunno.
Farewell little yellow Skoda.
Bought as a commuter car, you ended up taking us the length and breadth of Britain every other weekend.
The cause of thousands of bruises on children’s arms.
A ladder for group shots.
You will be missed. (Because it’s bloody cold out there. I hate driving)
Bought as a commuter car, you ended up taking us the length and breadth of Britain every other weekend.
The cause of thousands of bruises on children’s arms.
A ladder for group shots.
You will be missed. (Because it’s bloody cold out there. I hate driving)
November 25, 2025 at 10:57 AM
Farewell little yellow Skoda.
Bought as a commuter car, you ended up taking us the length and breadth of Britain every other weekend.
The cause of thousands of bruises on children’s arms.
A ladder for group shots.
You will be missed. (Because it’s bloody cold out there. I hate driving)
Bought as a commuter car, you ended up taking us the length and breadth of Britain every other weekend.
The cause of thousands of bruises on children’s arms.
A ladder for group shots.
You will be missed. (Because it’s bloody cold out there. I hate driving)
Haven’t shaved my head for a few days as I’ve been ill.
Emma can see white peach fuzz everywhere. There’s a real chance I might have enough to have a proper head of hair. Minoxidil may have worked.
I should be ecstatic but I daren’t let myself dream. Too scared of disappointment.
Emma can see white peach fuzz everywhere. There’s a real chance I might have enough to have a proper head of hair. Minoxidil may have worked.
I should be ecstatic but I daren’t let myself dream. Too scared of disappointment.
a close up of a man 's face with the words " don 't give me hope "
Alt: A close up of Hawkeye from Avengers face with the words "don't give me hope"
media.tenor.com
November 24, 2025 at 5:03 PM
Haven’t shaved my head for a few days as I’ve been ill.
Emma can see white peach fuzz everywhere. There’s a real chance I might have enough to have a proper head of hair. Minoxidil may have worked.
I should be ecstatic but I daren’t let myself dream. Too scared of disappointment.
Emma can see white peach fuzz everywhere. There’s a real chance I might have enough to have a proper head of hair. Minoxidil may have worked.
I should be ecstatic but I daren’t let myself dream. Too scared of disappointment.