“Btw I haven’t eaten all day!” After I just said I made myself dinner like…okay and when you do eat you’ll probably eat more calories than my entire daily intake but you won’t know that because I don’t share my intake with my irls

And makes up for any missed meals

all this summer (it’s December and I live in a cold area so that doesn’t help me now) but I still look big and would opt for a baggier pair anyway. And that’s if I’m still losing weight by summer. Who knows? By then I could be obese again.

I feel like I will always look like a former fat person rather than someone who is slim (and I’m not even slim).

massive weight gain I had between 2019-2022. Most of the weight gain happening between 2021-2022. I wasn’t obese for that long, but I am forever left with the stretch marks as souvenirs and the fact that my stomach, upper arms, and upper thighs still look huge. If you can prevent it, don’t get fat.

I don’t know how many thanksgivings I’ll have left with my family whether that be them passing away or me dying somehow so I try to let myself enjoy it without it turning into a binge day. I’m not gonna let one day get me off track.

to the bathroom all night on top of not sleeping. I haven’t weigh in in since Saturday but I but my weight is either the same or up. I’m weighing in on Wednesday to get a pre Thanksgiving weight. On Thanksgiving I’m still going to try to stick to a deficit or at least maintenance.

So that way I’ll feel better about myself if I lose more than that and this month feels like I’m not even going to make it to 5lbs lost total. I’ve lost 17 total since September like please just let me lose this one last pound before December.

Guess I’ll have to eat even less today or maybe just not at all and watch me gain anyway

forget that they were emaciated!!

Like it’s an expectation to see bodychecks and triggering things but recovery spaces imo are so much more toxic and people who are actually in recovery should avoid all ED spaces for the sake of their mental health because it’s just full of these validation seeking people who can’t ever let you