I've put it inside two bags. There is something deeply psychologically wrong with that man, and with my mum for accepting it.

mhmm

I don't use their things. not even their own milk. it's not a real excuse. they just don't like me and don't want me here. even though they never see me anyway.

she claims I'm costing too much money but the only expense is me using a small amount of electricity and occasionally putting a towel or clothes in wish their washing. my food and toiletries come from kind people online. phone bill paid by people online.

then NO CONTACT. absolutely no contact ever again.

if I can get this letter and possibly get on list for housing, then apply for UC and PIP (and inevitably appeal decision), then I can get out of here and get needs assessment from council for additional help. please pray that this will happen.

my body is BROKEN.
she said she's happy to never talk to me again once I'm out. that me being ill has been really hard for HER. the woman who deprived me of food and water for long stretches, withheld medicine, lied to my doctors, lied to other family members about me.

let's pray she actually writes it and that I can get on a list for priority emergency housing. Doctors appointment in the week where I will not back down. I am going in there and I will not leave until they give proof of me having ME and how severe it has got.

how she needs to spend her money supporting my brother who has no health issues, gets financial support from the government etc. she claimed we have "equal needs". my able bodied working brother who lives miles away. and me. the ME patient she is making homeless.

I also realised when I got back that the guy put a Cornish pasty in as well as the croissant so that must be why it cost so much. hard to communicate when you can't hear each other. I am very very very tired and feel very ill. but I will eat the pasty! no energy now
back later

no I didn't get round to it, sorry. I get such bad brain fog and completely forget things. I will look up my local council when I get back and find their email. I'm really concerned about them contacting my mum.

it was super quiet apart from the loud beeps of the machine. my phone sort of works again but keeps turning itself off randomly. no clue why. battery level is fine. I'm going to sit on a bench for a bit. I like the bad weather 👍🏻