I'm more or less ready, but in practicing the last couple days I sometimes slip up on passages that I've played flawlessly for weeks now, and it seems random as to which, so. Don't fuck this up for me, anxiety!

I absorbed an intuitive understanding of English grammar from being a voracious reader as a child/teen, but I only learned basic grammatical terms and concepts when I took German during my undergraduate degree.

I like this better than the travel maps that colour in entire nation states because you spent an afternoon in one city.

😭 thank you!!

They do, though. You’re beyond “ok” at a bunch of stuff. I’ve known you long enough. You have plenty of achievements in your life that should be sources of pleasure and pride. Every achievement I’ve seen you make, you insist on feeling nothing but bad about it. You pick rotten cherries.

The point isn’t to stop trying, its to stop gatekeeping pride and pleasure and satisfaction behind such high walls.

If you judge your worth based on being expert / elite at something, you deprive yourself of the reward chemicals that are supposed to come from making progress from “bad” to “mediocre” to “ok but nothing amazing,” and so on.

It was supposed to be a mini chronicle of 5-ish sessions but it took 15 sessions and we still need to have an epilogue so I’m just calling it a chronicle.