Begrudgingly in his defense i did have like 2 power rangers costumes and they were both the red ones buttttt that's just cos red was the one they madeeee (and my favourite colour (but not my favourite colour ranger!!!!!!!))

- legit actually kinda valid now I think about it? Bc most of what I did at his house was power rangers and gaming and the fact he DIDN'T know I'd wanna be the special weird colour one who was introduced later was just pretty hurtful? Like mf wasn't paying attention n it showed

Idk I remember a vibe of seeing one and being like "woa cool that's neat" and I can't imagine anyone under the age of like 15 would ever feel that bc they must seem as normal as windows or smth

He gave me his imessage cos he might notice that more n I'm wondering if "it's been 3 weeks since u spoke to me" is fair? I think perhaps it is? I am fearing he was locked in a rubber room, a rubber room with rats...

It's wild to me when areas like this exist only for decoration bc no quest takes you here so they didn't neeeeeeed to put a ship bay up the big sloped building BUT they made smth the player can climb and explore so oc they put a lil smth there :)) I love them

He also has a small habit of kinda not replying to the stuff I say n just giving a little update n apology so is it even worth adding more.. oof. Bad feels. Don't love this being the vibe when I think bout bf. Hm. Not fun. Weed n video games, yes let's do that

I love a good debate, I was lowkey gremlin mode ragebaiting at first n arguing what counts as brutalism but then it was a rly insight conversation n I think genuinely expanded my world view?

"not everything owes you being pretty and painting over brutalist architecture hides it's history which is steeped in war and efficiency, we shouldnt Ignore and hide that"
"But dull grey things make ppl sad n I want ppl to be happy so they should be pretty colours"
Was kinda how it went

Realistically I'm pretty sure this is not a normal person thing and given the way arguments w my s/o freak me out like crazy even over mundane stuff it does track that those panic moments would lock in the trapped memories box... Hm. I need more emdr

One was how Pokémon games look bad n it makes me sad n they were like "no it's a style thing n not all games should be 4k uhd" which like true but there's so many cartoony games that look good, when everyone was talking bout how bad the new one looks i felt so vindicated lol

I'm updating socials on the things I enjoy or venting about the things I don't? I understand the desire for a private space where you can act free w/o worrying about being filmed so I don't wish they didn't exist but I do find the idea annoying