why the hell even think of getting married to someone who vehemently despises something you're passionate about?

i don't get straight people

could be as easy as some capacitors in the power supply, so it's worth making sure to ewaste it or donate it to a repair shop or local tech recycler/co-op on the rare chance you have one of those

time just feels empty
tired in what little free time i have
punished with more work for achieving at work
on a road to nowhere fast

I think I am going to finally start ZA on xmas break

I would advise highly against salon cream retrobrite, since it inevitably leads to uneven application and accelerated degradation. Liquid peroxide immersion is generally the way to go, but you won't notice the imperfections with the cream for a few years at least.