putting on my pajamas when i came home gave me such a strong feeling of resting mentally, it almost scares me

If I get hit my a truck tomorrow amd I die pleas eplay this song on my funeral

Still a lot of confusion, questions that wont get answers, lots and lots of hurt amd self doubt. And anger is making its appearance.

I knoooooow

i feel a strong urge to go swimming as well

But I have no idea how to express it. Regarding the ex, sure, I can think of ways eventually. But in the other case it is not going to change anything. It might bring some relief for the time being, but the anger will come back eventually. It's a complicated situation.

Luckily I dont have a lot at home that reminds me of them and most of it is out of sight ready. I got 2 plushies and I was thinking of sending them back to them.

This morning I wore shorts and short sleeves for my run, while a year ago I moved to long leggings already