Jeske
@diaryofcolours.bsky.social
She/her 🌿This was supposed to be an art page but it's currently more like a diary lmao
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Sometimes I wonder what my purpose in life is and then I get a very heartwarming amd grateful email ftom a parent thanking me fot a conversation we had aboit an issue at school. I shouldnt read emails before going to sleep but Im a curious and anxious person.
I think I might be good at my work.
I think I might be good at my work.
November 12, 2025 at 9:02 PM
Sometimes I wonder what my purpose in life is and then I get a very heartwarming amd grateful email ftom a parent thanking me fot a conversation we had aboit an issue at school. I shouldnt read emails before going to sleep but Im a curious and anxious person.
I think I might be good at my work.
I think I might be good at my work.
In bed before 10pm. Idk if thats a good or bad thing
November 12, 2025 at 8:49 PM
In bed before 10pm. Idk if thats a good or bad thing
wondering when i'll collapse at work
November 12, 2025 at 6:36 PM
wondering when i'll collapse at work
started looking at airbnbs for my potential solo trip
November 12, 2025 at 6:32 PM
started looking at airbnbs for my potential solo trip
A Solitary Reign by Amenra matches the emptiness I feel.
November 12, 2025 at 6:27 PM
A Solitary Reign by Amenra matches the emptiness I feel.
Lots of emotions dragging me through mud again. Emptiness, sadness, missing, you name it.
November 12, 2025 at 6:23 PM
Lots of emotions dragging me through mud again. Emptiness, sadness, missing, you name it.
didnt bump into them, did cry my eyes out whem tbe bamd played a song we listened to a LOT during our short luxembourg trip
going to a concert tonight and ex liked this band too, terrified of bumping into them
November 11, 2025 at 9:50 PM
didnt bump into them, did cry my eyes out whem tbe bamd played a song we listened to a LOT during our short luxembourg trip
going to a concert tonight and ex liked this band too, terrified of bumping into them
November 11, 2025 at 1:35 PM
going to a concert tonight and ex liked this band too, terrified of bumping into them
watching the GDT Frankenstein documentary and this makes me dream of picking up an acting career. it must be AMAZING to bring life to a non-existing character
November 11, 2025 at 12:43 PM
watching the GDT Frankenstein documentary and this makes me dream of picking up an acting career. it must be AMAZING to bring life to a non-existing character
We have a small gym at work with some equipment and we're free to use it, so Im thinking of how amd when to add that to my weekly activities too
November 11, 2025 at 8:08 AM
We have a small gym at work with some equipment and we're free to use it, so Im thinking of how amd when to add that to my weekly activities too
dreamt i went for a 10k run in the morning and later hit the gym to run another 7k on a treadmill. gotta burn those caloriesssssssss
November 11, 2025 at 6:26 AM
dreamt i went for a 10k run in the morning and later hit the gym to run another 7k on a treadmill. gotta burn those caloriesssssssss
finished another book today but it's not officially published yet, so it's not available on goodreads and now i cant log it
November 10, 2025 at 8:54 PM
finished another book today but it's not officially published yet, so it's not available on goodreads and now i cant log it
Emotions are overwhelming again today
November 10, 2025 at 7:24 PM
Emotions are overwhelming again today
I feel a lot of anger (both towards stupid ex and problematic parent) but I dont k ow HOW to release it. And I k ow that IF I were to release it, it'd be pointless anyway.
November 10, 2025 at 6:25 AM
I feel a lot of anger (both towards stupid ex and problematic parent) but I dont k ow HOW to release it. And I k ow that IF I were to release it, it'd be pointless anyway.
Sometimes I wonder if I regret my relationship with them.
November 10, 2025 at 6:22 AM
Sometimes I wonder if I regret my relationship with them.
one time when i spoke to the author of one of my fave books, he mentioned a contract with a 'big horror director' was signed to make a movie out of one of his books
it was 2 years ago he talked abt that and to this day I still hope it'd be GDT but i dont think so. no news about filmin either
it was 2 years ago he talked abt that and to this day I still hope it'd be GDT but i dont think so. no news about filmin either
November 9, 2025 at 5:38 PM
one time when i spoke to the author of one of my fave books, he mentioned a contract with a 'big horror director' was signed to make a movie out of one of his books
it was 2 years ago he talked abt that and to this day I still hope it'd be GDT but i dont think so. no news about filmin either
it was 2 years ago he talked abt that and to this day I still hope it'd be GDT but i dont think so. no news about filmin either
A 1.5 run planned. Slightly afraid bc HOW can I be focused on 1 thing for so long
Ive did this before. But. How.
Ive did this before. But. How.
7am alarm on Sunday bc I have a long run planned today. I considered 6am when I set my alarm
Ive reached THAT point in life
Ive reached THAT point in life
November 9, 2025 at 7:45 AM
A 1.5 run planned. Slightly afraid bc HOW can I be focused on 1 thing for so long
Ive did this before. But. How.
Ive did this before. But. How.
7am alarm on Sunday bc I have a long run planned today. I considered 6am when I set my alarm
Ive reached THAT point in life
Ive reached THAT point in life
November 9, 2025 at 6:09 AM
7am alarm on Sunday bc I have a long run planned today. I considered 6am when I set my alarm
Ive reached THAT point in life
Ive reached THAT point in life
Crying my eyes out to Lorna Shore
November 8, 2025 at 9:12 PM
Crying my eyes out to Lorna Shore
Soon we'll celebrate Sinterklaas with my family. I'll be the only single person. I have 1 Christmas activity. With my family. Again the only single person. My siblings will have their partners cheering for them at the finish line of our half marathon race. There'll be no one for me.
November 8, 2025 at 8:59 PM
Soon we'll celebrate Sinterklaas with my family. I'll be the only single person. I have 1 Christmas activity. With my family. Again the only single person. My siblings will have their partners cheering for them at the finish line of our half marathon race. There'll be no one for me.
"I'm worries ypu might be literally running towards burnout"
That might be correct, I dont know
That might be correct, I dont know
November 8, 2025 at 8:06 PM
"I'm worries ypu might be literally running towards burnout"
That might be correct, I dont know
That might be correct, I dont know
Passing certain cities/train stations you've had a long connection with, knowing thst connection is gone, makes me feel empty. But it's ok, I'm at peace with it.
November 8, 2025 at 1:53 PM
Passing certain cities/train stations you've had a long connection with, knowing thst connection is gone, makes me feel empty. But it's ok, I'm at peace with it.
about to start a new book but it's not available on goodreads yet and that's fucking with my feelings aaaaaaaa. it's a yet unreleased book, will be published in 20 days
November 8, 2025 at 10:58 AM
about to start a new book but it's not available on goodreads yet and that's fucking with my feelings aaaaaaaa. it's a yet unreleased book, will be published in 20 days
Me: "Readers become writers and writes become readers."
Student 1: "I thought we were in Dutch class, not philosophy"
Me: "I can do anything"
Student 2: "Except for maths"
I love my job
Student 1: "I thought we were in Dutch class, not philosophy"
Me: "I can do anything"
Student 2: "Except for maths"
I love my job
November 8, 2025 at 9:40 AM
Me: "Readers become writers and writes become readers."
Student 1: "I thought we were in Dutch class, not philosophy"
Me: "I can do anything"
Student 2: "Except for maths"
I love my job
Student 1: "I thought we were in Dutch class, not philosophy"
Me: "I can do anything"
Student 2: "Except for maths"
I love my job
Dreamt about them. They missed me, but mostly physical contact with me. They tried to kiss me several times even though I saod no, so I bitch slapped them in the face.
November 8, 2025 at 8:43 AM
Dreamt about them. They missed me, but mostly physical contact with me. They tried to kiss me several times even though I saod no, so I bitch slapped them in the face.