I agree, and it's extra weird because that's a picture of Francis from a few years ago when the headline is about Leo.

I often feel like it's a question of whether or not someone can hang on until the lucky moment, but there's no knowing when or even if it will happen.

We may not have superheroes but we do have all of the superheroes' girlfriends that you wouldn't have met.

I will be sad about that, but I will get over it. I've seen that it's probably coming pretty much since I started, so I am braced for it.

Just DO NOT tell me that I can just keep writing for myself.

But if it doesn't work out, there is no writing just for myself, it's done, I'm out. Which will be devastating, but as I said, that's life, not everything works out.

Because I will need to put too much of my wherewithal into whatever does pay me the pittance I need.

I cannot keep writing for much longer if I don't make money at it. I'm not talking about getting rich here, I could get by on a pittance (I am extremely fortunate), but I need that pittance.

If it doesn't work out, that's life, not everything works out.

There are ways to write for a small audience, or a non-paying audience, and I love that for people they work for.

I have limited means and limited wherewithal, and my neurodivergence does not accommodate working slowly at something over years. I can see projects through, but I have to keep on them.

"Just write for yourself" is absolute BS to me because the writing is not complete until someone else reads it.

Just put on a play in an empty theatre. Just build a house no one will live in. Just cook a meal no one will eat.

My answer is that I write because I have a mind full of wonders that I want to share with other people. What is or isn't a wonder is subjective, this isn't a brag, but this is kind of the point. I want my thoughts to go into the world and be seen and interpreted by others.

Look, I love writing, I enjoy the process, even when it's frustrating. But I write so that someone else can read. That's the payoff.

I attended a panel at Can*Con where a panelist talked about why, deep down, writers write. I blanked on most of the rest of the panel thinking about that.

The thing I hoped for in episode one and didn't get was that the Maquis ship would survive and they would have two ships and two crews to manage but also to offer different strategic and tactical options through the whole series.