Esther {System Name: Dusk}
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corviddusk.bsky.social
Esther {System Name: Dusk}
@corviddusk.bsky.social
System (DID) || Intersex Non-binary Woman
Genderfluid || AroAce || Mixed
Transfem

21 || She/Fae/They/It || Polyam (I have a GF & Fiancé)

💜 My fiancé: @apolloisabnormal

🔞 MDNI, Proship DNI, Lolisho DNI

Commissions: https://artistree.io/corviddusk
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Though my Kofi is still up for support, we also have a gofundme! We're trying to flee Texas and its hard as a hit and run depleted our savings, any aid would be appreciated

gofund.me/0b01f441
Donate to Trans Couple Fleeing Texas After A Hit-And-Run, organized by Dusk Noir
Hello, we are in desperate need of money to get out of Texas as anti-trans la… Dusk Noir needs your support for Trans Couple Fleeing Texas After A Hit-And-Run
gofund.me
You can tell TERFs don't actually view trans men as "innocent small girls lead astray" by the way they brutalize trans men and harass and attack them because nobody who actually views someone as a victim would abuse them for being a victim.
November 29, 2025 at 7:38 PM
Nevermind got to one more episode and Vizzie is projecting so hard it's making it unwatchable. Bitch your show DOES have too much red I'm going to throw myself out a window.
I'm a bit tipsy watching Hazbin Hotel season 2 with my fiance and honestly I'm not sure why people say it's that bad? Maybe the first few episodes just go hard and the rest sucks?
November 28, 2025 at 3:46 AM
I'm a bit tipsy watching Hazbin Hotel season 2 with my fiance and honestly I'm not sure why people say it's that bad? Maybe the first few episodes just go hard and the rest sucks?
November 28, 2025 at 3:34 AM
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-"safe food." sometimes the thought of eating just genuinely icks me. And every time I try to force myself to eat something, I genuinely gag and sometimes throw up. I can't eat fried rice now because of that happening to me, fried rice used to be one of my favorite foods.
It sucks.
November 27, 2025 at 4:48 PM
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people who say that AFRID isnt a real eating disorder or don't take it seriously clearly have never met someone with AFRID. I am an autistic adult with AFRID and it is awful, sometimes there are DAYS where I will STARVE myself because nothing in the fridge or pantry peaks my appetite, even if its a-
November 27, 2025 at 4:46 PM
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The goal is to always be growing, always be evolving throughout life.
November 26, 2025 at 11:33 PM
I need to get the fuck out of Texas. I can't imagine the suffering my trans sisters are going through...
November 26, 2025 at 10:18 PM
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I'm just gonna say the unpopular thing. People with this mentality care more about the aesthetic of queer radicalism than the broader survival of queer people
November 25, 2025 at 10:49 PM
T4T polycule when you're all trans in different directions.

Genderfluid & currently a Nonbinary Woman(Me) 💓 Nonbinary(my fiance) 💓 Boygirl (my girlfriend)
November 18, 2025 at 10:13 PM
It's genuinely insane that one of my groomers has obsessively lied about me and claimed I'm a cis detransitioner because I stopped using he/him pronouns outside of close friends and identify more as an enby and a woman than a man. Bitch I am transitioning to womanhood- I'm intersex. I'm XTMTF
November 17, 2025 at 7:14 PM
It's so hard to talk about issues transmasculine people face because on one side you get people who believe in "trans misandry" and harass tgirls 24/7 (like a certain someone did to me on Tumblr because they wanted to suck up to a rapist racefaker) and hate trans women with a violent passion
November 16, 2025 at 8:24 PM
"Les4Les is the same as T4T why don't people let us exclude bi, pan, around, and ace people? Women who have ever dated aan are tainted"

Just say you hate women with comphet. Say you hate women who are different from you. Say you know nothing about trans people. Oh my fucking god cis people shut up.
November 16, 2025 at 2:27 PM
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Hey all, Poppy’s kid needs some help with their phone bill this month. If you can toss a few bucks their way, please do so. ☺️
Support AchillesSpider
Support AchillesSpider
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November 12, 2025 at 10:02 PM
I'm one of those crazy bitches who believe people with BIID should be allowed to get their body part related to their condition amputated because studies show quality of life improves when they do and they function better in general.

BIID is a neurological condition. Your brain cannot recognize...
November 11, 2025 at 10:17 PM
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me. quotes are more important
November 9, 2025 at 4:29 PM
I was 160lbs when I started college. Overweight but still pretty good. I had horrific body dysmorphia though and thought I was excessively large. My heart has broken seeing what I used to look like as a kid. 💔 I didn't realize I was that okay.

My binge eating got worse when I met my recent abusers
November 9, 2025 at 7:30 PM
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Annie. I've been trying to take this away from being a public spectacle. You're the continuing to make it public. You know how to reach me if you're serious.

Also: assigned intent.
October 25, 2025 at 9:46 AM
Another thing with getting better... All the alters I split because of the abuse I faced the last two years have now fused together... And I get to work on some of the main issues with other traumas now. Slowly but surely my DID therapy is going well- hell I even have a host for my system now!
October 25, 2025 at 2:40 PM
It is so freeing to get over my trauma enough to be able to return to a baseline of sanity. Like now feeling confident enough in myself and accepting that yes there is a massive issue with transandrophobia in the queer community and it can be combatted and I wasn't evil from believing in it before..
October 22, 2025 at 4:47 AM
Waking up and seeing stuff today made me feel like this
a kitten is sitting on top of a white cup on a table .
ALT: a kitten is sitting on top of a white cup on a table .
media.tenor.com
October 17, 2025 at 7:04 PM
Low-key realized in an attempt to be everything the people who hurt me are not I did actually end up hurting people so this is my official apology for going so hard against transandrophobia and falling into TRF/TIRF/Bæddel Rhetoric.

It started as a way to cope but I think I also got...
October 12, 2025 at 11:20 PM
So they’re accusing me of grooming again, so fuck it, here’s the truth. First, I was 20, Chem was 25. Second, this pic is a response to Annie finding out someone in her server was ACTUALLY grooming me. Poppy is trying to do an uno reverse to invalidate my trauma, or even imply that I deserved it.
October 11, 2025 at 12:26 AM
I can't speak to Annie myself about things. I'm still not in a place where I would do anything but break down. I wouldn't be capable of holding a proper conversation and my doctors have been clear I cannot be in contact with her for my own health. But I want her to understand things.
Annie, I will not ask you to renounce PZ. I don’t want to discuss PZ at all. I don’t want to be your friend. I don’t forgive you for anything.

But the exhaustion you’re feeling is one I’ve been feeling for a long time now, and this is about Dusk. If you want to understand, I’ll explain.

That’s it.
October 9, 2025 at 4:30 PM
People need to take soda & caffeine addiction more seriously I'm in so much pain right now because I didn't drink a soda today... I'm fucking losing my mind like I feel nauseous and tired and just awful. I know I'm going to have a killer headache tomorrow.
October 8, 2025 at 9:59 PM