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confused coder
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the mods have linked charities for sexual + domestic abuse victims and for lgbtq+ people which i will also link here.
i wanted to write up something about my experience in communities involving shayy, and how im feeling about the terrible things they have done. i found shayy somewhere around this time in 2021. 2021 was easily the worst year in my entire life, where i had a very debilitating breakdown in august that had been coming for around a few months, and that my mental state hasnt really recovered from since. even before this i was extremely isolated because of my disability and mental illnesses that caused me to basically not talk to anyone since i was a young child. i found a video of a speedrun shayy had done of deltarune chapter 2. i was interested in deltarune as it had basically just released and the speedrun interested me a lot. i was never really into speedrunning before this and i wanted to try it out for myself. i joined the deltarune speedrunning community because i couldnt figure out how to do a now very outdated strat. joining this server was probably the most impactful decision i made in my life. i started talking more in the server because of the welcoming environment it had and i eventually joined shayys discord server after being gifted a sub, and also the undertale speedrunning server at some point. i originally just joined shayys server because i wanted to join their sub only minecraft server, but i did stick around for other things and it became an extremely important community to me. as i mentioned earlier before i joined these communities i had basically no interaction with anybody for a very long time of my life and was extremely lonely. joining them was the first time i actually talked with people and it gave me something actually valuable in my life. i grew a lot as a person being in shayys server as i was only 14 years old when i joined, and it was the first time i got the opportunity to interact with people freely in such a long time. even now it is still basically impossible for me to make friends with people irl, with my heavy social anxiety, selective mutism and not being in school / work. i started making friends after being in the server for a while, some of them i unfortunately havent talked to in a long time, and some i still talk to today. ive been a part of multiple friend servers because of frog family, and while some of them have fallen apart or ive left for personal reasons, im really grateful for all of them and i currently have a circle of friends i appreciate a lot. theres so much i could say about my experiences with frog family but im generally just writing this section as a thank you to the friends ive made being there, and the moderators that helped keep them functioning. it is also not to make the current situation about me and how hurt i am, i just want to show appreciation to what the community has been. now to talk about the document, shayys actions are extremely disgusting and im still trying to process the fact that this has been going on for basically the entire time ive been in the community. up until now me and many people have seen their server as a safe space (especially for queer and neurodivergent people) and its horrifying to know that they have been taking advantage of and assaulting people. every single person that ive interacted with mentioned in the document is a wonderful person and a few i would say are friends.if there are any victims of shayy reading this, i am extremely sorry to hear the terrible things that you have gone through and i hope youre in a better place now. i also want to thank the moderators and everyone who worked on the document for your work on respectfully adressing the situation while getting so many insulting comments on the original post. i also do hope thSat shayy does receive any help they need and betters themself as a person. i was never at all a close friend of theirs but i did have good interactions with them and i respected them a lot. i am still very glad to know that they have been banned from the undertale and deltarune speedrunning communities, and i hope i never see them ever again. even though shayys community wont exist anymore, the relationships that youve made there are still real. if you dont have me added and want to stay in contant feel free to add me on discord (confused_coder). if you are a current victim of abuse reading this, i really hope that you can escape your situation, and please stay connected to the good people around you as much as possible. abusers have the most power when their victims are isolated so please reach out to someone. for help if possible
November 20, 2025 at 11:58 PM
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ranking of all gybe songs (just relistened to almost all of their albums across 2 days)
November 19, 2025 at 3:39 AM
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felt like making a new topsterr (mix of stuff ive liked for a long time and new stuff, somewhat ordered, 1 album per artist)
November 11, 2025 at 11:06 AM
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psychedelic porn crumpets are fire
November 5, 2025 at 4:57 PM
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i love this band
October 12, 2025 at 11:03 PM
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its ok
October 3, 2025 at 6:57 PM
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wowzers
September 28, 2025 at 8:09 PM
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reminds me i forgot to post this, new peak anarchist music accquired
"gods pee at states end" - godspeed you black emperor vinyl
September 21, 2025 at 11:04 PM
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happy luciferian towers day
September 21, 2025 at 11:01 PM
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lowkey fire year
September 12, 2025 at 12:02 AM
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pink floyd album art is finally good
September 10, 2025 at 2:07 AM
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speaking head looks so weird on my pc what the crap
August 17, 2025 at 12:04 AM
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woke canadian and australian albums acquired (yanqui coming next week too)
nonagon infinity, no title - gy!be, lanimated denim on vinyl
August 15, 2025 at 7:49 PM
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yeowza
August 14, 2025 at 11:21 PM
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gybeing up northern ireland on wplace (with the help of a few friends)
August 14, 2025 at 6:25 PM
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havent done one of these in a while so i felt like making a new one (only first 5 are ordered)
July 19, 2025 at 2:02 AM
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listened to 10 hours of nsb today (in only 2 albums) :D
July 7, 2025 at 11:52 PM
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listened to another fishmans show today i need to do more of these
July 5, 2025 at 9:57 PM
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stuff ive listened to from this year so far and stat stuff because its the 2nd half of 2025 now
July 1, 2025 at 6:14 PM
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new additions to the collection tm
June 28, 2025 at 5:38 PM
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you cant just casually drop a 3 track run like this what if a victorian child stumbles across it and dies on the spot
June 23, 2025 at 12:05 AM
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they shrimply dont miss
June 22, 2025 at 11:54 PM
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gybe were trueing with this
June 17, 2025 at 11:17 PM
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heres the full ranking ive been making along the way. ill prob end up changing a bunch of stuff slighlty as time goes on but these are my current thoughts
June 16, 2025 at 12:44 AM
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like this one more than i thought i would, just about a top 10 for me
June 15, 2025 at 3:35 AM