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Christian Gajewski
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🧠 2e AuDHD - 💙 INTP-T - ⚖️ 2w1
📰 Writer on Invisible Illness | Medium
📖 Author of Landing Protocol | Kindle
🔗 https://linktr.ee/christian.gajewski
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I’ve published a new article on Medium.
It’s about how writing became my real tool for understanding my diagnosis, more than the assessment itself.

Not a therapeutic journey, but an act of identity reverse engineering.

👉 medium.com/@christian.g...

#neurodivergence #AuDHD #writing #autism
Landing Protocol: How Writing Rewrote My Diagnosis
Why I stopped translating myself for a world that doesn’t speak my language
medium.com
The AuDHD brain has no OFF switch, but you can hack it. The solution is acoustic engineering as a cognitive prosthetic.
Here is how I use Brain.fm and Endel.io to govern the chaos:

medium.com/@christian.g...

#AuDHD #Biohacking #Focus #Autism #ADHD #ActuallyAutistic
The AuDHD Brain Has No OFF Switch, but You Can Hack It
Why you can’t sleep or focus, and how acoustic engineering can save you from cognitive paralysis.
medium.com
January 27, 2026 at 12:37 PM
A fish that has stopped wanting to fly.
An exploration of alexithymia, neurodivergence, and the freedom of living within a cognitive system devoid of emotional peaks, yet rich in structural beauty.
My latest piece:
medium.com/@christian.g...
#actuallyAutistic #Autism #psychology #Selfimprovement
The Fish That No Longer Wanted to Fly
Alexithymia and Neurodivergence: The Beauty of a Low-Noise System
medium.com
January 20, 2026 at 6:57 PM
If you’re AuDHD, you know the drill: time slipping through your fingers, hyperfocus hijacking your day, and that crushing decision paralysis when there’s just too much noise. To survive (long before my diagnosis), I built systems.

Read the full article here: medium.com/invisible-il...
How I Plan My AuDHD Life
I built these 4 systems to survive before my diagnosis. Today, they are my cure.
medium.com
January 17, 2026 at 7:27 AM
There is a moment when an autistic voice simply ceases to bridge the gap. It enters the air and dies there. My latest piece explores the invisible architecture of exclusion, from Foucault to social neurobiology.
Check it out: medium.com/@christian.g...
#Autism #Psychology #Neurodivergence
The Invisible Architecture of Exclusion: Why Groups Ignore Autism (Without Realizing It)
Why do we stop listening to those who communicate out of sync? A journey through Foucault, conformity experiments, and the uncomfortable…
medium.com
January 13, 2026 at 2:54 PM
I’ve spent 48 years masking. 48 years faking it, burning out, shrinking myself to seem ‘okay’. Now that I have the diagnosis, I’m still told to adapt better?
No. I’ve given enough.
Take your time with it here: medium.com/the-unexpect...

#Autism #Neurodiversity #ActuallyAutistic #Masking
48 Years of Masking: The Justified Rage of the Unseen
Stop telling neurodivergent adults to adapt. After a lifetime of bending to fit a world that wasn’t built for us, it’s time for the world…
medium.com
January 10, 2026 at 11:53 AM
"The millisecond that makes me human." Why autistic emotional lag isn’t a flaw, but an act of conscious freedom. My latest article is now live on Medium.
Read more:
medium.com/invisible-il...
#autism #psychology #science #audhd #philosophy
The Millisecond That Makes Me Human
Why my autistic emotional lag is not a factory defect, but the space where true freedom is born.
medium.com
January 4, 2026 at 1:33 PM
Reposted by Christian Gajewski
For an autistic brain, the world is never white noise.
What happens when we perceive the underlying structures of reality that others simply filter out? And what is the price of this sensory overload?
My latest article:
medium.com/@christian.g...

#ActuallyAutistic #Neurodiversity #Autism
Autistic Pattern Perception: Between the True Structures of Reality and Sensory Overload
Why some minds grasp connections and symmetries that neurotypicals filter out, revealing hidden fractals while paying a high cognitive…
medium.com
December 30, 2025 at 5:50 PM
For an autistic brain, the world is never white noise.
What happens when we perceive the underlying structures of reality that others simply filter out? And what is the price of this sensory overload?
My latest article:
medium.com/@christian.g...

#ActuallyAutistic #Neurodiversity #Autism
Autistic Pattern Perception: Between the True Structures of Reality and Sensory Overload
Why some minds grasp connections and symmetries that neurotypicals filter out, revealing hidden fractals while paying a high cognitive…
medium.com
December 30, 2025 at 5:50 PM
I spent nearly fifty years pretending to be a defective human. Then I realized I was simply a functional alien with a different operating manual. 🖖

This is how I rebuilt my identity.

medium.com/@christian.g...

#Autism #Neurodiversity #Selfimprovement #Psychology #Science
Reverse Engineering the Alien Mind: My 2025 Survival Protocol
How I dismantled 48 years of clinical silence to build a functional life through biology, logic, and philosophy.
medium.com
December 25, 2025 at 2:22 PM
I’ve published a new article on Medium.
It’s about how writing became my real tool for understanding my diagnosis, more than the assessment itself.

Not a therapeutic journey, but an act of identity reverse engineering.

👉 medium.com/@christian.g...

#neurodivergence #AuDHD #writing #autism
Landing Protocol: How Writing Rewrote My Diagnosis
Why I stopped translating myself for a world that doesn’t speak my language
medium.com
December 23, 2025 at 10:10 AM
Sensory overload isn't emotional fragility. It's an "Information Collapse" in the brain, a crisis of unintegrable data.
I used Integrated Information Theory (IIT) to explain why stimming is a rational defense.
medium.com/@christian.g...
#Neurodivergence #Autism #IIT #Science #ActuallyAutistic
Flapping Isn’t a Vice: A Hypothesis Based on Integrated Information Theory
Why Integrated Information Theory (IIT) May Offer a Possible Lens for Interpreting Autistic Sensory Overload as an Explosion of…
medium.com
December 10, 2025 at 6:29 PM
Reposted by Christian Gajewski
What if the inner voice we call “I” is only 3,000 years old… and not everyone needs it to be fully conscious?
A deep dive into bicameral minds, neurodiversity, and why some of us might still think like the ancients.

medium.com/@christian.g...

#Consciousness #Neuroscience #Neurodiversity
When the Gods Fell Silent: Julian Jaynes, the Birth of the Self, and What Autism Teaches Us About…
The Self is a Cultural Invention: What the ‘Theory of Mind’ Problem Reveals About Non-Narrative Consciousness
medium.com
December 6, 2025 at 6:31 PM
What if the inner voice we call “I” is only 3,000 years old… and not everyone needs it to be fully conscious?
A deep dive into bicameral minds, neurodiversity, and why some of us might still think like the ancients.

medium.com/@christian.g...

#Consciousness #Neuroscience #Neurodiversity
When the Gods Fell Silent: Julian Jaynes, the Birth of the Self, and What Autism Teaches Us About…
The Self is a Cultural Invention: What the ‘Theory of Mind’ Problem Reveals About Non-Narrative Consciousness
medium.com
December 6, 2025 at 6:31 PM
Reposted by Christian Gajewski
Why autistic intimacy can suddenly shut down completely and how to actually get Eurydice out of the underworld without her vanishing again.
medium.com/@christian.g...
#Autism #ActuallyAutistic #Neurodiversity #Sex #Relationships
The Orpheus Threshold: Why Autistic Intimacy Shuts Down, and How to Keep It Open
A practical guide to understanding sensory thresholds in autistic intimacy, using the one myth that truly explains shutdowns and meltdowns…
medium.com
December 4, 2025 at 3:41 PM
Why autistic intimacy can suddenly shut down completely and how to actually get Eurydice out of the underworld without her vanishing again.
medium.com/@christian.g...
#Autism #ActuallyAutistic #Neurodiversity #Sex #Relationships
The Orpheus Threshold: Why Autistic Intimacy Shuts Down, and How to Keep It Open
A practical guide to understanding sensory thresholds in autistic intimacy, using the one myth that truly explains shutdowns and meltdowns…
medium.com
December 4, 2025 at 3:41 PM
I'm 48, but people constantly mistake me for 35.
My long-read article that went viral explores the neurobiology behind why some neurodivergent
people seem to age differently.
medium.com/the-unexpect...

#Autism #Neurodivergent #Science #ActuallyAutistic
At 48 I Still Look 35. Science Says Autism Is the Reason
Why Many Autistic Adults Look 10 to 15 Years Younger (and What It Really Means)
medium.com
December 3, 2025 at 8:19 AM
What if autism and ADHD aren't "disorders," but the medical language we use is the real cage trapping us?
#Neurodiversity #Autism #ADHD #Linguistics #DisabilityJustice #Chomsky

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Autism and ADHD Are Not Disorders: It’s Medical Language That Oppresses Us
How the Grammar of Pathologization Keeps Us from Seeing the Real Cause of Suffering
medium.com
December 1, 2025 at 10:50 PM
Reposted by Christian Gajewski
I explore how omission and semantic manipulation can act as unconscious strategies of balance in autistic functioning. Not lies, but forms of cognitive self-preservation.

#Autism #Neurodiversity #Psychology #Authenticity #SelfReflection

medium.com/@christian.g...
Sincerity and the Need for Self-Protection: The Challenge of Coherence
Omission and Semantic Manipulation as Unconscious Strategies for Stability in Autistic Functioning
medium.com
October 26, 2025 at 8:39 AM
Reposted by Christian Gajewski
A journey through numbers, language and neurodiversity.
In this article I describe how autism shaped my way of thinking about mathematics, and how school misunderstood what was in fact a logical cognitive strategy.
#Neurodiversity #Autism #Mathematics #Education
medium.com/@christian.g...
Why I “Solved” 49 ÷ 2 the “Wrong” Way (and Why I Was Right)
How an Autistic Mind Turns Numbers into Language and Alienation into Strategy
medium.com
November 1, 2025 at 1:26 PM
Reposted by Christian Gajewski
Just published a deep dive into The Little Prince as a mirror of the autistic experience, exploring suffering, empathy, and the meaning of difference.
#Autism #Neurodiversity #Philosophy #PersonalDevelopment #Literature

medium.com/@christian.g...
Without Suffering, There Is No Truth: The Little Prince as a Mirror of the Autistic Experience
How Saint-Exupéry, Dostoevsky, and Nietzsche Reveal the Meaning of Pain
medium.com
November 9, 2025 at 7:11 PM
Reposted by Christian Gajewski
The moment you achieve success, but the only thought you have is: 'If they found out who I really am, they’d realize this is all a mistake.'
That's the toxic feedback loop when Autistic Masking fuels Impostor Syndrome.

medium.com/the-unexpect...
Autistic Masking Fueled My Impostor Syndrome
How pretending to be “normal” turned every success into terror of being exposed
medium.com
November 23, 2025 at 11:31 AM
Reposted by Christian Gajewski
They tell me I’m like a robot because I don’t cry on cue, don’t laugh at the right jokes, and my emotions show up late or not at all.
But I feel everything.
I just feel it in a different language.
medium.com/@christian.g...
They Say I Look Like a Robot (But I Am Just Feeling in a Different Language)
How Westworld and our culture replaced my neurodivergent humanity with a simulacrum
medium.com
November 26, 2025 at 8:31 PM
They tell me I’m like a robot because I don’t cry on cue, don’t laugh at the right jokes, and my emotions show up late or not at all.
But I feel everything.
I just feel it in a different language.
medium.com/@christian.g...
They Say I Look Like a Robot (But I Am Just Feeling in a Different Language)
How Westworld and our culture replaced my neurodivergent humanity with a simulacrum
medium.com
November 26, 2025 at 8:31 PM
The moment you achieve success, but the only thought you have is: 'If they found out who I really am, they’d realize this is all a mistake.'
That's the toxic feedback loop when Autistic Masking fuels Impostor Syndrome.

medium.com/the-unexpect...
Autistic Masking Fueled My Impostor Syndrome
How pretending to be “normal” turned every success into terror of being exposed
medium.com
November 23, 2025 at 11:31 AM
Just published a deep dive into The Little Prince as a mirror of the autistic experience, exploring suffering, empathy, and the meaning of difference.
#Autism #Neurodiversity #Philosophy #PersonalDevelopment #Literature

medium.com/@christian.g...
Without Suffering, There Is No Truth: The Little Prince as a Mirror of the Autistic Experience
How Saint-Exupéry, Dostoevsky, and Nietzsche Reveal the Meaning of Pain
medium.com
November 9, 2025 at 7:11 PM