the rigor mortis made his claws impale me. he was holding on so tightly . man why am i crying so much

this is a complicated issue that i’m too tired to get into rn. but most allistic people can benefit from therapy. autistic people rarely benefit from cbt / standard therapy

this is not a dig at therapists. more so the system in my country and probably many other countries and especially with handling the mental health of autistic individuals.

whereas tiktok helped me understand what i needed to work on in terms of self improvement. that the behaviours that i developed through abuse were truly destructive, and if i didn’t manage them and put myself through hard work, then id continue the cycle and become everything that i hated

in fact i’m not sure what i’ve gotten out of therapy other than the validation that my experiences really were as bad as they felt and those people actually did bad things.

i guess i wish that w33d was legal so i could join them

i’m able to walk withoutmy cane

ooh ouch, yeah it’s hard to tell what mine is exactly because it developed over the span of a day, but especially so during the 20 mins i was running. it wasn’t bad so i ignored it then … lol

damn. i rlly hope it’s not that but…. seems to be a stress fracture