R. Riekkinen ✦
@artvaris.bsky.social
Freelance fantasy artist inspired by nature ✦🌿They/Them🌿✦ | ENG & FIN | No genA/I | [email protected] https://linktr.ee/ArtVaris
Yeah this, one time years ago, I was at a concert dressed femme and a guy came to talk to me about music, and since I also played guitar, we started talking. It was nice until he started to make moves towards me calling me a girl. I remember feeling so invisible and wrongly perceived in that moment
November 11, 2025 at 3:20 PM
Yeah this, one time years ago, I was at a concert dressed femme and a guy came to talk to me about music, and since I also played guitar, we started talking. It was nice until he started to make moves towards me calling me a girl. I remember feeling so invisible and wrongly perceived in that moment
She was kinda trying to use my arm as a lever to get closer to my face since she really wanted to give me headbutts haha
November 11, 2025 at 3:07 PM
She was kinda trying to use my arm as a lever to get closer to my face since she really wanted to give me headbutts haha
I thought about this as well, cats are really smart and sensitive
November 11, 2025 at 2:59 PM
I thought about this as well, cats are really smart and sensitive
She's the best emotional support cat tbh, who knows maybe she sensed that I felt nervous
November 11, 2025 at 2:54 PM
She's the best emotional support cat tbh, who knows maybe she sensed that I felt nervous
Yup she wanted to participate haha, but tbh I think she makes me feel more at ease meeting new people
November 11, 2025 at 2:46 PM
Yup she wanted to participate haha, but tbh I think she makes me feel more at ease meeting new people
Oh wow congrats!✨🎉
November 11, 2025 at 10:46 AM
Oh wow congrats!✨🎉
It’s been a long journey to get to this point for sure, but hey better now than never right 🙏
November 11, 2025 at 9:52 AM
It’s been a long journey to get to this point for sure, but hey better now than never right 🙏
It is, but for a loooong time I used to still think that’s just ”the way how I am but I must still be cis, right”. But yeah sometimes it takes time to process those thoughts and feelings
November 11, 2025 at 9:41 AM
It is, but for a loooong time I used to still think that’s just ”the way how I am but I must still be cis, right”. But yeah sometimes it takes time to process those thoughts and feelings
That’s a very fitting way of describing it as an experience yeah. Like yes you are functioning and performing and achieving things, but it took me time to fully internalize that no, not everyone feels like they are performing and me feeling disconnected wasn’t just me being ”a bit strange”
November 11, 2025 at 8:48 AM
That’s a very fitting way of describing it as an experience yeah. Like yes you are functioning and performing and achieving things, but it took me time to fully internalize that no, not everyone feels like they are performing and me feeling disconnected wasn’t just me being ”a bit strange”
After all, it’s a very different thing to feel like you’re just wading and functioning through life, instead of living it to the fullest. Looking back now, I had partly given up on myself but didn’t recognize that since I was so used to feeling disconnected and uncomfortable. But now I see it
November 11, 2025 at 8:33 AM
After all, it’s a very different thing to feel like you’re just wading and functioning through life, instead of living it to the fullest. Looking back now, I had partly given up on myself but didn’t recognize that since I was so used to feeling disconnected and uncomfortable. But now I see it
And even when I had realized that I wasn’t infact cis and found words for my experience, I still thought I couldn’t do anything about it, other than change my pronouns online. I had managed to function, so I thought I could just continue like that. Took me time to realize that I wasn’t doing okay
November 11, 2025 at 8:17 AM
And even when I had realized that I wasn’t infact cis and found words for my experience, I still thought I couldn’t do anything about it, other than change my pronouns online. I had managed to function, so I thought I could just continue like that. Took me time to realize that I wasn’t doing okay
The "Ohh right, I'm wearing a gender costume" feeling was always there when I noticed that my femme outer appearance affected the way some people treated me. In those moments, I remember thinking that I felt invisible, like the people only saw the gender they assumed I was, but not me as a person
November 11, 2025 at 2:13 AM
The "Ohh right, I'm wearing a gender costume" feeling was always there when I noticed that my femme outer appearance affected the way some people treated me. In those moments, I remember thinking that I felt invisible, like the people only saw the gender they assumed I was, but not me as a person
Took me a long time to fully admit those thoughts and feelings and really stop and think about what it could mean, instead of just brushing them off as "I'm just strange and always have been, I'll just focus on work and forget about my physical body"
November 11, 2025 at 1:54 AM
Took me a long time to fully admit those thoughts and feelings and really stop and think about what it could mean, instead of just brushing them off as "I'm just strange and always have been, I'll just focus on work and forget about my physical body"
I also remember looking at myself in the mirror and often thinking that my body kinda felt like a costume. That always felt strange, but I was also used to that. Still took me some time to fully internalize that no, not all people feel like that about themselves and their bodies
November 11, 2025 at 1:29 AM
I also remember looking at myself in the mirror and often thinking that my body kinda felt like a costume. That always felt strange, but I was also used to that. Still took me some time to fully internalize that no, not all people feel like that about themselves and their bodies
I don't think I'm qualified to advise since I'm not a professional in this area. I'd consult your physiotherapist & ask their opinion and make sure your workout routine supports your recovery/is very back-friendly. I understand your frustration, but with injuries it's important to let your body heal
November 10, 2025 at 2:38 PM
I don't think I'm qualified to advise since I'm not a professional in this area. I'd consult your physiotherapist & ask their opinion and make sure your workout routine supports your recovery/is very back-friendly. I understand your frustration, but with injuries it's important to let your body heal
Here’s the tumblr post! ✨ tinyurl.com/25x3chf2
November 10, 2025 at 10:32 AM
Here’s the tumblr post! ✨ tinyurl.com/25x3chf2
I think you already saw the beginner workout routine, but I recommend reading my more in-depth post about it on tumblr since I’ve made some adjustments and added more info! My main focus was on building upper body, and in addition to gym, I did bodyweight exercises such as push-ups & various planks
November 10, 2025 at 10:30 AM
I think you already saw the beginner workout routine, but I recommend reading my more in-depth post about it on tumblr since I’ve made some adjustments and added more info! My main focus was on building upper body, and in addition to gym, I did bodyweight exercises such as push-ups & various planks
I’m so glad you have found these posts encouraging and inspiring! 🖤 I partly share these for this reason, it would have been very helpful for the 2024/2023 me to see someone with my starting physique, so I wanted to be that person for someone else
November 10, 2025 at 9:46 AM
I’m so glad you have found these posts encouraging and inspiring! 🖤 I partly share these for this reason, it would have been very helpful for the 2024/2023 me to see someone with my starting physique, so I wanted to be that person for someone else
And again I would like to emphasize that this kind of bodyshape is perfectly fine and beautiful, but when it comes to my own body as a transmasc nb person, for me it was and is very dysphoria-inducing
November 10, 2025 at 1:46 AM
And again I would like to emphasize that this kind of bodyshape is perfectly fine and beautiful, but when it comes to my own body as a transmasc nb person, for me it was and is very dysphoria-inducing