Alphadeus
@alphadeus.bsky.social
Warning: Very Depressed
He/Him
I write music.
Bandcamp: http://alphadeus.bandcamp.com
YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/alphadeus
He/Him
I write music.
Bandcamp: http://alphadeus.bandcamp.com
YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/alphadeus
Today is the 14 year anniversary of my YouTube channel, according to YouTube.
I joined in 2006, but I did have older videos of me playing Guitar Hero II and Rock Band around then. I had videos up before 2011, but I deleted them, so I guess it counts from the 1st video.
www.youtube.com/alphadeus
I joined in 2006, but I did have older videos of me playing Guitar Hero II and Rock Band around then. I had videos up before 2011, but I deleted them, so I guess it counts from the 1st video.
www.youtube.com/alphadeus
Alphadeus
This channel is for the original music of Alphadeus. I write these songs myself, and have been writing music since 1996. I also share what I call "Piano Journals", live piano performances of musical i...
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November 27, 2025 at 10:43 AM
Today is the 14 year anniversary of my YouTube channel, according to YouTube.
I joined in 2006, but I did have older videos of me playing Guitar Hero II and Rock Band around then. I had videos up before 2011, but I deleted them, so I guess it counts from the 1st video.
www.youtube.com/alphadeus
I joined in 2006, but I did have older videos of me playing Guitar Hero II and Rock Band around then. I had videos up before 2011, but I deleted them, so I guess it counts from the 1st video.
www.youtube.com/alphadeus
Alphadeus - Dark Highway (2018)
YouTube video by Alphadeus
www.youtube.com
November 26, 2025 at 10:12 AM
I lost my medical assistance because I made under 10 dollars in streaming revenue last year, so I didn't receive a specific tax form that I needed to input the data (which I didn't have) on to my tax documents.
I deleted the post asking for help. Other people need it more than I do.
I deleted the post asking for help. Other people need it more than I do.
November 26, 2025 at 6:25 AM
I lost my medical assistance because I made under 10 dollars in streaming revenue last year, so I didn't receive a specific tax form that I needed to input the data (which I didn't have) on to my tax documents.
I deleted the post asking for help. Other people need it more than I do.
I deleted the post asking for help. Other people need it more than I do.
I deleted all of my music from all streaming services (except Bandcamp, which may be next). Like it fucking matters. No one was listening.
I am an absolute failure of a musician, and a person. I can't do anything right, and I hope my time left on this planet is very fucking short.
Leave me alone.
I am an absolute failure of a musician, and a person. I can't do anything right, and I hope my time left on this planet is very fucking short.
Leave me alone.
November 25, 2025 at 10:17 PM
I deleted all of my music from all streaming services (except Bandcamp, which may be next). Like it fucking matters. No one was listening.
I am an absolute failure of a musician, and a person. I can't do anything right, and I hope my time left on this planet is very fucking short.
Leave me alone.
I am an absolute failure of a musician, and a person. I can't do anything right, and I hope my time left on this planet is very fucking short.
Leave me alone.
My music discography is full of great music, but it could be better. I don't spend nearly enough time on fine-tuning my songs to "pop". I spend maybe an hour or two on the entire song and send it out into the world. Needs more polish.
I consider the DAW switch an opportunity to "start anew".
I consider the DAW switch an opportunity to "start anew".
November 24, 2025 at 8:36 AM
My music discography is full of great music, but it could be better. I don't spend nearly enough time on fine-tuning my songs to "pop". I spend maybe an hour or two on the entire song and send it out into the world. Needs more polish.
I consider the DAW switch an opportunity to "start anew".
I consider the DAW switch an opportunity to "start anew".
I'm at that point again where I question why I put my music up on streaming services, when ultimately it costs me more money to do so than I get back.
And it's making certain factors of my life a bit more difficult.
I wonder if YouTube and Bandcamp are enough. I mean YT gets some views.
And it's making certain factors of my life a bit more difficult.
I wonder if YouTube and Bandcamp are enough. I mean YT gets some views.
November 24, 2025 at 5:32 AM
I'm at that point again where I question why I put my music up on streaming services, when ultimately it costs me more money to do so than I get back.
And it's making certain factors of my life a bit more difficult.
I wonder if YouTube and Bandcamp are enough. I mean YT gets some views.
And it's making certain factors of my life a bit more difficult.
I wonder if YouTube and Bandcamp are enough. I mean YT gets some views.
I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle.
Just in general.
Just in general.
November 23, 2025 at 11:40 AM
I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle.
Just in general.
Just in general.
Musictoid: Full Speed Ahead! (Final Fantasy XI) 🎵
This is the mount music from FFXI, written by Naoshi Mizuta. If you haven't played in a while, they have mounts now :P It's such a fun track.
#blutoid
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ziTI...
This is the mount music from FFXI, written by Naoshi Mizuta. If you haven't played in a while, they have mounts now :P It's such a fun track.
#blutoid
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ziTI...
Full Speed Ahead!
YouTube video by Naoshi Mizuta - Topic
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November 22, 2025 at 9:37 AM
Musictoid: Full Speed Ahead! (Final Fantasy XI) 🎵
This is the mount music from FFXI, written by Naoshi Mizuta. If you haven't played in a while, they have mounts now :P It's such a fun track.
#blutoid
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ziTI...
This is the mount music from FFXI, written by Naoshi Mizuta. If you haven't played in a while, they have mounts now :P It's such a fun track.
#blutoid
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ziTI...
Alphadeus - Light at the End of the Tunnel -Event- (2019)
YouTube video by Alphadeus
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November 19, 2025 at 9:49 AM
Other than a link to one of my songs, I haven't posted anything in a few days. I'm here, just waiting for the paperwork to be able to schedule the bone marrow tests needed to rule out polycythemia vera.
November 19, 2025 at 6:29 AM
Other than a link to one of my songs, I haven't posted anything in a few days. I'm here, just waiting for the paperwork to be able to schedule the bone marrow tests needed to rule out polycythemia vera.
Alphadeus - From the Heart (2023)
YouTube video by Alphadeus
www.youtube.com
November 17, 2025 at 5:32 AM
Void 🎵
YouTube seems hellbent on showing this song to a bunch of people (the Streaming version, this one only has like 5 views). Definitely not my best song, and is on my least favorite album "Nonsensicals V", released in 2015.
So I'm showing you all :p
www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-V8...
YouTube seems hellbent on showing this song to a bunch of people (the Streaming version, this one only has like 5 views). Definitely not my best song, and is on my least favorite album "Nonsensicals V", released in 2015.
So I'm showing you all :p
www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-V8...
Alphadeus - Void (2015) [Dance, Electronic]
YouTube video by Alphadeus
www.youtube.com
November 15, 2025 at 8:47 AM
Void 🎵
YouTube seems hellbent on showing this song to a bunch of people (the Streaming version, this one only has like 5 views). Definitely not my best song, and is on my least favorite album "Nonsensicals V", released in 2015.
So I'm showing you all :p
www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-V8...
YouTube seems hellbent on showing this song to a bunch of people (the Streaming version, this one only has like 5 views). Definitely not my best song, and is on my least favorite album "Nonsensicals V", released in 2015.
So I'm showing you all :p
www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-V8...
I'm going to have so many golden keys if I ever can get back into Borderlands 4 :P I stopped playing to run the Diablo IV season and haven't been able to return due to interest in other things.
I also need to play FFT Remake, dammit.
Distracted by new music DAW. Which is great :)
#blutoid
I also need to play FFT Remake, dammit.
Distracted by new music DAW. Which is great :)
#blutoid
November 14, 2025 at 5:03 AM
I'm going to have so many golden keys if I ever can get back into Borderlands 4 :P I stopped playing to run the Diablo IV season and haven't been able to return due to interest in other things.
I also need to play FFT Remake, dammit.
Distracted by new music DAW. Which is great :)
#blutoid
I also need to play FFT Remake, dammit.
Distracted by new music DAW. Which is great :)
#blutoid
I've been looking over my blood test results while waiting for my appointment. It looks like I've had high red blood cell count since 2020 :/ The number has never been in the normal range, but it goes up and down.
I really hope this visit isn't just "See you in 6 months". I'll be upset. #blutoid
I really hope this visit isn't just "See you in 6 months". I'll be upset. #blutoid
November 10, 2025 at 1:28 PM
I've been looking over my blood test results while waiting for my appointment. It looks like I've had high red blood cell count since 2020 :/ The number has never been in the normal range, but it goes up and down.
I really hope this visit isn't just "See you in 6 months". I'll be upset. #blutoid
I really hope this visit isn't just "See you in 6 months". I'll be upset. #blutoid
Yesterday was pretty uneventful for me. I spent most of it asleep, not really stressing about what day it was (28th year since my father passed in case you missed it).
I usually post something online about how it went down. About how he died. I might post something soon. I also didn't drink.
I usually post something online about how it went down. About how he died. I might post something soon. I also didn't drink.
November 10, 2025 at 9:01 AM
Yesterday was pretty uneventful for me. I spent most of it asleep, not really stressing about what day it was (28th year since my father passed in case you missed it).
I usually post something online about how it went down. About how he died. I might post something soon. I also didn't drink.
I usually post something online about how it went down. About how he died. I might post something soon. I also didn't drink.
Man I don't think I'm doing well health-wise. Might need to see my primary doctor again to talk about some new lumps popping up on my body.
First I gotta talk to my hematologist about my blood tomorrow.
First I gotta talk to my hematologist about my blood tomorrow.
November 9, 2025 at 12:39 PM
Man I don't think I'm doing well health-wise. Might need to see my primary doctor again to talk about some new lumps popping up on my body.
First I gotta talk to my hematologist about my blood tomorrow.
First I gotta talk to my hematologist about my blood tomorrow.
Today is 28 years since my father died. He was a great man. A combination of caring for and teaching me, but not controlling what I do, so I learned stuff on my own as well.
Took care of 4 kids by himself for 7 years after my mother died. I hate that he's not alive today. I miss him.
Took care of 4 kids by himself for 7 years after my mother died. I hate that he's not alive today. I miss him.
November 9, 2025 at 5:28 AM
Today is 28 years since my father died. He was a great man. A combination of caring for and teaching me, but not controlling what I do, so I learned stuff on my own as well.
Took care of 4 kids by himself for 7 years after my mother died. I hate that he's not alive today. I miss him.
Took care of 4 kids by himself for 7 years after my mother died. I hate that he's not alive today. I miss him.
Shaking things up a bit. Decided to move to a different music DAW. I had been using a discontinued version of Cakewalk Sonar Platinum, and now I made the jump to Cubase Pro 15.
I'm hoping the change will help me learn what I need to do in order to make better music. But 1st I gotta learn basics.
I'm hoping the change will help me learn what I need to do in order to make better music. But 1st I gotta learn basics.
November 6, 2025 at 2:27 PM
Shaking things up a bit. Decided to move to a different music DAW. I had been using a discontinued version of Cakewalk Sonar Platinum, and now I made the jump to Cubase Pro 15.
I'm hoping the change will help me learn what I need to do in order to make better music. But 1st I gotta learn basics.
I'm hoping the change will help me learn what I need to do in order to make better music. But 1st I gotta learn basics.
Had bloodwork done today, and the numbers look pretty rough. The combination of elevated red blood cells and other new elevated things suggest I could be fighting some kind of infection, or possibly polycythemia vera.
I have a video visit with my hematologist on Monday. Will let you know #blutoid
I have a video visit with my hematologist on Monday. Will let you know #blutoid
November 5, 2025 at 5:57 PM
Had bloodwork done today, and the numbers look pretty rough. The combination of elevated red blood cells and other new elevated things suggest I could be fighting some kind of infection, or possibly polycythemia vera.
I have a video visit with my hematologist on Monday. Will let you know #blutoid
I have a video visit with my hematologist on Monday. Will let you know #blutoid
I don't think my music is ever going to really impress anyone, but I at least hope some of it is fun to listen to.
I'm brainstorming ways to make my music more interesting. If you got any ideas, I'm interested.
I'm brainstorming ways to make my music more interesting. If you got any ideas, I'm interested.
November 5, 2025 at 5:58 AM
I don't think my music is ever going to really impress anyone, but I at least hope some of it is fun to listen to.
I'm brainstorming ways to make my music more interesting. If you got any ideas, I'm interested.
I'm brainstorming ways to make my music more interesting. If you got any ideas, I'm interested.
I feel like maybe I should stop drinking. While I only drink 1 bottle a month (usually lasting a few days), it just makes me sleepy, and I wake up feeling stupid as hell.
I also end up sleeping most of the day. Doesn't seem worth it. I'll save this last bit of honey bourbon for November 9th.
I also end up sleeping most of the day. Doesn't seem worth it. I'll save this last bit of honey bourbon for November 9th.
November 4, 2025 at 8:59 AM
I feel like maybe I should stop drinking. While I only drink 1 bottle a month (usually lasting a few days), it just makes me sleepy, and I wake up feeling stupid as hell.
I also end up sleeping most of the day. Doesn't seem worth it. I'll save this last bit of honey bourbon for November 9th.
I also end up sleeping most of the day. Doesn't seem worth it. I'll save this last bit of honey bourbon for November 9th.
Eye of the Beholder 🎵
I consider this a boss battle song. I wrote it in 2014 for the album Ad Lib Vol 1 Part 2.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=dv5r...
I consider this a boss battle song. I wrote it in 2014 for the album Ad Lib Vol 1 Part 2.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=dv5r...
Alphadeus - Eye of the Beholder (2014)
YouTube video by Alphadeus
www.youtube.com
November 4, 2025 at 8:47 AM
Eye of the Beholder 🎵
I consider this a boss battle song. I wrote it in 2014 for the album Ad Lib Vol 1 Part 2.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=dv5r...
I consider this a boss battle song. I wrote it in 2014 for the album Ad Lib Vol 1 Part 2.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=dv5r...
Musictoid: Donut Dodo OST - Fun House Fiasco
I'm addicted to this album (links to a playlist). By Sean "CosmicGem" Bialo. Really awesome chiptunes.
#blutoid
www.youtube.com/watch?v=jc_e...
I'm addicted to this album (links to a playlist). By Sean "CosmicGem" Bialo. Really awesome chiptunes.
#blutoid
www.youtube.com/watch?v=jc_e...
Fun House Fiasco
YouTube video by Sean Bialo - Topic
www.youtube.com
November 2, 2025 at 4:18 AM
Musictoid: Donut Dodo OST - Fun House Fiasco
I'm addicted to this album (links to a playlist). By Sean "CosmicGem" Bialo. Really awesome chiptunes.
#blutoid
www.youtube.com/watch?v=jc_e...
I'm addicted to this album (links to a playlist). By Sean "CosmicGem" Bialo. Really awesome chiptunes.
#blutoid
www.youtube.com/watch?v=jc_e...
