I don't WANT to be another thing people mindlessly scroll past. Am I annoying you? Good. When was the last fucking time you felt something other than the comfort you carefully crafted and obsessively try to keep in place? I'm here and I'm someone and I'm LOUD. It's called living.

I used to be able to create according to my whims. Now I constantly feel overwhelmed and behind. I'm only 35 and it feels like my body is 80. This injury rules my life. And I still feel bad for people who want to trade art or RP together or even just ... sit and talk. I can't do it all, anymore.

There's so much I wanna do. So many things I wanna participate in. But the reality of my situation is I am very disabled ... and I have to pick and choose EVERYTHING. Every single day. Do I take 15min to cook? Standing means I will lose time to art. Do I shower? That puts me down for the day.

If you aren't giving your characters or projects the love they deserve they WON'T get it. It takes dedication and obsession to make it big. You have to be bonkers and make stuff for the sake of making it. Other people do not matter. Blorbos matter. Let yourself play make-believe again. You need it.

I have so many things and not enough time or energy. I'm doing my best but maybe extra grace this holiday season is where it's at actually.

I'm dealing with registry errors on my desktop and I might eventually have to break down and just replace the entire rig but there's no way funds will allow it. I wish us both a very "can make our comics without losing stuff" from here on out.

Sounds like it may be time to get an external and move everything over ... just in case. Better safe than sorry. I also have to do this and keep seeing signs I should do it. Maybe today is the day.

IT REALLY IS LIKE THIS.

Tariffs and also the damage done to the hub when that plane tragically crashed. It's going to be a MESSY year.

I still cannot get over how cool and stunning this is.

I know it's hard but whatever you do to move on will be better than my cousin crashing out all over Facebook. About some guy. Who cheated on her. "I'm done." THEN BE DONE, SIS!!! Stop posting TikToks and continue your life. You're frozen. Stuck. Repeating. Stop!!

EVERY damn time.

I am looking for ways to obtain some funds with it, yes. But I am also looking for like. Spaces where I can write much more than what Bsky allows. I would like to ramble. I would like to ramble a LOT, actually. I just dunno where is best. I am eyeing Patreon?