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shewontsleep
@shewontsleep.bsky.social
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portland based poet and musician. trans woman

i make art about grief and survival

debut album "i am god?" coming soon
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shewontsleep.bsky.social
here are the lyrics to the song "burn" from my upcoming album "i am god?"

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may we all grow fire from our hands born a gift from sifting through the ash i do not believe in “looking back” i have only ever been the past there’s a lot of people who ive been but ive never unzipped all the skin let you see the rotting fruit inside help me lick it back to something ripe may we burn and become something new im not scared of anything you do i can catch a bullet with my teeth dont you dare fucking look at me i can trace the pattern like a hole plunge inside and see how deep it goes i can show you everything i know but the knowing never makes it any better sink forever what’s the point of knowing anything when what i need is one moment of gentleness one moment of stillness one moment of peace im worried i could not ever get
November 23, 2025 at 12:26 AM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
a poem called "thirst"

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i would like to drink water but we didnt have any water growing up and the moment that i get a single drop to perch my aching, cracked lips i can only pray that the well wont run dry i can only beg that ill get another sip but wanting more sips is needy off-putting, unsettling, greedy at best in the minds of those who grew up in the lake who have never known the dryness when there isn’t any rain who have never had to claw and fester for the things they got to take so easily and so freely, they never had to worry and the horrible thing about those who had their thirst quenched so fucking early is they remain in a state of hydration even when the lake runs empty so when the thunder comes down and the ache hits hard for you it felt like a drizzle for me it felt like a storm
November 20, 2025 at 10:17 PM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
a short poem about religious trauma

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And you think to yourself Maybe the myths you tell yourself are true The fables that were formed within the cradle of a broken bone To keep yourself alive inside the violence of a fractured “home” Muttered like a mantra while the crucifix constricts your neck: “Perhaps I am an evil creature shaped by only crooked forms” “Perhaps I am the entity deserving of the greatest scorn” “Perhaps I’ll rot within the shadows like the sweetest crown of thorns" ”Perhaps I am the arbiter of every single layer of hurt” And there are some days where it still seems like it might be true But you try your best to let it go Because a lot of other things Could be true too
November 19, 2025 at 2:12 AM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
no more words, please

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no more words, please id like to glue my pupils to the center of your gaze so i wont turn and look away in the burning moment when you finally see me will you sit with me inside my grief? will you brush your hand against my cheek? will you join your hands with mine and weep? will you kill me like ive always dreamed?
November 16, 2025 at 1:17 AM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
a poem called "Judas"

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hand of god drag me down to heaven i thought I saw your face in a painting but it was just a pastel that bore your resemblance I fell to my knees and I kissed you regardless lips of Judas send me into thunder tried to act like i wasn't scandalized by your brokenness it drew me closer to you it made me think that I could be fixed too
November 15, 2025 at 10:43 PM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
this is a poem called "caught"

CW for trauma and self-harm imagery

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“The important thing is that you want to get better”, so says the Angel with the missing front tooth Eyes like tiny pearls, she saw the sickness in you And in that moment you perform an absence The same one that they cast on you And it really is cyclical, you think It really is the things we lose And in an instant you are six years old “C” screaming like a banshee “A” perching at the window “U” like a lonely widow “G” beckoning you to ”H“ Come a little closer. “T” the vision fades again And then you think it’s not about the things you lose It’s more about the things you give “The important thing is that you want to get better” And you believe that you are kind Or kindness is a part of you Like smoke that covers the horizon For fear of what intruders do When they can see the whole of it In a clear and undiluted view “The important thing is that you want to get better” And you believe that you are thoughtful But thoughtfulness is what you use To balk at confrontation Of the very things that torment you “The important thing is that you want to get better” And in a vision you are 30, 40, 50 years old And the time passed like the shaking of sand And you still struggle with it every day And you wonder how you’re supposed to keep on living
November 14, 2025 at 1:27 AM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
a short poem about pity

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spare me your pity i have no use for inverted triangles raised inside the darkness of the flesh of a cage then forced to wander "normal" when i made my escape i swallow my rage like the razor blades i used to gash away the lumber of an empty frame and now my body craves its slumber like the lightning craves the thunder but i remain steadfast in my limping on to nowhere
November 11, 2025 at 12:47 AM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
i have just completed recording the song "sorry" off of my debut album "i am god?"

these are the lyrics

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November 10, 2025 at 2:15 AM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
FORGIVE

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November 4, 2025 at 1:33 AM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
i am shewontsleep. this is a poem called "responsibility".

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October 31, 2025 at 11:21 PM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
my poem "camels" is now available

you can read the full thing here:

shewontsleep.substack.com/p/camels

#poetry #poem #queerpoetry
October 28, 2025 at 9:47 PM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
my debut album "i am god?" will be coming out this year

in the meantime, i will be posting new poems and updates here regularly

#musician #indie #experimentalmusic
October 27, 2025 at 3:38 AM
shewontsleep.bsky.social
my poem "graze" is now available

you can read the whole thing here:

shewontsleep.substack.com/p/graze

#poetry #poem #queerpoetry
October 27, 2025 at 2:26 AM