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As ever, a shining beacon of good sense, grace and maturity.
Also, you would expect things like contract renewals and changes would be discussed beforehand amongst professionals, but in this case this is on me, not the organization, it's just one of the things I've been avoiding because I couldn't cope with handling it (v. mature of me, I know).
December 6, 2025 at 3:28 PM
Also, you would expect things like contract renewals and changes would be discussed beforehand amongst professionals, but in this case this is on me, not the organization, it's just one of the things I've been avoiding because I couldn't cope with handling it (v. mature of me, I know).
Mustered the courage to look at the scary thing (namely, contract changes for next year) and it was as good as I could hope for. Full time till the end of August w a small raise, even, then half until the end of the year. (Then, who knows, need to apply for grants.)
Also a small end-of-year bonus.
Also a small end-of-year bonus.
December 6, 2025 at 2:09 PM
Mustered the courage to look at the scary thing (namely, contract changes for next year) and it was as good as I could hope for. Full time till the end of August w a small raise, even, then half until the end of the year. (Then, who knows, need to apply for grants.)
Also a small end-of-year bonus.
Also a small end-of-year bonus.
HOW fid I last post 9 days ago??
Thought for sure there was something from last weekend...
All things considered, November flashed by at a shocking speed. Unsure if it's a cognitive thing relating to sertraline or just business as usual.
Thought for sure there was something from last weekend...
All things considered, November flashed by at a shocking speed. Unsure if it's a cognitive thing relating to sertraline or just business as usual.
December 6, 2025 at 4:58 AM
HOW fid I last post 9 days ago??
Thought for sure there was something from last weekend...
All things considered, November flashed by at a shocking speed. Unsure if it's a cognitive thing relating to sertraline or just business as usual.
Thought for sure there was something from last weekend...
All things considered, November flashed by at a shocking speed. Unsure if it's a cognitive thing relating to sertraline or just business as usual.
You'd think I might have managed to post something, considering how little time I've spent asleep over the past 72 hours, but you'd be wrong.
Ehh. Sleep deprivation aside, I've done mostly okay.
Ehh. Sleep deprivation aside, I've done mostly okay.
November 27, 2025 at 12:22 AM
You'd think I might have managed to post something, considering how little time I've spent asleep over the past 72 hours, but you'd be wrong.
Ehh. Sleep deprivation aside, I've done mostly okay.
Ehh. Sleep deprivation aside, I've done mostly okay.
For a Sunday treat, the Japanese illustrator Uiko Ikeda: www.instagram.com/uikoikeda?ig...
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November 23, 2025 at 2:14 PM
For a Sunday treat, the Japanese illustrator Uiko Ikeda: www.instagram.com/uikoikeda?ig...
Quiet Saturday, slept a lot, did laundry, made pumpkin soup (Hokkaido pumpkins are a revelation!), read something for a peer review.
November 23, 2025 at 4:09 AM
Quiet Saturday, slept a lot, did laundry, made pumpkin soup (Hokkaido pumpkins are a revelation!), read something for a peer review.
Why are people liking the down duvet and nice sleep post, is it the vibes? Maybe I haven't affichéd it enough that while I'm meh on astrology in general I do exhibit the stereotypical Taurus affinity to mundane hedonism, i.e. the nicest bedding I can afford, excellent pyjamas, etc.
November 22, 2025 at 2:26 PM
Why are people liking the down duvet and nice sleep post, is it the vibes? Maybe I haven't affichéd it enough that while I'm meh on astrology in general I do exhibit the stereotypical Taurus affinity to mundane hedonism, i.e. the nicest bedding I can afford, excellent pyjamas, etc.
Sleeping with the down duvet was oh so nice. And I went to the physio's for a good workout, and got some groceries. Not the most productive of days, but at least trying to stay on top of emails.
November 21, 2025 at 2:19 AM
Sleeping with the down duvet was oh so nice. And I went to the physio's for a good workout, and got some groceries. Not the most productive of days, but at least trying to stay on top of emails.
As for the general state of things, parts of the country had heavy snowfalls, my corner thankfully got just a very beautiful buildup of frost from the mists blown in over the sea. I finally switched to the feather duvet, because who are we kidding, the winter is here.
November 20, 2025 at 3:08 AM
As for the general state of things, parts of the country had heavy snowfalls, my corner thankfully got just a very beautiful buildup of frost from the mists blown in over the sea. I finally switched to the feather duvet, because who are we kidding, the winter is here.
Didn't get round to posting anything, but yesterday, one of the major stress factors of the past few months at work was finally resolved, allowing me to take the next steps, which immediately turned into a new set of problems, but I feel less solely responsible for handling those.
November 20, 2025 at 3:02 AM
Didn't get round to posting anything, but yesterday, one of the major stress factors of the past few months at work was finally resolved, allowing me to take the next steps, which immediately turned into a new set of problems, but I feel less solely responsible for handling those.
Timestamps on comments are the bane of my existence. There was some ass-backwards way of removing them in Word, but my current options are Docs or LibreOffice Writer, neither of which has this option, and hoo boy do I not appreciate this tattling on my unstandard working hours.
November 18, 2025 at 12:10 AM
Timestamps on comments are the bane of my existence. There was some ass-backwards way of removing them in Word, but my current options are Docs or LibreOffice Writer, neither of which has this option, and hoo boy do I not appreciate this tattling on my unstandard working hours.
Well, after an entire weekend of feeling destroyed by anxiety, I looked at my emails and there weren't any new flaming disasters, so I'm grateful for that.
November 17, 2025 at 4:54 PM
Well, after an entire weekend of feeling destroyed by anxiety, I looked at my emails and there weren't any new flaming disasters, so I'm grateful for that.
Disappointed to find that email anxiety is back in full force this weekend. It is linked to specific people, most of all my former boss, now senior colleague. And it's really in the way of completing other, more manageable tasks, because the files I need are also in the inbox. OTL
November 17, 2025 at 12:13 AM
Disappointed to find that email anxiety is back in full force this weekend. It is linked to specific people, most of all my former boss, now senior colleague. And it's really in the way of completing other, more manageable tasks, because the files I need are also in the inbox. OTL
Unexpected development, dad's friend who's been seen by idk how many doctors already was finally hospitalized, they're dissolving a couple of blood clots, and as a side effect, it's helping immensely with his cognitive issues.
I am certainly still feeling quite a way about my dad not making it to 70, otoh there's reason to be thankful he's not around to see things, the first thing that gave me this feeling was the start of war in 2022, and now one of his besties from uni is declining fast, cognitively and physically.
November 16, 2025 at 2:19 PM
Unexpected development, dad's friend who's been seen by idk how many doctors already was finally hospitalized, they're dissolving a couple of blood clots, and as a side effect, it's helping immensely with his cognitive issues.
First snow on the ground, and I just ate the last of the cherry tomatoes that grew on the balcony over the summer (picked the green ones off sometime last week, they quickly ripened once indoors and were surprisingly tasty).
November 16, 2025 at 1:28 AM
First snow on the ground, and I just ate the last of the cherry tomatoes that grew on the balcony over the summer (picked the green ones off sometime last week, they quickly ripened once indoors and were surprisingly tasty).
It's a bit of a slog these days. Came home from work yesterday with a massive headache, making the effort to get groceries on the way, and thought that a few weeks ago, I would have been miserable - not that I was now happy, but the low ebbs do seem to have flattened into a kind of numbness.
November 12, 2025 at 2:41 AM
It's a bit of a slog these days. Came home from work yesterday with a massive headache, making the effort to get groceries on the way, and thought that a few weeks ago, I would have been miserable - not that I was now happy, but the low ebbs do seem to have flattened into a kind of numbness.
The plan was to try and document the daily impact of adjusting to ADs, obviously it's slipped this week with work and... idk, listlessness. But in short, I am noticeably less anxious, my thoughts do not spiral into catastrophizing as much, but I still cannot focus for shit.
November 7, 2025 at 2:14 AM
The plan was to try and document the daily impact of adjusting to ADs, obviously it's slipped this week with work and... idk, listlessness. But in short, I am noticeably less anxious, my thoughts do not spiral into catastrophizing as much, but I still cannot focus for shit.
A peaceful weekend at home, catching up on some chores, getting enough sleep, even looking a little better.
Downsides: have not made any particular progress with work tasks, keep worrying and at times feeling very anxious about it. Not constantly though. I guess that's something.
Downsides: have not made any particular progress with work tasks, keep worrying and at times feeling very anxious about it. Not constantly though. I guess that's something.
November 2, 2025 at 11:35 PM
A peaceful weekend at home, catching up on some chores, getting enough sleep, even looking a little better.
Downsides: have not made any particular progress with work tasks, keep worrying and at times feeling very anxious about it. Not constantly though. I guess that's something.
Downsides: have not made any particular progress with work tasks, keep worrying and at times feeling very anxious about it. Not constantly though. I guess that's something.
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The name of this 1948 Dior gown is flamant rose which sounds much more romantic than its English translation which is flamingo pink. All of the fullness at the back, layered over a bustle style tournure pad adds energy to the movement of the skirt, in darker shades #MoMuAntwerp #FashionHistory 🗃️🪡
November 2, 2025 at 9:46 PM
The name of this 1948 Dior gown is flamant rose which sounds much more romantic than its English translation which is flamingo pink. All of the fullness at the back, layered over a bustle style tournure pad adds energy to the movement of the skirt, in darker shades #MoMuAntwerp #FashionHistory 🗃️🪡
I've made my go-to quick sad season comfort food twice this autumn. Spicy instant noodles (Korean) with some frozen veg (thin green beans, broccoli or cauliflower, julienned or baby carrots will all do) and an egg (calling it poached seems questionable, more like mixed in).
November 1, 2025 at 2:56 AM
I've made my go-to quick sad season comfort food twice this autumn. Spicy instant noodles (Korean) with some frozen veg (thin green beans, broccoli or cauliflower, julienned or baby carrots will all do) and an egg (calling it poached seems questionable, more like mixed in).
Slept a decent amount, but can't claim to have been remarkably productive today. Bouts of feeling tense and anxious af during the mundanest activities. I did look at my emails (responded to none), looked at and tinkered with the things I'm supposed to be working on, etc.
November 1, 2025 at 2:36 AM
Slept a decent amount, but can't claim to have been remarkably productive today. Bouts of feeling tense and anxious af during the mundanest activities. I did look at my emails (responded to none), looked at and tinkered with the things I'm supposed to be working on, etc.
Got distracted when the intent was to comment on the day's events: a meeting that went okay but made me feel anxious anyway, and then some emails, paperwork and useful conversations. And then, a party for the institution's anniversary, that I was absolutely not in the mood for.
October 31, 2025 at 1:34 AM
Got distracted when the intent was to comment on the day's events: a meeting that went okay but made me feel anxious anyway, and then some emails, paperwork and useful conversations. And then, a party for the institution's anniversary, that I was absolutely not in the mood for.
Another day of trying to put up a fight. Uncharacteristically, had trouble sleeping, which might be due to the upped dosage of thyroid hormone replacement (can't remember if I mentioned this, but sleep issues are the main tell). So obviously already at a disadvantage, and meh from there on.
October 31, 2025 at 12:45 AM
Another day of trying to put up a fight. Uncharacteristically, had trouble sleeping, which might be due to the upped dosage of thyroid hormone replacement (can't remember if I mentioned this, but sleep issues are the main tell). So obviously already at a disadvantage, and meh from there on.
I was a little late to the workout session this afternoon (just missed a bus connection, and then there was traffic), but it was okay, felt pretty good afterwards even though the sun was already setting. Kind of a letdown afterwards though, not up to much and headache-y.
October 30, 2025 at 2:18 AM
I was a little late to the workout session this afternoon (just missed a bus connection, and then there was traffic), but it was okay, felt pretty good afterwards even though the sun was already setting. Kind of a letdown afterwards though, not up to much and headache-y.
There's still half a semester to go, but I'm pleased to say that compared to September, I've run late somewhat less this month. Haven't had to resort to ordering a ride to make it to class.
Had another one of those today, and then a meeting. Feeling okay-ish, but also stressing about work.
Had another one of those today, and then a meeting. Feeling okay-ish, but also stressing about work.
October 29, 2025 at 2:04 AM
There's still half a semester to go, but I'm pleased to say that compared to September, I've run late somewhat less this month. Haven't had to resort to ordering a ride to make it to class.
Had another one of those today, and then a meeting. Feeling okay-ish, but also stressing about work.
Had another one of those today, and then a meeting. Feeling okay-ish, but also stressing about work.