Sleepless Scholar
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Time for the pinned thread, starting with my ko-fi account :3

I'll be adding more to my shop over time/as I have spoons as well ^^
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As someone who is 4'11" I always laugh when people think 5'4" is short like...no it's not??? XD
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in another universe, my window is open and i'm laying on the floor. i am twelve years old. nothing bad has happened to me yet.
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it took many years of vomiting up all the filth i'd been taught about myself, and half-believed, before i was able to walk on this earth as though i had a right to be here.
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[A flare has entered the room]

Me, beating it back with a stick: Go on. Git.
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I'm in an abusive relationship with barometric pressure
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"You were fine yesterday."

And doing something yesterday is why I feel like this today.
Like...idk. I try to keep things positive on this account but it's so hard when it literally feels like everything I try to do ends in failure.

My wife bought me Hades II to try and help by giving me a new game to focus on but that really only went so far. I'm just...I give up, honestly.
I try to get an FC going and repeatedly get told without a house and already established events people won't want in, and that seems to be the case; we have an active listing up in Community finder but as soon as people see we don't have housing they dip, or as soon as it's clear we're small. -
enough to make any amount of money with it outside of D&D.

Speaking of, I've had 3 games open for over 6 months. One player applied, got sick of waiting and dipped. Another hasn't talked to me since joining. A third eventually said they were 're-evaluating their relationship with TTRPGs' and left -
My discord server? Dying because when we do run events no one shows up and no one gives feedback on when times would be good or what kind of events they want to see.

My ko-fi page? Yeah, the only stuff it ever sees is my D&D players paying for games. I don't win the internet popularity contest -
There's more to it than this that's getting me, though.

I've been told repeatedly in my life that I shouldn't lead groups/I have no business leading groups because I'm shit at it.

And every time I try to prove that wrong, I fail and it just gets harder and harder to pick myself back up.
*sighing*

We lost the house. Again.

It's been 9 fucking months, and I have entered every last fucking entry cycle for a medium. Every last one in that time period. And we always fucking lose.

I want my FC to be good, but literally no one will touch us unless we have a house :/
I'm tired y'all. Everything else weighing on us and now this shit too, I just fucking can't.

Literally it's making me wanna give up on the game entirely. Like how the fuck am I supposed to do anything like this? I hate the housing system so fucking much, just give us instanced housing you fucks.
I'm so fucking fed up. We have the 20mil for it, and I'm trying to save more because competition for large plots is less and it'd save us the move later but still. This is some absolute fucking bullshit.

And we still have wards that are owned by like 1 person or 1 FC that SE won't do shit about.
*sighing*

We lost the house. Again.

It's been 9 fucking months, and I have entered every last fucking entry cycle for a medium. Every last one in that time period. And we always fucking lose.

I want my FC to be good, but literally no one will touch us unless we have a house :/
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maybe i should have wanted less. maybe i should have ignored the bowl in me burning to be filled. maybe i should have wanted less.
Anyone who wants to leave after that is free to do so as far as she's concerned, and they can face whatever punishment for abandoning their posts from whatever military organization they belong to. But if they stay she expects they will show bravery, lest their cowardice make them the next examples.
"If you are not prepared to follow orders, if you are not prepared to stand up no matter how daunting the foe, then leave now. I will not have cowards on the battlefield, that is how innocent lives are lost. I take no joy in killing these fine men and women, but a point must be made."
Tyr is the sort who keeps careful track of those who refuse to do what they are supposed to in that kind of situation, and when it's over she has them executed in front of everyone else to make a point along with a little bit of a speech.
#RuneLore

Tyr's father was military, and she technically is too. Cowardice is not tolerated; as the Warrior of Light she's expected to stand and fight no matter the odds, and she expects the same of others. If they were not prepared for war they should not have signed up to be soldiers.
How would your wol/OC handle cowardice from their own side in a war? Fleeing, refusing to advance, that kind of thing.

Would they be understanding? Would they chastize them? Would they execute them?

#wolqotd
Also with leftover Taco Bell from last night for lunch XD

We were gonna go to the sit down Korean BBQ place tonight but wife's not feeling good after the vet trip so we're holding that until Saturday. Tonight's just pasta for dinner, easy to make and full of goodness ^^
Took the dogs to the vet. Wife has to take meds and shower because she's allergic and just being in the car/same room with them is giving her some swelling T-T

But we got Starbucks (and pup cups for the baby girls for being so good at the vet) and we're home so now I get to work on campaign prep.
cooked ground meat (if I have the spoons to cook meat) can help fill it out and give some protein as well.

Other veggies can also be added; I've gone peas, carrots, and green beans before. The type of pasta doesn't matter, it's always whatever I have on hand ^^