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Noxedwin Tepes ⛧

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(He/Them) Video game jankmonkey. I curate The Shapes Museum: https://nox13last.github.io Games: Final Fantasy XIV: Nox'edwin Tepes@Jenova (Aether) Warframe: Noxedwin

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Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · Oct 22

Uh. It's 4AM, and it's been a year since I watered the algorithm.

• 'Nox' is fine.
• He/They.
• I don't have the interesting autism. I hyperfixate on things.
◦ My mistakes, mostly.
• I'm told I have the depression that makes me funny, though??
• Breaking video games is one of my hyperfixations.

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Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 4h

I hope this release goes well, and I'm only, like, 2% bitter that I don't get to experience it. Manifold Garden was a beautiful project (the staggered beta test was some of the most fun work I've done), and now I'm ready for *weird*.

Good luck to you and yours!

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 4h

I know this was discussed in a previous mention of this game, but many of us have no choice but to cross our fingers for a SteamVR release.
And I hope you have plans for releasing on SteamVR. I would _absolutely_ get it, then.

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 18h

It's *Sonic* saying this. The guy for whom everyone keeps asking "if it's a race, why doesn't he just get out and run?".

Sonic is saying this knowing from first-hand experience that abandoning the race vehicle is a DQ-able offense.

"If *I* have to stay in the car, so do *you,* Bee."

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 2d

It's okay, though! They still got the URLs! :D

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 2d

I wish I could exist in my own skull without having to shout over so many voices, all equally valid and invalid, all equally cogent and inane.

(I'm not scizophrenic, this is just the device by which I understand the clutter of my own thought-process)

I wish I were in a country that legalised weed.

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 2d

Honestly? It's painful. I work best when 'I'm' not in control.

I don't know what my best self is.

I'm neurotic, I'm careless, I put myself in harm, I obsess over my self-image despite not having the energy to present myself favourably. And I don't know which is the ideal 'me' anymore.

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Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 2d

I stutter. I'm not sure if there's a term for it, but I have to buffer what to say. I have to queue my next two or so sentences. The moment that buffer runs out, I can't form any more sentences. I can't speak and think simultaneously because all thoughts, subconscious or not, are always chattering.

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 2d

I think clearly, I socialise better. CLEARLY, I function better (by which I mean, I can function on a instinctual, muscle-memorised form). And as much of a danger as it is to think "if being drunk is this much better than normality, why don't I just stay drunk?", I got a lot of personal problems.

Two chat excepts from Final Fantasy XIV (ChatTwo).

12:15 AM (Narve Lundberg @ Adamantoise) oh no, they dc'ing again
(Kai Chau @ Gilgamesh) o7
Hana Yamazaki gently pats Rukus Cloudkicker.
((Grant Seitaki @ Faeirie)) tanks and phys ranged pls try to use those interrupts
12:16 AM (Nox'edwin Tepes) And off he goes
12:17 AM ((Noxedwin Tepes)) We're down a healer.
12:18 AM ((Noxedwin Tepes)) We're not sure what state they're in
((Kanawa Gyosha @ Siren)) I belive in you
((Noctalli Tezca @ Faeirie)) panic?
(Grant Seitaki @ Faeirie)) grug
((Noxledwin Tepes)) Nah. More like "fuck it, we ball"
(Grant Seitaki @ Faeirie)) i think we can cover you if needed lol
((Noxledwin Tepes)) I'm drunk and have met any success whatsoever. I have The Hubris.
((Grant Seitaki @ Faeirie)) real
12:19 AM (Kanawa Gyosha @ Siren)) Lemme know once the MCH is outa CS
((Kai Chau @ Gilgamesh)) just glance at our health every once in a while andl im sure we're good
((Noxtedwin Tepes)) Our healer R/CId once. He'll probably do it again
((Malune Auvryndar Sargatanas)) we good
Margharita Man Midgardsormr: Ready
(Noxedwin Tepes) I am not as confident as I let on
(Noxedwin Tepes) All I do is my best, though! :D
(Narve Lundberg @ Adamantoise) I have physic I gotchu B)
12:25 AM (Noxedwin Tepes) Raising Aaragon Rei Malboro. <se.12>
(Narve Lundberg @ Adamantoise) Raising Rukus Cloudkicker
12:28 AM Margharita Man Midgardsormr: GG!
(Noxtedwin Tepes)) Good stuff.
You perform an Eastern bow.
((Kai Chau @ Gilgamesh)) gg!
(Narve Lundberg @ Adamantoise) gg
((Noxtedwin Tepes)) Thanks for the raid!
12:29 AM (Rukus Cloudkicker) id comm you thrice if I could nox
(Noxtedwin Tepes) Ay, thanks!
(Kai Chau @ Gilgamesh) national hero right eher
12:30 AM Nox'edwin Tepes) Like I said, I only do my best. Thanks for trusting me.
(Kai Chau @ Gilgamesh) o7
(Noxedwin Tepes) o7

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 2d

Don't get me wrong - alcohol can DESTROY lives, and it's a poison to be respected for its power to turn ordinary men into monsters.
With that said, my brain always feels like a room of a dozen people with the same voice all trying to shout over one another. It feels nice to just

make them be quiet

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 2d

afforded the gravitas they deserve. But I have not gone a day in my life with any sort of ADHD medicine. I somehow missed the Ritalin boat. I am currently on week 9.5 of waiting for a referral, but in the meantime... ...wow. A third of Jack and rest of Coke do sure silence the voices in my head.

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 2d

It's probably extremely damning to my nature as a person how I self-medicate my ADHD with whiskey, but I just solo-healed the last two bosses of Thaleia while eight glasses deep. #FFXIV
You have these horror stories about how alcohol destroys this life or the other, and these stories must be

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Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 3d

It's this (picture; top-left). You can buy those batteries at any major grocery store because they're used for plenty of things. If you want to set a game back to how it was when it was new, you take this battery out and wait a minute. The save data will have electrically decayed away to nothing.

The board for a SNES cartidge, removed from its protective housing. Below it, a CR2032 battery still in its wrapper.

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 3d

Nowadays, we have a form of save data known as "flash memory". But before that, the way we saved games was to write it to a microchip that always had to be powered. If it lost power, the save file would vanish.
To constantly feed power, a CR2032 battery cell in the game cartidge would be used.

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Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 3d

People are gonna pop off about Kelsey from OMORI popping up, but I'm popping off about Phillip from Space Funeral having his sad nap to the north.
He'll feel better (but not much).

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 3d

You can't fault the video's accuracy.
He's shitting on Americans practicing their Constitutional rights. What more do we need?

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 3d

Prob'ly should have been more careful with this hashtag. Oopsie. I'm sure the smut-merchants and exhibitionists don't want to hear about video game takes. Oh well.

Uh... #SuperHotGame has been mutil by #SuperHotTeam - a shitty studio. Read why above...
#SuperHotPresents is probably fine.

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 4d

I've watched it back and have decided that it is STILL funny.

Some days, being "right" isn't worth it. But being "funny" always is.

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Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 4d

(I'm having to be real careful about this line of questioning. I made a joke once in SFSF's Tweets about how Eggman procreates by hatching out of an egg as a smaller, angrier Eggman, and an entire thread occurred that ended up with us being put in an objection.lol sketch.

And that still haunts me.)

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Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 4d

We don't get the comics over here, so my only connection to the "Sonic's world is not Earth, but is parallel to it" hypothesis comes from 'Sonic X'.
But whenever I ask about it, I get hit with Bellisario's Maxim.

Nobody seems to want to answer the tough questions. >:(

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 4d

So does this imply that Mobians are an evolutionary link between their ancestors and "animal counterparts"? Or is this a fantasy "if evolution is real, why do we have monkeys?" situation?

Or is this a Super Mario Bros. (1993) situation where they're extradimensional holdouts? It's that one, right?

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Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 6d

It's great that folks know now that she was being framed, but if there's ever a legal cross I would want to bear, "first (known) crime in space; also gay" is probably in my top 5.

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 6d

LESBIAN👏SPACE👏CRIMES

When this broke, I downloaded an ISS tracker on my phone so I could look up at the majesty of the cosmos and think to myself

"Damn. That's a fast-moving dot in the sky. And somewhere on it, a lesbian is committing credit card fraud. That's pretty based."

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Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 7d

I almost forgot. I do have a pretty significant stake - I am a backer of the original game. My name is still in the credits.
I try not to point out *where*, a little because it's a dead-pseudonym, but mostly out of shame.
I gave money for the Superhot that was sold - not for Piotr's chastity cage.

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 7d

Week 9 of waiting to hear back for my ADHD assessment booking. I haven't even spoken to anyone yet.
I don't even know if writing long screeds is therapeutic or stressful. I just know that I have many takes and brain go brrrrr until I write them down and inflict them on anyone walking through my door

Noxedwin Tepes ⛧ @noxedwin.bsky.social · 7d

If, on the off-chance, the reader knows Piotr, please locate him and, I dunno, dump a leftover drink on him. The more likely to stain his shirt, the better.
Tepid coffee at least.

Play Superhot VR. Despite the mutilation, it's fine. If you want the story, find one of the many downgrade guides.